Me & MLM

"There's no guarantee". At long last, I can now accept that word. Now I can surely accept that just by workin in other person's company, employed no matter how hardworkin I am, how smart I am, there's no guarantee that my position, my job in the company is secured. It's a bitter reality I'm willin to swallow now. To think of it, I'm kind of fed up with workin in someone else's company. Workin my arse off fer someone else. Ah! It's such a relief to spit that out. What got into me you might ask? Well, now I found a way to earn my own income without botherin meself to wake up dead early in the mornin, to make sure my punch card isn't red everyday, to hear any complaints from my peer whatsoever. Yeah it got somethin to do with my-own-business. Ironically, it was somethin that I hated fer 27 years. It's a Multi Level Marketing (MLM) and the company is Gano Excel.

Wait! Don't skip readin just yet. Like I've stated before, I used to hate all MLM companies. Even direct sellin companies. Not a "I want to kill them" kind of hate but the "I will never get meself involved in it" kind of hate. And now, a few month ago to be exact; I changed my perspective. Firstly, I'm more informed about MLM (MLM is not the same as Direct Selling.) and the main point is, I can see the way to achieve somethin in it. Beware, this post today will most probably get on your nerves like mosquitoes because I won't spare any biased (but factual) informations about my new money-makin path, the MLM and the company I'm gettin meself into, Gano Excel.

I'm just tired of goin fer interviews, workin 8++hours per day, gettin a so-so paycheck and bein dumped when I needed the cold hard cash the most. Like the state I'm in. It's a bitter experience and I've it's not my 1st time. To find a replacement job, quein to get an interview and hopin that the cycle will start again rollin at the same place. Pfft. Not to mention competin with the fresh graduates, SPM holders and such which is increasin every year unlike jobs opportunities which is, uhm, maybe 60++ people competin fer 1 job. Yeah not every person who left the unis, school, colleges will have a job. It's so true. That is reality. Even if you have a good job right now, who can guarantee that joy ride is reserved fer you fer as long as you want? It's just a matter of time fer your boss to give you the resignation letter and give your seat to someone fresh, energetic fer whatever reason he can think of. I'm experiencin that. Again and again. So, if I can help somebody else's business with such uncertainty why can't I make my own business and put the same effort and hope that the outcome will be better? The answer is yes, I can. And it's not impossible to receive more from the same effort!

Take this fer an example. I work in a company with a RM1000 pay per month. All the workin habits aside like punch card, long workin hours aside, I might be happy workin with a stable increment of my salary every year. Sounds good eh? It's a mixed feelin now considerin that the normal increment pay would be around RM50. Per year!. So I work my arse's off fer 5 years and all of the sudden, the company can't keep me anymore. So I got about RM1250 until I was told to 'make room fer changes' or 'make a career change fer the best' and boom!, I was left with zero. ZERO! It'll be great if I can have a new job, with the same workin preference and a startup pay the same amount as the last amount I got. But that'll be a modern fairy tales. In reality, I will have to accept any offer without any objection about the amount the new company are willin to pay me because, like what I've wrote earlier, it's either me grabbin that job no question asked or I can let another 59 eligible person to take it. So what if I took the job. How long will the company keep me this time? 1 year? 2?

Ah, I got the point. Workin fer somebody else is ok as long as I feel that I'm secured with it. As long as I feel that my future will be bright and all my financial problems will be at ease because my job will always be mine. Luckily, I don't that way anymore. Workin fer someone else and givin my all to it alone will never guarantee any secure financial solution fer me. Nu uh. So the solution is, make my own business.

As stated in hadith, business is one good duty. The outcome is based on your performance and there's no fixed limit on how much money one person can make out of it. It's because, I will be the one who'll set how much salary I can get and I'll be followin my protocol and mine alone. Sounds fun but the type of business and my capability on doin and runnin the business is the thing that counts. I won't say anythin about risk because if we look at things, everythin have their own risk. Not just in business. Even our love live have risks. It's just the matter of minimisin and cheatin it. So what business should I do? With the current financial situation I'm in, fer sure I can't just open up my own boutique or a resort can I? So I would have to choose a business with a low startup overhead, a business with good products, a business with a clear long term direction and a business which can guarantee my survivality. So fer me, that business is Gano Excel.

I'll not go in detail about the company as you can conveniently browse their website and read about them from there. From what I know, Gano Excel is based in Kedah, Malaysia. Yeah. They are our local MLM company. Fer some of people, the word 'local' is like reserved fer somethin with lack of quality or standard. Pfft. Now read this. This local company is currently havin a strong presence in 31 countries. 31 countries dude! With the latest 2 bein Korea and Japan in the final phase of startin the operation. Now tell me we shouldn't be proud of that. Fer those who live in Kedah or near the place. Go and see Gano Excel's Ganoderma farm fer yourself. It's huge! And currently the farm is expandin fer almost twice it current size. Because of what? Because of the strong demand lah.

I nearly fergot to say anythin about Ganoderma. In chinese, it's called Lingzhi. Yeah it's that red mushroom. Gano Excel, from that name we can be sure that the products will have somethin to do with that Ganoderma plant. That plant is one miracle herb. I'll not lengthen this post with the benefits of that product because you can read it from the official website. In short, it has a great medical value. And by choosin to get involved in medical business, I know I'm walkin in the right path. Why? Because people always neglect their health when they're healthy until they got sick. That's the other truth. And take this fer an example, no matter what, the need fer medical related stuff with continue to grow unlike other things. Have you seen any hospital got closed down, or smallen in size? No. Think about that.

My post is long enough. Heh. It's more like a shameless advertisement huh? Yeah well, like I've said earlier. I'll be biased (as usual). Oh I didn't even write anythin about Gano Excel's marketin plan, the most sought after information fer you MLM people out there. Fer that, you have to find out fer yourself. Gano Excel's seminar are frequent nowadays and it won't hurt anybody to go and listen to it. But from what I've learned so far. It's all about money. So it's good. I was goin to make this MLM as a backup plan and a side income but after I went to my team's meetin today, I'm choosin this as my main income plan. And if I can achieve my secret target, this will be my only source of income. Fer the record, a 19 years old girl got involved with Gano Excel and now she's doin her MLM business with a 5 digits income. Another thing to ponder, some people want health, some people want money, but if you're given a choice, why don't you choose both? Later then. MY205903 signin out ;).

p/s: You might read bout the 'batu karang' I experienced before. Yeah well I drank Gano Cafe and a few days after that I was shown the sign that I have batu karang. It's one the reason why I'm into this thingy now.

Me, Momoe and Pangkor. Unforgettable moments. (Plus a bit of a simple guide fer would-be tourist.)

Pangkor was great. Unspeakably magnificent. Well yes one of the main point of why it's so great is that I'm with someone that I love and that makes it even better. I'm at home right now and I'm missin the experiences so bad. Not to mention I miss Momoe too. 7 days of a total dream getaway. Pangkor is a romantic island. Beautiful and cozy. I feel so sad to leave the place. The sound of the wave is still resoundin in my head continuously. And now I'm back and the torture is unbearable. Such a sweet memories. I feel like the time cheated and jealous of that good moments I was havin back there in Pangkor.

Me and Momoe, we went to Pangkor on 17th of August, takin a direct bus trip from Seremban to Lumut which cost about RM24.00 per person. There's only 2 bus trip from Seremban to Pangkor, 9:45AM and 5:00PM so we took the early trip. The journey is about 6hours. The view isn't that great because it's highway almost all the way but heck Momoe is beside me so there's nothin more that I want. That's more than enough.

Lumut bus station is basically near the jetty area so it's not hard to find the place to get ferry. A ferry trip cost about RM5.00 per person and the trip is not more than 30 minutes. We didn't have time to go around Lumut but I guess the place is not that big. It's a lovely place fer sure. The sight of the open sea is very temptin. There's a TLDM (Tentera Laut DiRaja Malaysia, Malaysian Royal Navy) port there so seein a few navy is a common sight. From Lumut, the ferry will stop at 2 ports with the last port bein the place which common tourist will disembark. Followin Momoe's Pangkor travel guide, we went to Teluk Nipah by taxi (pink vans!) fer RM10.00 fer both of us.

The trip by taxi from Pangkor's jetty to Teluk Nipah is about 10 minutes with the road bein alongside the sea line so the sight is very beautiful. Simply gorgeous. Teluk Nipah is a popular spot fer beach lovers with many resorts from the luxury type to the budget traveller's choice. We opted fer Havana Beach Resort (the 1st resort after we arrive to Teluk Nipah.) which is located near the beach. We wanted to stay at Palma Beach Resort near the centre of Teluk Nipah, but after encounterin a few problems, Havana was the more suitable choice. Bein less than 20 metres from the beach, Havana is not a bad choice at all. The room is good with workin water heater and electric kettle is provided. Oh theres even a big TV with Astro inside. Simple but very cozy.

Although Havana didn't provide us with breakfast (except fer Saturday onward.) nor there's any cafe inside the resort, it's nothin to worry because there's many place to fill our stomach scattered around Teluk Nipah. It'll take only a brief walk to go to many restaurant. The Havana's receptionist recommended us TJ Restaurant, which is just a few minutes walk from our resort and the food is really good. There's another spot which is also our favourite near the center of the beach but I don't know the name of the restaurant. As fer the price, it's just like the normal price around Malaysia and most of the time, the seafood price is much more cheaper. There's cats at TJ so everytime me and Momoe was there, Momoe would go to the cats and play with them. Yeah Momoe, I think the cats is missin you too dear. As fer tea time, me and Momoe just stick to DIY tea (which she brought with her plus a few sachettes of tea with many flavors her friend gave to me as a present.) and snacks. The weather was fine all around and watchin the sea while sippin tea with the 2 of us is simply superb.

On the 1st day there, we're just fillin out the time with walkin around Teluk Nipah, havin dinner and restin in our room because we're practically tired of the journey. We wanted to go out later that night but the resort's gate was locked and the person in charge was sleepin so we're stuck inside and have to make do with another restin time in the room. Beware though, mosquito are a bunch so you might want to bring along a mosquito repellent or anythin if you don't like the air-conditioner to be too cold fer you. Fer us, Momoe brought a small (as small as a car perfume like Glide's.) mosquito repellent device which uses battery and fer a continuous use, it's a 3 days heaven fer us without mosquito.

The next day was the day of enjoyin the beach. The Teluk Nipah beach is beautiful. Because it's weekday, there's not that many people around and it's great. The beach spot infront of Havana is even better because its located on the side of Teluk Nipah and the popular spot was around the center so there's just a few of people who'll be there.

There's another beautiful beach nearby, the Coral Bay. Coral Bay is just a few minutes walk from Teluk Nipah and the people there is even fewer. The water is beautifully green and it's a romantic place to lay down with Momoe watchin the sea, hearin the wave and smellin the fresh saltwater air. Unlike Teluk Nipah, Coral Bay doesn't have any active shops so we bought all the snacks we needed from Teluk Nipah instead. We had to move our picnic mat a few times though because the water level got high in the evenin. I can remember seein a crab on Coral Bay, who's tryin to get an evenin food and Momoe tried to get near the crab but the crab was too fast fer her. The crab would go out of it's hole and everytime Momoe move, the crab would dash into the hole quickly. It's cute. Both of them ;).

There's 2 small island infront of Teluk Nipah, to the left is Mentangor Island and the other one is uhm.. I don't know. The other island is smaller than Mentangor and it's the favourite spot fer snorkelin. The only way to get there is by usin water transportation like boats (RM20 per person, may get hiked if it's weekend.) and kayak (I don't know the cost because Momoe wouldn't allow me to go kayak, wah! :P). If you take a boat, the boatman will take you to a brief tour around the area and give a bit of informations about the places nearby. Cool. The island is so small that it only have a burger stall on it. But the snorkelin experience there was heaven. We tried snorkelin there and we both fell in love with it. The view is gorgeous. The colorfull fishes just puts us in a trance spell. When we arrived to the snorkelin island, the boatman asked fer the duration of our stay there so he could pick us up and when the time is up, we extended the stay fer another 1 1/2 hour because it's so great to be there. It's recommended if you could bring your own set of snorkelin equipment like goggle, snorkel and others because some of the equipment provided by the boatman might not the in the optimum condition. We went to the small island again on the next day, this time we said that we wanted to stay fer 4 hours and again, we extended the stay to another 1 1/2 hour when the time is up because Ahhhhhhh! we love the place and the fishes so much! I had a few piece of bread and it's magnificent to see the fishes takin a bite at the bread I thrown. If you're at Teluk Nipah, go to the small island and experience that. It's an unspeakable pleasure.

Momoe wanted to see around the island so we rented a motorbike. Yeah you can rent bicycle too fer less cost. A standard 4-stroke cub motorbike is RM30.00 fer 24 hours with scooter bein more expensive. Bein a holiday island, you can ride the motorbike without wearin helmet nearby but it's better to be safe. The road there is not that wide and many of the places have a pretty hilly track so it's better to check if the brakes are workin. Fillin up a RM2 worth of petrol, we travelled around the island and have a few more kilometre's worth of petrol to go. It's good. There's many resorts scattered around Pangkor and the small Pangkor town is nice. There's many seafood-snack shops and souveniers too. There's a police station near the town and firestation there too, but I rarely see any policeman at Teluk Nipah. I guess the island is so safe. And from our experiences, the island is safe. The only bad things there is just mosquitos. While ridin the bike, me and Momoe found many other good beaches and I even had the chance to find some nice seashells fer my present to Momoe. While it's quite hard to get lost in Pangkor, it's good to have a map or a guide book. As fer me, I have Momoe. She have a great sense of direction, even way better than me. It's funny because she's the one who'll tell me which direction to go etc. and I am the one who's a Malaysian. Sheesh.

There's 2 lookout points nearby Teluk Nipah if you wanted to see sunset. We haven't had the chance to see sunset but we went to one of the lookout points and the view is splendid. The view when the sun sets must be even way gorgeous. We can see a few fisherman's village on our bike journey and it's cool. Fer me, the bike journey with Momoe is one of the romantic thing. If you're there, rent a bike and go on a bike trip around the island with your loved one. It's an experience.

After extendin our stay in Pangkor fer another day, we left Pangkor on Monday 22nd. I wouldn't go to the details because it's somewhat emotional fer both of us. We fell in love with Pangkor and it's sad to be leavin. Pangkor have all the things we needed fer a nice beach vacation. Boat ride, snorkelin, fishin, kayakin, sun tannin etc. If it's not because of Momoe, I don't know if I'll ever go to Pangkor. And now I've experienced it, I know what Pangkor is truly a nice dream getaway. All made complete with my loved one, Momoe by my side. Such an unforgettable memories. Later.

I'm back & studyin startin from 12th September

Hey. I'm back and sweet dreams are over. Pangkor was absolutely great, me and Momoe had a great time. I'll tell you more bout it later (because I wrote a blog bout it and left it in a diskette at home.) and all I can say is, 8 days date with Momoe felt so fast. I can still hear waves in my head. I can still smell the salty air and I keep on thinkin that everytime I wake up, I'll see Momoe's sweet face again. *sigh*. Now, everythin is empty. I missed Pangkor. And most of all, I miss Momoe.

Looks like I'll be studyin after all. Startin from 12th September, I'll be meltin my braincells again after all this years. It's a good thing and the only thing left fer me to do now is to find a job with a flexible workin hour so that I can focus on my studies while workin at the same time. Well, not literary 'at the same time' but you know what I mean. I'll just be studyin fer 2 hours per day so I might get a deal with the car company I told you before. The company's boss said that he'll ring me after his vacation soon, before September arrive.

I got no more to write now. The Pangkor experience will be posted soon I hope. Ah, I remember that at this hour, me and Momoe will be walkin near the seashore after takin dinner at TJ's. Yeah Momoe, I miss TJ's cats too. Later.

Bad API

How's you API? Yeah it's the "Air Pollution Index". Here it's about 200 somethin I guess. Not quite sure. Klang is lookin pretty bad on the news. Why the heck is Indonesian aren't doin anythin to put out their forest fires? Is it because the wind is blowin to our shore so they won't suffer as bad as us? Sheesh. It's gettin worst everyday. In fact it's gettin so dangerous that some of the worst affected areas will be on 'darurat'. I don't know what 'darurat' in english so don't ask.

I went to the bank and the cheque is not yet cleared. Sheesh. So I can't pay the car yet. I hope tomorrow will bring a good news.

This bad air pollution is makin me coughin. Now where the heck is my ciggy? Ciow!

Kreator in KL! Preparin fer recordin & foggy days.

Yeah I know I'm a bit late on this. But I don't care so I'll write bout it anyhow. Yeah dudes and dudettes, Kreator is comin to town!. This Concert List says that they'll be comin to Kuala Lumpur on 25th September. Fractured will be the openin act. Ok I was jokin bout us bein the openin act. The guys (Fractured) will all be there except fer me. I will most probably be nowhere near that place because I'm broke. :D. But it might change so who knows. Maybe you'll see me on the front row of the headbangers.

Speakin bout music stuff, I guess our (Fractured) last show in KL was the end of our 2005 schedule (pffttt. Sounds like we're on tour or somethin.. 'schedule'. pfftt.). Seems like there's no more offer fer us this year so we might as well concentrate on our new songs and gettin ready to go fer recordin. We currently have 3 new songs (We played 1 of our new songs at the Gegaran Metal gig. So that makes you 'rugi sebab tak datang :P'!). This time around, we've up-the-ante on our recordin budget. Time time we're focusin more on quality sound because that's the most critics we heard from our demo album. Hopefully our next full length album will be released next year.

Foggy. Such a foggy day. The only good thing I can think bout it is that it's not as sunny as most of the hot days. That's where the good things end. Damn it's so hot instead! It's like livin in a microwave. Not to mention that it's bad fer the lungs. Oh yeah ciggy do that too but let's just stick to the fog issue aye? It's worsened by the fact that rain is not that frequent anymore. Includin the ever-goin water ration, it's bloody hot. I miss the time I can just let the tab water runnin and bath meself fer hours. Ever my car didn't get its required shower fer quite a long time. Ah well. Just live it.

Can't wait fer PANGKOR! Later then

Ex-school memories, will PTPTN accept me? & darn, it's a 'AC-Payee Only' cheque...

I went to my ex-school today. Haha. It was funny. I saw 1 of my old teacher. He's still the same like 10 years ago and seems like he haven't aged a bit. The 'text-book' issue was settled because the person incharge fer if started teachin there on 2000 and all the text-book I lost is history. Nobody knows the price or if it's ever will be published anymore and usin her persuasive approach, Kak Ayu won the jackpot and I don't have to pay a penny. Hehe. Still, there's somethin that's botherin me. There's only 1 certificate fer SPVM so the missin 3 subjects is mind bogglin. I still remember I took the 'Lukisan Geometri & Pendawaian' (Geometry & Wiring Plan) test because I took 9/10 of the test time drawin a bungalow house and left me with not enough time to do the wirin plan. Hahaha. Okay funny stories behind. Where the heck is the other 3 subjects? It's stated that any subject with 9 aggregate will not be listed in the certificate but hell I don't think I flunked all 3 Electrical subjects! I passed the Electrical MLVK Level 1 test with flyin colors and it was harder than that. Drats.

But it's somehow very hard to trace back now because the school is no longer a Vokasional (Vokasional was replaced with Teknik now.) and almost all of the old teachers, administration staff and even the Principal is gone now. My bad, I didn't take the result's slip when it was released a few weeks after SPVM exam which list all the details about all the subjects I took so I'm clueless (my ex-teacher, the un-aged guy I told you before was dragged into the issue too. Thanks to me. And his mind boggled too. :D) to what had happen with all the 3 Electrical subjects. I can accept it if I blew the Geometry bla bla test but the other two? Electrical Theory and Wiring? Ho no I don't think I blew that too. But hey, it's a 10 years old stuff, the school is different now and it's not easy to find a decent solution. Fer now, I'm hopin that the certificate I took is enough fer me to get me a seat in Informatic. It's the only chance I get fer studyin again.

Talkin bout studyin. Kak Ayu will call PTPTN soon to ask bout my status. Can PTPTN accept my application? The answer will be known soon. Still, I'll most probably start my studies this September. With or without a study loan. Ah well, PTPTN is not the only loan provider there is. Oh Kak Ayu said that to me so I'm just repeatin it. :D. Ah, such a happy face aye. It's a rarity.

I haven't paid the car yet because I got a cheque which has to be credited into my bank account and not a cash-cheque. *sigh*. So next Monday, BCF staff from KL, the same consistent lady who called me every month to remind me of the car's payment will surely be glad to dial my number again. Ouch. But hey no worries. I have the money but it's not with me right now. Sounds like a good answer? I sure hope so. It sounded more like a drug dealin movie script though. Later then.

Car saved, study again & job that wants me.

Ah. Today is somewhat one of the happiest day of my live. Out of the ordinary, I finally managed to get my car's monthly instalment secured without even borrowin a penny from anybody. The freelance computer job I'm currently doin saved my day. Phew. I need to get a few more bucks and then I can smile in my sleep. The time is quite hard right now but heck, everyone will experience it at least once in their lifetime right?. I'll go and pay the instalment tomorrow.

I had a study opportunity this week. My ex-boss's wife (when I was workin in a computer company a few years ago.) who's a marketin officer fer Informatic called and asked if I could bring my SPVM result and she (along with my ex-boss) will pay the required RM200 fee up-front and apply a PTPTN loan fer me. It's an IT Administration course fer 2 years and 4 months. It's like a dream come true. The problem is that, since I left the Vokasional School and till now, which is 10 years already; I never went to the school to get all my certificates. I lost all the text-book that was lend to me on the final day of school. Somebody stole it. So I never bothered to get the result. So how did I managed to get any jobs you asked? I used the MLVK slip I get. I was an Electrical course student. Not to mention that my 1st real job (in the computer company, the ex-boss's company I mentioned earlier.) opened up a chain of another good job opportunities. I never bothered to get the SPVM result because the result wasn't that great anyway. It's a long and pain story so there's no use fer me to tell it. So, after this whole years of evadin any topics bout my result, I was now forced to get it or suffer the loss of the study opportunity. How?

No worries. It's solved this evenin. My ex-boss's wife (I call her Kak Ayu.) and me went to my ex-school to get my result. It was a very nervous thing because of some wild imagination I had bout me bein scolded in front of everybody fer losin all my text-books. So what happened? I was spared from the humiliation of bein scolded but they (the school administration) have the receipt of all my lost text-books. Drats. I still have to pay fer the loss. Ouch. But I got my SPM result. They have to hold my school certificate until I cleared the debts. Fer now, that's enough. Anyway, as I thought, my English result was way better than my Bahasa Malaysia's. Sigh. My math in the other hand, is pure thrash. Ah well, I was thrown out from my 'kampung' 6 month before SPVM (all I did was standin up fer my big sister. We're both thrown out.), livin in a new house (which took the whole day fer me and my big to find a suitable place to make our new home.) which got electricity only after 3 months we moved in, workin as a trailer co-pilot with my late brother-in-law (who was the driver.) when I should be preparin fer my exam. Ah, the memories. Such pain. Anyway, with all the discouragement I experienced, I'm pretty proud of the SPM result. Below par, but with the state I was when I'm in form 5, it makes me smile. Not because of the result, but because of the story behind it.

I fergot to ask bout my MLVK certificate. The SPM result only have 5 subjects written in it with the other 3 (all electrical subjects) missin. So I think there's another certificate that I fergot to take. So tomorrow, I have to go to the school again, with Kak Ayu (she said she'll sort the text-book thingy fer me. Phew.) and ask bout it. I do hope my PTPTN loan will get approval so I can start the studies in early September.

A car company called me a few days ago, askin me if I'm interested in doin general insurance work (like my last company). The boss was a friend of my last boss, he knew how I work and he have faith in me. If I accept the offer, I will start in September too. I'm still thinkin bout it because I'm puttin priority in my study application. Only if I can demand a flexible workin hour. Still, I still have a few weeks to think it over. If I don't get a spot fer studyin, I'll probably take the job. Didn't ask bout the salary though. I hope it'll be better than the last job.

Oh, the pain I wrote earlier was a false alarm. Phew. I'm still bein cautious bout it.

I'll be goin to Pangkor this month. With Momoe! Now that's somethin to look forward to. Later then.

Can't think of any decent title fer this..

Howdy folks. It's me here, tryin to write some more blog from an internet cafe. It still sucks but hey, had to do what I had to do. Sheesh now this pc's keyboard has a sticky keys so I have to correct almost everythin I wrote. Darn.

I still have no job. Ah, such a short word to describe it. But it's enough.

My sister still haven't cut off my Streamyx so it'll be another month of waste fer my RM88 bucks. Drats. I can't cut it because it's registered usin her name (my name is blacklisted because my old old company use it and had more then a thousand ringgit worth of debt. Drats). I dunno when she'll go to the Telekom and cut it though but I hope it'll be soon. Can't use the darn Streamyx though so what's the use anyway?

I wrote a blog but I left the diskette at home. So here's a brief blog I guess. I wanna write more but this is an internet cafe so it sucks to blog from here. I guess I'll paste the blog later and adjust the date because I blog about yesterday. Heh, it's almost an hour so I better stop. Can't do like what I used to at home. Yeah I kinda love to stare at the internet. Later then.

No Singapore job fer me, new blog? & the pain is back?

I still have no new job. Jobless. *sigh*. What a way to survive. My sister still haven't cut the Streamyx so I'll burn RM88 fer another month. What a waste. My daily-pay jobs aren't doin so well either. Sometime I have somethin to do and most of the time, there's just nothin left fer me to work on. And when there's no work, there's no pay. I was plannin to go to Singapore this August. Got a friend who's workin there and he was back here tryin to settle some required documents. The plan was good. But then he got a job here, workin as a driver fer a VIP and he got a good pay. In fact, much better than what he get in Singapore so I have this feelin that he won't be leavin to Singapore anymore. You see, I was plannin to stay at this guy's place in Johor Bharu because he got his relative there. So then, if he ain't goin back to JB and work in Singapore after the required documents are settled, how am I goin to bump in? Such a dilemma. As fer me, I'm the kind of guy who'll try to focus at 1 thing instead of thinkin bout a few backup plans so I'm now without any other choice. I don't know if I can clear up any of my bills fer this month and it's already the end of the month.

I have this scattered ideas of a new blog. The idea seems to be a cool one. It's still a hush fer now. I don't wanna spoil the element of surprise so I'll spill no more. It'll might or might not be materialised because my current internet connectivity state aren't actually somethin to be proud of.

I'm kinda scared right now. It seems that the mysterious pain I rarely get is comin back. It's my 'Batu Karang' thingy. I hate it. It'll always make me almost break in tears just thinkin bout it. It's a hell of a pain when I'm tryin to pee when it happens. The doctor said before that I got no trace of any infection in my urine but there's a trace of blood in it so it's presumably caused by 'Batu Karang'. Trust me, it's a lot of pain when you're tryin to urinate. It's such a pain that all of the time when I'm sufferin from the effect, I can't bear it at all. It's somewhat, half my fault because I don't drink enough water. My kid sister said that the peein difficulty was probably because my body doesn't have enough fluid. I tried to make drinkin plain water a habit, in fact I even have a bottle of plain water in my room fer my convenience but it just slips off me most of the time. I hate to say it but I sense that the effect is comin again. And if that happens, I will be in a hell of a pain when I'm tryin to pee tomorrow. I pray that the feelin I get is just a false alarm. It's unbearable just to think about it. Later.

Blog from outside, daily-pay jobs & Nintendo DS

Ah. Hello world! This is my 1st time bloggin from an internet cafe. And all I can say is: IT SUCKS. Bloggin fer me is time consumin process. It'll not be a problem if my Streamyx is usable. I'm used to open up the quick blog window and let it open fer a while until I finish up my blog. Now, I have to blog quickly or else it'll burn a hole in my pocket. No don't get me wrong, I can blog quickly. So I'm provin it right now. Oh yeah I have another 32 minutes to blog here *smirk*.

I still don't have a new job yet. Job are pretty hard to find nowadays. I believe there's a job openin somewhere but to find it is somethin that requires a lotsa patient. Hehe. Oh mind me. I just remembered that me and Bobby went to the market to find a job. Bobby's still workin though. But we're both tryin to find a daily-pay job which is the best way to support ourselves in this situation. And fer added info, most daily-pay jobs are mostly works that's pretty much require you to do jobs that most educated people won't bother be doin. Like the market, agricultural sector, car wash etc. As fer meself, I don't mind what job I'm doin as long as it's 'halal'. Still, I have to look at the 'workin hour - amount paid' ratio. It'll be almost useless if I'm gettin 20 bucks workin my ass off fer 12 hours. There's a few promisin daily-pay jobs I'm tryin to get and no I won't tell you before I know I can get the work. Hah! :P

Fahmi bought a Nintendo DS 2 days ago. He was thinkin bout buyin between a Sony PSP or the Nintendo DS and the result was, Nintendo DS win. I had the chance to try it out and all I can say is. I was never wrong! Nintendo DS will always be the stuff I want in my wish list! I envy him. Drats.

Yeow. This internet cafe's staff have already startin to close this place up. Huh? It's still 11:10?! Man this sucks. This is what I can expect from doin my internet stuff from outside my cozy place. Sheesh. Ah well. My bloggin was fast anyway. Chow.

p/s: Momoe is plannin to come here again on the middle of August! Yeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssss!

A letter from afar

Dear me,

Sorry if I wrote this a little bit late. It's not that I don't want to get online, it's just that I can't anymore. No my Streamyx didn't get cut off. It's my laptop's built-in network adapter. I fergot to detach the telephone line from my ADSL modem and I think it was rainin quite heavily while I was in KL fer Gegaran Metal 2005 gigs and lightin zapped my network adapter. How did I know my network adapter is kaput? Because it's no longer present in the System Information (Win XP) AND ifconfig (FreeBSD). So, I had to write this from an internet cafe. I can safely assume that my internet life is over now. Why the hell do I want to keep the Streamyx if I can't use it anymore? It's no use tellin me to repair the darn built-in network adapter because financially, that's the least important thing I want to consider doin right now.

But I'll log in once in a while from an internet cafe or whatever because somehow, my life grew around the internet. I consider you guys, the people I can't see, the people I don't know as my friends. While others prefer to go out and face the real life, I live in this tiny room, roamin the big internet life. Someday I'll get my Streamyx back. I do hope so. Someday, probably after I bought a better desktop computer. Who knows. Or perhaps, I'll try to live in the real life. Back to reality.

I also want to tell you about the gigs. How was it? Well, it was great! The crowd was very supportive and the bands playin with us are all great. Symphonic Metal, Brutal Death Metal, Thrash Metal; you name it and it was all in it. We did good and my throat did make it till the last song. Whew. I was afraid that I'll cough in the middle of a song or somethin and thankfully, I didn't. We got our performance on video and Fahmi already burnt in to DVD. Well, my laptop doesnt have a DVD-Rom so I can just drool and hope that Udin will convert it to VCD. We played 5 songs that evenin.

1) The Bodybag - our own
2) Once Stabbed - our own
3) Let The World Burns - our own (new song!)
4) Tresspass - The Haunted
5) Blinded By Fear - At The Gates

The new song went great! Unfortunately, one of Hangah's strings snapped in the middle of the new song but another band lend him a guitar and the show managed to go on without any other glitches. Like I've told you earlier, the crowd was very supportive and someone actually shouted "Orang kampung den" at me. That's cool. Hopefully there'll be another gig fer us soon because I'm sure as heck can't wait fer another one to come.

I didn't find a new job yet and yeah I know it's the middle of the month now. I still don't quite know what I'm gonna do but I'll figure out somethin soon. It's good thing that I'm havin a rest because Momoe was here so I can just go out on dates with her and never have to worry bout goin to work. I'll find some kind of work later after she went back to Japan.

How's Momoe? I sent her to KLIA on 14th July in the mornin fer her flight back to Japan. She came on 9th July and I thought I was late to pick her up at KLIA when nearly and hour after that, she called and said that MAS was late. I managed to avoid usin PLUS highway on my way to KLIA but I kinda lost in my way back to Seremban and was tricked to choose the highway. Damn PLUS is sure smart. In quite a short trip, we managed to do many memorable things. We went to the amusement park in Seremban, goin to a ghost house (which later I saw a teddy bear hung inside among the other ghosts and she said it scared her. I hope she's not scared of that teddy bear) and I almost spewed my guts out when we ride a rift ride which I swore that will be the last time Ill ever get on that ride again.

Oh, she came with us to the Gegaran Metal 2005 gig. When it was time fer me to perform, I saw her near the front of the stage. It's not that hard to find her because while everybody else is wearin black shirts and a few white one, she wore a kawaii (yes kawaii, not hawaii. kawaii means cute) floral shirt. She kept buyin bottle after bottle of mineral water and I do feel guilty because we kept gettin the newly bought mineral water lost somewhere. Deep down inside me, Im very glad that I see her again; even when she said that the trip was the last one. Yes, she came here fer the last time. I avoided to talk with her bout that when she came because I just want her to enjoy her visit. And I wanted to enjoy her visit too.

Before I sent her to KLIA fer her flight to Japan, she gave me a bottle of honey and said, "it's a honey fer my honey, eat it so that you can sing better". That's sweet. Both her and the honey. I didn't get her anythin, a typical stupid behavior-o-mine. I should've bought her somethin at least. Damn. I'm feelin mushy. Why can't I? To know that after this it'll be hard fer me to see her again makes me feel empty. I don't know what I'll do to see her again. She's special, very special to me and I'm not afraid to tell you that. And yes most of the time, reality is so cruel. It's somethin special to me, that in a short period of her trip, we're close. In fact, we're so close that I still wonder why was I born Malaysian and she, Japanese. It's saddenin fer me to see her go back and instead of kidnappin her and make her stay, I was the one who sent her away. It breaks me even more to realise that this was the last time I'll see her in real life and the time to look at her was never enough. "It's a honey fer my honey..". I'll never forget that phrase.

Ah, this is gettin more like an anti-hero love story. Forgive me if the emotion was overflowin but I just feels like writin bout it. It's rare fer me to show some emotion but this time, it's somewhat different. I feel like I want to show how I feel to somebody. All this time I kept all the emotion inside and now I can't take it anymore. Yeah, I'm gettin soft nowadays. But I know it's a right feelin. I'm gonna go now and take another spoon of that honey she bought. Later then.

Yours(elf),

Zul.

My bass string snapped... Arghhhh!

Arrghhhhhh! Damn! Why it has to be this time? When the gigs is just around the corner. Drats!! #$@%!! Why? I'm goin frenzy because the 4th string of my bass has retired last night. It snapped just after we're playin 2 songs in our practice session. Heck. Anyway, Kayser Strings was the best ever! I bought it a few years ago (more than 2 years! It's true!) and nothin I tried can beat its performance. The only catch is that I bought it in KL and I never saw it bein sold here in Seremban. Damn! Imagine that the biggest string snapped just like that (well it's rusty a bit, like the other 3 strings). Now I'm worried that the other strings will snapped too. The complete set cost me bout RM98 and that is a hell lot of money. I don't know if they sell it seperately. I guess I'll have to make do with another brand of string to replace the old Kayser. It's temporary fer the gigs. Yeow this is very troublesome.

Speakin bout the gigs, it'll be another 2 days. I finally finished writin the new song's lyric! Yeah! But I still didn't memorise it to the max so it'll be yet another hard task fer me. Still doin a bit of a revision of the new lyrics though. Nuff said. Later.

p/s: Momoe will arrive tomorrow. Hurrah! Err, how to get to KLIA?

Countdown to Gegaran Metal 2005, new song & Momoe's visitin.

3 more days till the Gegaran Metal 2005 gigs! Me and Fractured are havin a rest yesterday from any practice so today we will go fer a jam session again. Friday too. However Saturday will be another big break fer us as we don't want to waste energy before the gigs. My throat is still a bit sore and the darn cough is still here to stay. Drats. I better get meself a bottle of 'Air Asam Jawa' or else my (not so good) singin will be a disaster.

Hangah seems to memorised his parts fer our new song. That's great considerin that he had a strict time to practice it. How bout my lyrics? Well, it's 90% done and I'm thinkin of finishin it today. Got a few more days to memorise it though so I'm still crossin my fingers. It's funny that I nearly lost my breath while singin the new song because my lyrics is quite lengthy so I had to sing it a bit fast. Haha. So, revision is a must. I'm a singer AND the bassist remember? So the stamina is drained quite extensively in a brief. Oh yeah and I would like to take this opportunity to blame this problem from the effect of constant smokin of tobacco, thank you.

Momoe is comin to town just a day before the gigs because she wanted to see the show. So her visit is another event I'm lookin forward to. Unfortunately, because I'm no longer workin now, the activities while she's here will be a bit dull. Ah heck. Just enjoy it. Later.

Bands list fer MetalTerus compilation announced, workin fer meself now & no LTD fer Hangah yet.

Looks like the final band list fer the upcomin MetalTerus Compilation has been announced and sadly we (Fractured) didn't manage to get a slot in it. *Sigh*. Ah well there will be next time. All the best and congratulation to the bands that made it and hopefully this compilation will be a blast! The announcement can be read here -=> Metal To Metals :: View topic - Pengumuman: Band List!.

Today is my 1st day workin as a freelance. No more goin to the office. Enjoyable and a bit borin if you ask me. You can say 1st day workin by meself sucks a bit. I'm still not 100% well too. Still got this annoyin cough, my head is achin and my temperature is a bit hot. Ah the water ration is here again. Looks like we're in a long dry season fer quite a while.

Unfortunately, Hangah said that he can't bring his LTD guitar to the gigs because his salary will be a bit late. So he'll end up borrowin yet another Ibanez guitar (RG I guess) fer the upcomin Gegaran Metal 2005 show. I hope my condition will be ok by then because I don't want my current health condition to affect Fractured's performance. I need a soup. Later.

Here's the new design of Gegaran Metal 2005 flyer. Kinda cool huh? Yeah there's a TGM guitar to be won fer visitors so remember to save your ticket(s). I heard that Gegaran Metal 2005 poster will be handed out durin the gig. The poster will be, well, bigger and they'll have picture of bands that's listed. I want that poster! Later. 

Tabloid drama, ready fer the upcomin gigs & tomorrow = last day at the office.

Read any tabloid lately? One of the well known, the "Hairan Metro" wrote bout a group called "JIT" (means "Jangan Ikut Tuhan") which is currently terrorizin the public in secret. The so-called group is brainwashin teenagers to join this anti-religion cult and they have some sort of ritual fer new members includin some bizarre acts. The Hairan Metro, as usual, will put the blame on metalheads once again. I bet the last issue on black metal thingy boosted their sale and this propaganda will at least do the same fer them. It's funny to read their "exposure", such detailed infos like the ritual involved, where the JIT gang meet up, what they wear (of course black..) even some "inside testimonies" because they said that the news bout this JIT is "from trusted emails".

FROM TRUSTED EMAILS?!! What the f*ck?! Aww come on. We can never expect some sort of professionalism from their writins but this is way lower than lame. You see that? Just an email or 2 and that's enough to make it to the masses. If the news contains:-

1) Somethin to do with teenagers (except disco, clubbin, teen celebs even if they do drugs/was featured in DIY porn and everythin else as long as it's not metal. Remembers, metalheads will always be the easiest scapegoat.). To blame metalheads is a must.

2) Bizarre occult rituals. People dig taboo stuff. It doesn't matter if it's real as long as it sells.

3) Some sort of weird and dangerous stuff bout metalheads.

You see? To these tabloids, fact doesn't sell. At least not as good. So that's why they need refreshin stories (fiction or fact is irrelevant) which will make the youth look terribly dangerous. They don't care if the story was true or not. They don't give a fart if they look stupid fer makin such a fuss from unknown emails. They'll drag every teenage, youth even if you don't listen to any music or if you have a black dress somewhere in your wardrobe and they won't stop until they succeed in makin your everyday life miserable again. Do you remember how miserable it was a few years back? When the "Black Metal" case was the national phenomenan it was like hell. I guess it's somethin like a sadistic fetish fer them to see youth are attacked like that. What in the hell do they think we are anyway? Stupid like them? This is why I never bought any of them tabloids. Anybody seen those tv program where a few people debates bout the local Underground scene? I didn't see it but my friend did. He said there was Hairan Metro's dude in it and unsurprisinly, his comments (all negative towards the scene) was all lack of research (metalheads do drugs, metalheads hate God and all those pathetic dogma) and full of unfounded hatred towards the ug community. Heck that is expected from guys like that. It's a shame I didn't get to see him make a fool out of himself on national television. People are not that stupid anymore to believe everythin you feed them. If there's a Hairan Metro dude readin this, I won't be writin this if my flamesuit ain't on.

Still haven't finish writin the lyrics. Don't have the mood fer it yet. I don't know if I can finish it (and memorise it) before the upcomin gig. I'll probably just mumbles on the parts which I haven't wrote yet. Heh. Hangah will not buy a new Jackson guitar, but he booked an LTD guitar instead. Looks like it's a great choice considerin the name. I don't know which guitar though. All I know is that the guitar will come with Seymour-Duncan pickup as standard. Damn! Hmmm. To think bout it, the Ltd 30th Anniversary Bass is pretty interestin too. Might be my 3rd bass after an Ibanez EDA. :D.

Am I ready fer Gegaran Metal? Yup I am. Still have this annoyin cough tho. This is bad. Hope I won't lose my voice or somethin. No more cold/icy drinks from now on until the end of the gig. That sucks but a man gotta do what a man gotta do. I'll post the pictue of the gig's newest flyer in a while.

Tomorrow will be my last day workin in the company. After that, I'll do most of the despatchin work but as a freelance. Me as my own boss. No more sittin at the office. No more early mornin wakeup calls (like I ever wake up early anyway..). I'm still thinkin of somethin else that'll generate a steady income without requirin me to lose more than a handfull amount of my free time. Later then.

Fever & Fractured in Konsert magazine

Next week will be my last week workin at the company and another week after that will be the long awaited Gegaran Metal 2005 gigs. I haven't done writin the lyrics fer the new song yet because I got a fever. The fever started 3 days ago and although it can be considered gone, I'm still havin this annoyin flu and miserable headache. Pity me huh? Now go make me a soup.

There's a picture of Fractured in Konsert magazine (Vol 74, 15th June 2005 issue) in the "New Sound" section. To tell you the truth, we didn't know we're goin to be put in a magazine because nobody told us and after readin the section, I can see that Fractured's info was taken from our I-Bands.net page. Ah well, there's no article bout us so I won't waste your time. It was salivatin fer me to see the band's name printed on the front cover (I guess Fahmi fell fer that, heck he bought this magazine.) but like I've said, there's not much of an info, no review etc. and I wonder if the editor even bother to download the mp3s in I-Bands.net and listen to our songs.

I might be typin another few hundreds of words in here but this headache is makin my typographical error go rampant. So I'll leave fer now.

Misc rant: If bein sad, dark and hopeless-romantic is what Goth is to metal, am I not goth too?. No I don't listen to goth stuff. It's just that my mood is goth right now. Ok off to bed, again.

Creepy song, jammed new song & new flyer.

Ah. Creepy stuff. My kid sister is buggin me with this same song everyday. It's an Indo-Rock kinda stuff. I dunno what band had the song though. No don't get me wrong. I got nothin against Indo-Rock, mind you. But when the song have lyrics like:

"Aku menunggumu, menunggumu, menunggumu,
mati di depanku, di depanku, didepanku.."
Translation: "I'm waitin fer you, waitin fer you, waitin fer you,
to die infront of me, infront of me, infront of me,"

Now there's where it gets creepy. My kid sister said that the song was about a guy singin to his unloyal girlfriend. Whoa. And people blame Metal fer all the evil things. :P. Still, to hear it almost everyday now, eeps. it's still creepy. (=.=#)

Me and Fractured went fer a jam session last night and we practiced our new song. Damn it was great, but the song need more polishin and Hangah can't make it last night so the sound is rather, incomplete. Hangah said that he'll come back to Seremban just 1 week before the gigs because he's savin money to buy an electric guitar. He's aimin fer a Jackson. Uuuu. Don't know what model though. I hopes he'll get what he wants. Got me thinkin bout the moment I was savin my money fer my Ibanez TR Series. Ah, sweet memories, and pain in the arse. Anyway it's really worth it. Every penny. Currently Hangah is the only one who doesn't own an instrument so if he gets it, we don't have to borrow any from other bands.

1 of the 2 new design of Gegaran Metal 2005 gig's flyer is out. Currently I have a few of the small handout flyer so if anyone wants it, just say so. Chicks only. :D. Ok I'm no good at jokin. Anyway, if you want it, say so. I just need 1 copy fer my possession.

Ah. The Indo-Rock song have stop because my sis is goin to work. Yeehaww! I'm spared. Later then.

Guitar effect for PC, Naruto & rainy day.

Guitarist and bassist rejoice! Free Guitar Software, VST and DX effects, ASIO 2.0 is one of those places where you can find another excitin thing to do with your pc/laptop instead of surfin pr0n and readin my fabulous blog *yeah right..*. I bet you musicianerd (musician and a nerd at the same time, like me) somehow might have tried 1 or a few software guitar effect on your pc. Heck then I guess we can be sure of the annoyin problem with it. Yeah, the darn delay. I tried a few of the so called "realtime effect processin" but almost all can't live up to its name. It's very annoyin (and confusin) to play with the delayed sound. I lost pickin count just to catch up with the delayed sound because I'm usin the sound as my timin. But fear not! I found a software effect processor which is FREE and works! Even without delay whatsoever! It's really 'realtime' processin. Wow. Look at the url I gave earlier and search fer Shareware Effects processor 12 (FREE!). The only downside of that specific program is that you'll have to.. ehmm.. have an active internet connection before you can use it. Ah well. But heck the program is great! Yeah you can try out all the other programs listed as well and I'm pretty sure there's many that'll suit your need nicely. The url given can be found in http://launch.groups.yahoo.com/group/guitarfx/ along with many others. So pick up that dusty guitar of yours and rock on!

What is it with Naruto? Well, I'm an anime freak and the series is currently on my favorite list. Oh did I ever told you that I'm such an anime lover? No? Well now you know. I'm a sucker fer J-anime. Go google fer naruto and see a series or two. The animation is nice and the story is great. Kage bunshin no jutsu!

It was like a dejavu today. I arrive at the office around 5o'clock, soaked in rain and the office is already closed. I just managed to renew 1 roadtax out of 3 which is such a waste of effort. Oh, the rain. Just like a dejavu. So I waited fer a while, hopelessly waitin fer the rain to at least go easy because I don't want to get stranded again late in the evenin. Heck I'm soaked already so I might as well ride through it. But I stayed fer a while, watchin the rain fallin, makin bubbles on the wet tar. Rainy days just makes me feel blue.

My sister is engaged & near fatal wasp sting

There was an engagement ceremony goin on today at my house. Not me of course, it was fer my big sister. It's quite a day fer me, because I have to be the 'man in the house', which is basically, handlin all the discussion etc. etc. on behalf of my father. The ceremony went on smoothly although I was practically clueless on what to say and all such things. You know the Malay traditional way and stuff. It's quite weird I guess, if people saw me; with my long hair etc. bein the center of the engagement ceremony. I tried to be as cool as possible and I guess the ceremony is successfull. Not bad fer my 1st time. So when it's my kid sister's turn, rest assure that I'm more prepared than ever.

I had a major bad experience last Friday. While I was ridin my bike on my way back from the office, a stingy wasp (Tebuan Tanah, I don't know the name in english but I'm guessin that it's a potter wasp) hit me on my forehead and stung me just next to my left eye. It made me stop my bike in an instant and after I carefully took off my helmet, the thing was already gone. I looked at my bike's sidemirror and I saw a spot of blood on the place I got stung. Thinkin that it'll be a minor threat, I just continue ridin and went home. There was nobody at home, my big sister was at Malacca, preparin the her engagement ceremony (she brought all her kids) and my younger was workin. So I was all alone in my house. I guess it's not even 10 minutes since I got stung by the thing and I was gettin itchy all over my body. I thought that probably my sweat was makin me itchy so I took a quick bath.

When the tab water touches my body, I felt like a stingy sensation. Damn, now it's somethin more than a typical sweat that can make this. I was startin to get rashes on my skin. Still takin it easy, I guess too easy, I just turn on my laptop and doin all the usual stuff. When all of the sudden, when I was tryin to get a drink, my eyes startin to blur. I tried shakin my head but I just can see white lights. My face started to feel tense and I got this headache I can't describe. Although I can't barely see clearly, I managed to dial Alon's phone number and thank God he picked it up (fortunately Alon is listed on the few higher name in my phone's address book, if his name starts with "M" or somethin, I'll be in deep trouble). He was in the neighborhood when I told him I got stung on my head so he came in a brief. I managed to get to my car, although I was like a blind man, usin my hands to figure my way out. My body was unstable at that time and I have to hold on to anythin to make it to my car. I felt like I can no longer control my body's reaction as Alon was drivin me to the hospital. He kept blabberin somethin but I was in too much of a pain to remember it.

When I arrived at the general hospital, I was given a wheelchair after I nearly collapse while I'm registerin. My body was shakin heavily and my head felt so heavy the hospital's staff kept nudgin me to keep me awake. A few minutes after that, I was in the doctor's room and the staff in there put me in a bed, and puttin a device attached to a machine by wires on my legs and arms, and put a few small suction thingy on my chest. I was injected (can't barely notice them injectin me because I was quite numb at that time) and I took a small red pill. Still shakin, I was placed in the Probation Room fer more than 1 hour before my condition was considered stable and I'm free to go home.

The scar of the sting is still noticable. From the stories I heard, normal adult male can only stand a maximum of 3 to 4 shots of the wasp's sting and that'll be most probably fatal. This is surely a lifetime experience to me. Thank God I made it alive and I got no damagin effect from it. I'll buy a visor fer my helmet because I got phobia of gettin stung by anythin again. Another thing that'll make me quit my job soon. Later.

Highway or a bumpy road ahead..

My office had a meetin today. Not that it's somethin weird bout it. But there's somethin important in the details of the discussion. My company is currently havin a hard time. Now, that word alone is sufficient to get the picture of what my boss is tryin to say.

A brief description bout my company. My company is a used-car company, which also deal in general (motor) insurance. So basically, we have 2 department. One department deals with sellin, buyin, arrangin loans etc. and the other one, my department deals with car insurances. My department have 2 staff which is typical fer a small company. My mate, Imran (he's a Navy retiree) is sort of managin the insurance department. And me, I'm the clerk cum despatch guy.

It's said that the every used-car company in my office's vicinity will only be able to operate there until the end of this year. Majlis Perbandaran Seremban has issued a memo sayin that no new/renewal on used-card license will be given startin this month and we; more than 10 used-car company will have to relocate. All the used-car bosses meet last night and today they sent 3 representative to go and try to sort the matter out with MPS. No news bout that yet, I will only know tomorrow (not that I'm such an important figure to make them tell me, but heck my boss will tell us bout it anyway.). And that's just a fraction of the bigger problem my company is facin.

Money. That's another one. The most important one. There's many unpaid insurances totallin in nearly 20K which most of the unpaid customer is, ironically; my boss's friends. Almost all of the debt are there even before I join the company. So basically, we in the insurance department are affected too. The whole company is in fact affected but my department is facin the worst. The 2 of us, in the insurance department are still tryin to stabilise the account but heck, my boss has given up hope now. Today. So, the signal was blinkin and I knew what it mean. Or to put it more correctly, what my boss means. He gave up on insurance and he just want to concentrate on the sellin/buyin portion of his company.

His point is valid. And I know he's still strugglin. I won't blame him. It's just a matter of time and it's better fer me to go when the ship is still afloat than sinkin with the whole crew. He said this evenin:

"As you guys can see, the insurance (department) are havin a hard time. The whole company is. I can't handle it anymore. I just want to concentrate on used-car only. People are still owin me money and this effect has not come in a surprise."

"Karl, I want you to be prepared. I want you to start searchin fer "a bigger tree to hold on to". I'm not sayin that you should go but if you want to stay with me, I know dealin in used-car is not your cup of tea (I have no desire to deal in cars. He knew it all along from the day I started workin there. He asked me to join the used-car department a few times before but I politely refused. It's too much of a headache.). I'm not puttin any fixed date fer it. I just want you to start searchin fer a better career (I tried resignin a few times before but my boss stopped me. And I was lack in motivation to actually pursue a new career.). This time, when you found a better job, I won't hold your resignation anymore. I'll write a supportin letter of any kind if you ever needed any."

I snipped the other things he said. It was a sentimental evenin. Because, heck, I kinda like that place. Although I know someday, sooner or later, I'll be leavin the company (I've never consider the job as my final career.); still, the place have a special place in my memory. The only job non-related to my workin skills / experiences. But it's fun. I finally knew how it feels to be a despatch. I knew lotsa people from lotsa background. All the person in my office is like one family. Yeah we quarrel with each others sometime. Disagreement are nothin we lack of. But in our own way, we're doin it like family (and I'm the most stubborn "lil brother" fer all I know :D ).

I always wanted to leave. And now I can. Nobody can stop me now. But in a way, it feels like I'm leavin a portion of me. Many people knew me as my company's name. The company's name is my surname. Plus many more special treatment I got which nobody, workin my kinda job, will ever get. Like I've stated, that is somethin special.

I'll leave. But I'm takin a good 2years+ memories with me. I don't have a plan yet. My boss didn't give a fixed date but I gave meself 2 month. I'm still kinda blurry of what the heck I'll be doin in another 3 month. But I don't quite give a damn. Everybody has their destiny written. I'll work somethin out. Maybe the road ahead is not that bumpy and most probably, my ride will be like hell. Fer now, I just don't care. I just want to enjoy the job I secretly in love with until the time fer me to leave fer good. Later.

The Amityville Horror, tired & new song's lyric.

I love horror movies. I do. And I know most of the time, I'll freak out when I'm seein or after I saw horror movies. Still I love em. And I just saw The Amityville Horror starrin Ryan Reynolds and Melissa George. And that movie is disturbingly horrific. When I'm watchin the movie, I kept sayin to meself "damn this movie is too much", "sheesh I can't watch this" and tons of others excuses that failed to keep me off the screen. Heck it's a good movie anyway. There's a lot of emotions which made me sayin "Get the heck out of the house damnit! Now!". And there's value of life in it. Oh fer sure the horror came free with all this bundle. The story is about a house which was a mass-murder crime scene when a guy killed his whole family claimin that he was possessed. He was then put to bars (if I'm not mistaken, heck that was the introduction fer the goodies to come anyway..) and years later, the current time, this clueless happy family moved in. Then the horror starts. Again. Phew thanks goodness I made it till the end. Now I better get my fav anime vids so that I can stop freakin out now.

Today was the busiest day at work. Got many things to do and lucky me, 99% of it is done. Nowadays, my boss give me tasks a day in advance. Sheesh. To get back home and thinkin that tomorrow I'm already booked is pretty much tirin. I'm easily tired nowadays. Now the usual tired-after-work stuff, this is much worst. Heck if I'm too tired to even go out fer a drink then my work must be very tirin. Tomorrow I have to go to Puspakom to get this car inspected. And to make sure I'll do that early in the mornin, I was asked to drive that car today. Sheesh.

Still haven't done anythin with the new song's lyric though. I have a few unassembled puzzle of the lyrics but still too lazy to write from the start. Got lyrics fer the chorus part, the bridge part etc but no main verse stuff yet. Anyway I got the picture of what to write about so it's somethin that I should worry less. Unless today is already 8th of July. Later.

Fractured new song & strings fer my bass.

Yesterday, me and Fractured except Hangah went practicin fer our new song. The new song is, whoa, great. It's a great probability that we'll perform this new song in the upcomin Gegaran Metal 2005 gigs. But only if I can make and memorise the lyrics :D. How's the new songs? Quite intense and still technical to say the least. I got to write a lyric soon. Now where's my thinkin cap?

Ouch, I fergot to polish my bass guitar. Now the strings are pretty much rusty a bit (heck the strings is nearly a year old now, probably more!). I know I'll have to fork out RM90++ fer a new set of Kyser Powercore strings (Yeah Kyser is my fav bass strings) but it'll not be this month. Thank goodness I'm a bassplayer. One of the thing that made me not to be a guitar player is that when guitar strings are rusty, my delicate (seriously. it's true) fingers will easily get cut. I had a few experiences with that and it's downright painfull and dangerous (rust can effect your body). Hopefully the current strings can make it to the upcomin gigs.

Can I have this? Please.. please..

Ahhhh! I always scream fer ice-cream. Actually I always scream fer a nice lookin hooded sweatshirt. Lee Premium Cotton Hooded Sweatshirt is what I have in mind right now. Too bad my b-day is long over. I wonder if they sell it here in Malaysia. Hmmm. Ah well.. Ahhhhhhhhh! Later.

Lost memories, tiring work & fuel price hiked.

I had a vision of what I'm about to write here today but it seems that my brain has lost it somewhere among all the other cells contained underneath my skull. Got an interestin thing to tell this evenin, but I was too busy with my *ehem* work and I just fergot every single droolin words. Uh works has been a disastrous experience this week. Yessirree. But the money is good so I'm stoppin the complain bout it right now. Or maybe not.

Ever got into a moment where all the stuff you need fer the job is there but you can't complete the task? It feels like tryin to sneeze but you just simply can't. Very torturin. Well I had those days. 3 times in a row. Details aside, it's very tirin. I had to wait fer some document to be completed fer more than an hour then ridin my bike fer more than 15 mins to the final destination just to be frustrated because the destination has closed it's counter then ride my bike fer another 10mins to an alternative destination to get the job done. Tirin. Very tirin. I had to rush because of someone else's slowness in gettin his task done so that I could make up fer the time he/she wasted. *sigh*. Sometime it's dangerous because I'm on the road and rushin. Not to mention that I'm the one who have to make up excuses why my task is off the scheduled time. Somethin that's not my fault to begin with. Grrrr.

My boss's daughter got an operation went on yesterday because of appendix (Heck I sucks at medical lingo in English so I'm sorry) and it's a sad thing because she's still in primary school. Hopefully she'll recover soon and her health will be better.

Petrol and diesel prices goes up again. Now it's RM0.10 & RM0.20 hike fer petrol and diesel respectively. Well most of us can live with that. Me included. Our country has one of the lowest price tag fer both fuel. Anyway, what makes it interestin is that when one or two price goes up, all the other wants to be the part of the show too. So it's predictable that even fried chicken, nasi ayam and eggs went to a near insane price. Greedy people. So I made up a few good answers to those greedy shopowners.

Scene 1: Buyin eggs. Price is insane. Shopowner tells you that he/she had to do it because of the price hike of petrol/diesel. You can tell him:
a) Oh I always knew that chicken uses petrol/diesel to lay eggs.
b) Then give me eggs from gas fueled chicken please.

Scene 2: Buyin nasi goreng. Same greedy example like above. You can say:
a) Since when you cook usin petrol/diesel?
b) Make sure the fried rice is unleaded.

So there you have it. I had a few more of those but like I've said before, it got lost somewhere in my brain. Feel free to add more to your collection. Do not forget to make the word as silly as possible so that those greedy shopowner knows that they're dumb. Later.

From 60 till 1.

60 more days till she come here again
Such a slow days
The clock seems envious
Even the sun and the moon is like havin a walk in the park
Makin the day and nigh cyclin slow
But at least the time doesn't stop
And fer that, it'll be yesterday that I mentioned
60 more days till she come here again

Gegaran Metal 2005 flyers & info on the net!

Latest news. As my scanner is no more in my possession, I can't scan the upcomin Gegaran Metal 2005's flyer but fear no more! The flyer (the exact copy I have with me) has already been uploaded to Metal Terus. Here's the location:

http://www.discuss.ws/forum/viewtopic.php?t=466&mforum=yoursay

or you can log in MetalTerus main website and look at the "Upcoming Event - gig" section. You can't miss it.

http://www.metalterus.com.my.

Now I'm waitin fer Faiz to gimme the demo CD and a few of band pictures which I've asked a gazillion times before because I've been delayin that stuff fer me to send to Blessing Moment zine. Sheesh. Hopefully the zine editor don't think of us as a berlagak band or somethin. Later.

New url redirectin service & car door dented.. *sigh*

Here's the late breakin news. I just registered a new url redirectin service on Cjb.net so here's a short url fer you guys to remember if you want to visit my homepage. Yeah well long url sucks so thank me then :D.

http://www.alsemo.cjb.net

And here's the direct url which is the permanent url in case my short url gone wacko or I fergot to re-activate it (the short url will expire on the next 90 days unless I reactivate it periodically.. Ah well..).

http://home.graffiti.net/alsemo:graffiti.net/

Yes do not ferget the trailin "/" sign on the end because it's a must on Graffiti.net. Now I have to update my profiles on the net everywhere..

My friend accidently bumped my car on the right side so the door on the driver's side are dented. Ah. What to do. It's amazin that even tho the dented are not that noticable, but the 'feelin' is there. Damn am I perfectionist? I don't know. But I do know that THE DARN DOOR IS DENTED NOW!! Ahhhh!!! And my 1st payment fer the car should start only by next month. *sigggghhhhhhhhh*. Later.

My homepage address has changed!

Yup. It's true. My homepage address has changed. The Graffiti.net team didn't say anythin bout it on the main site so I was left with the option to figure it out by meself. Here's the new address:

http://home.graffiti.net/alsemo:graffiti.net/

So they've added the trailin ":graffiti.net" on the end of my subdomain. So I have to change many infos of my homepage on I-Bands.net, MySpace and a few gazillion other profiles I own. *sigh*. 1st my url redirectin service died on me, then my url changed. I hope this is the only changes they're gonna make. Later.

My website is down & night vision video.

My homepage is currently inaccessible since yesterday. *sigh*. The main Graffiti.net server seems to be ok tho. My website account on the server seems to be ok. I didn't get banned and my account didn't get deleted fer many of the blabberin I wrote in my site :D. I guess they got a problem with the DNS or probably some sub-domain error. Anyway, I would like to put it as my site got major hits this week with gazillion visitors per hour and the hostin server just can't manage the tremendous data transfer to my site alone. Hah!. Ok it was an early mornin joke. An excitin one it is, to think bout it. Don't tell me you can't take jokes nowadays.

An info bout the Singapore video. Faiz (the cameraman cum band manager.) took our whole show in "Night Vision". Great. Just great. It hurts my eyes seein the damn show that way. The other bands on the video is ok. No night vision thingy. Ironic. I don't know what the heck he was thinkin. Urghh. It's nauseatin and troublin fer my stomach to see bright light (night vision tend to capture light more sensitively) and the yucky green color of the video. Sheesh. Later.

Gegaran Metal 2005 info! & 3 days Singapore trip on video!

I just got the unofficial flyer fer the upcomin Gegaran Metal 2005 gigs. The flyer is in Bahasa Malaysia so I had to translate it to English. So here it goes:

MuzikBox Production And IJ Entertainment
Presenting

Gegaran Metal 2005
Featuring

Cryptic Malediction
Narsamum
Fractured
Argon
Violator
Eibon
Carerforg
Prosanica
Mine
Everlasting Tales

Venue: "Music Garage" - My Friend Station,
Jalan Tun Abdul Razak, Kuala Lumpur (Near Kampung Pandan's roundabout).
Date: 10th July 2005 (Sunday)
Time: 2:00PM - 9:00PM
Entry: Buy 2 cassette OR 1 CD worth RM 20.00 at Music Garage's counter and gain:
Free Entrance Pass!!!

So there it is. This flyer is just a photocopy and the official flyer will be full color, due to release next month. So to all my friends, don't tell me you don't even have RM20 to spare?

Fahmi came and lend me Fractured newest home vid. The video is about our 3 days trip to Singapore includin our show plus a shot of another 2 bands. The homemade The Bodybag music video I told you about before is also included. All the nonsense we did was in it. Haha it's enjoyable to watch the darn video. It has a footage of us eatin Mc Donalds, footage of us takin a double decker bus (My 1st time!) and many more! Truly a precious treasure fer me to keep. Anyway it's up fer bid startin at RM 99,999.00. LoL no I was just jokin. Later.

Does age matter? & liabilities.

Men, gathers up. Yeah I'm gonna talk bout women. Not specifically bout em tho. Just want to bring up a topic bout age differences. Most of us men have a thing bout younger opposite. It's like a normal stuff to be in a relationship with a girl who's younger than us. People won't even mind if a 50 somethin dude got married with a 20 somethin girl. So what about if you have a relationship with a women who's older than you? Does it matter?

It's very subjective yes I know. It all comes down to preferences. So here's my opinion. It doesn't matter. The most important thing is bein comfortable with her. That's the most important thing. Even if she's cute and younger, beautiful a la *insert your fav singer/actresses/model*; it's useless if you are not comfortable with her. Heck yeah look is very temptin. Most of the time, look can be deceivin. But in the end, the only thing that can keep the relationship strong is trust and *ehem* love. What kind of love? Most of us men have taken lust into somethin that got to do with love which is somewhat, misunderstood. Ho no I'm not a love doctor, this is strictly my opinion. I'm sayin that lust (not a bad lust, just feelin of wantin to be with her forever etc, bad lust are you perverts out there :) comes after love. Not the other way round.

Love, another topic; is very hard and complex to understand. How can we know 'that' feelin we have fer her is really love? Some are lucky to have that 'love at first sight' gift and some have to grew with his companion before he can gain the feelin. That's where bein comfortable is important. How can you love someone if you're not comfortable with her at the 1st place? Ho yeah it might as well be lust. The bad lust. The big bad lust. It's magical that sometime, men end up bein happy with some type of women that's didn't get a higher rank in their preference's list be it in the look department, age dept etc etc. Because sometime the same type of women you overlooked before is the one who's really compatible with you. So when you ignore your strict preferences, anythin else doesn't matter.

So there's my verdict. Age differences doesn't matter. Not to say that there's anythin wrong with anythin. It just doesn't matter. I'm not comparin a group with another. This is not a comparison nor a "this vs that" crap. No matter what, if you feel you're comfortable with her and likewise, don't be bothered by anythin else. Nobody is gettin younger anyway. Most of all, I still think older women are sexier (Note: sexy doesn't mean *bare more/wear less* propaganda, a simple person can be sexy too just fer bein funny etc.).

My account gone minus this month. Haha. Am I worried? A bit. But Thank God I got a few side income to cover it. So no hard damage done. Ah well, only if I can make some liabilities a productive assets. So this is how it feels to own a car LoL.

I just received my recent photoes with Momoe. Just brings out all the good memories in an instant. :).

Fractured will be playin in Kuala Lumpur this July!

Talks has it that me and Fractured will be playin at Gegaran Metal [?] (I don't know what number it will be because I lost track.) on 10th July 2005!. Fahmi (my drummer) called me just now to confirm it and hopefully we will get the chance to play in it because anythin can happen in between of the scheduled gigs. If we get the spot, we will be playin along with some big names in Malaysian underground metal scene. Wow. This is it. This is the time! *fingers crossed*.

Next week we (Fractured) will be practicin our new songs and we hope to play those songs at the upcomin gigs. Yeah! \m/.

Oh, fergot to add, if any of my real life friends didn't show up fer this upcomin gigs, I'LL FREAKIN SKIN YOU ALIVE MESELF!! LoL :D. More infos will be shamelessly revealed as soon as I heard/read/saw it. Later.

bush is sellin his democracy again. Now to the Iranians.

Like a drunk cowboy, he's doin it again. Who? It's the U.S president Mr. Bush. Doin what? He's now preparin to attack iran. I don't know what he'll call this war this time around. "Retaliation" is so yesterday. Probably some other sweet bullshits with "Democracy" in it. Call it "Forward Defense" or any other racist propaganda you want, it's still genocide. So what if I killed someone because he has a knife in his kitchen and someday I 'think' he'll use it against me. Now I would love to call that "Forward Defense". Heck it's the same thing isn't it? Oh no. It's different. Because I'm killin 1 or perhaps a few person, now that's inhuman and I'll get death sentence fer that. Mr. Bush and his regime of warmongers on the other hand, are killin thousands even millions and that is different. They call it "the beacon of democracy". In a way, he's right bout the 'beacon' thing. It's shinin brightly and blindin all our sights. He's still at the office sittin proudly as the U.S president while the murders continues. It's just war. Oh and never forget bout oil too. Heck he's not even doin any fightin in any of his war. I recall his words "Either you are with us, or you are with the terrorists". Ah, how democratic.

I feel sorry fer those Iranians. And Iraqis, and Afghanis, and Vietnamese, and Japanese, and Cubans, and the whole world and I feel sorry fer Americans includin their soldiers because we; peace lovin human have to cope with those bunch of bloodthirsty "leaders" who'll do everythin in their power to make our lives miserable. What did these guys do that makes you want to waste their lives so much? Oh, I forgot bout oil. Sorry, my bad. Oh, is it about the WTC incident? Don't tell me you believed what Bush told you bout the 'terrorist attack'. Even White House are havin a hard time with all the inaccuracies contained in the official report. I'm not gonna write my assumption of the incident because many websites like 911 Research are doin a better job. So is it bout Mr. Osama? The caveman guy? The guy with a worldwide terrorist network, with loads of money and armies so advanced we didn't see em goin head to head with coalition army. Don't forget he was sponsored by CIA to fight russian in Afghanistan-Russian war before. But we do know that it was somethin bout Saddam, the old-friend of Americans on Iran-Iraq war before. Oh, now it's about nuclear. Right. Nuclear. North Korea have nuclear weapon, we all know it but Mr. Bush is too scared to do anythin bout it. Not to mention that his current propaganda is to make Muslims miserable. North Koreans ain't Muslim so he won't be botherin them fer a while. But, but, Israel have nuclear weapons too! Oh waittttt, it's 'Anti-Semite' to talk bout them and they are U.S allies so they're out of the list fer sure.

Don't ask what the Americans will do bout their leader's bloodthirsty behavior. Ask what the Muslim leaders are doin. I bet it'll be another letters of condemnation or somethin. It'll be just that. Even if the Iranians are Shiite, what have they done to make you hate them so much? They're human too damnit! Oh heck you didn't even help the poor Iraqis although they're Sunnies. Or even the poor Afghanis. Don't even try to bring Palestinians into the picture. They're long abandoned by their 'muslim' neighbours. Some of the Muslim countries are even givin extra facilities fer the insane armies just to make their Muslim neighbours miserable. It's pathetic to think that they; the so called 'muslim' leaders knows the power of Allah and yet, they are slaves to luxuries and power.

One thing I want to clear up, I'm not with any sort of terrorism, racism or war. I hate war. It disgust me. Have we not learn from the past? How many more lives must be taken before our greed is satisfied? Fer those who'll say "hey you're Muslim bla bla bla", stop. Stop lookin at me from religion's perspective. Look at me as a human bein. Maybe, just maybe, you'll value my life a bit even if not as much as yours.

May God bless the souls of the people who died in terrible wars made by diabolical leaders. Put down your guns. Go home. This world is too big to keep by yourself. Later.

BlogShares - Fantasy Blog Share Market

BlogShares - Fantasy Blog Share Market is "a fantasy stock market for weblogs. Players get to invest a fictional $500, and blogs are valued by incoming links.". I guess many of bloggers out there know bout this site except me. Surprisinly I got both of my blogs listed in it; Alsemo's Diary and FreeBSD & Me with the latter even got some share tradin been goin on. So this is cool. Check it out and you might even get a surprise or two. Later.

The day has come!

The day is here again. Aww shucks. And now the spotlight is on me and what a fine day it is. Today I'm officially 27yrs old. Wow. Anyway it'll just be like a normal day because my friends includin almost all my band(s) member doesn't know today is my birthday. My kid sister have always remember it. Wonder what she'll cook today.

Thanks Momoe fer the birthday wish, the 1st person to wish me Happy Birthday this year (^_^). That alone, is adequate to enjoy this day as my birthday. Domo Arigato. Later.

Happy birthday isman & my friend's granpa died.

Sometime we just can't have the whole birthday month fer ourselves huh? Ah well. So ~~Happy birthday to you!.. Happy birthday to you!.. Happy birthday to isman!.. Happy birthdayyyy tooo youuuuu!!!~~. May your days ahead be filled with God's love. 18th April is his day so go drop him a Happy Birthday line. Dude, remind me to buy you a drink the next time we meet. If April is your birthday month too, I wanna wish you Happy Birthday too no matter what date it is fer this month.

My friend's grandfather died today and I just came back from "tahlil". Condolences to his whole family fer the lost. Later.

Listen to J-Fan Radio (no need fer English-Japanese dictionary)

J-Pop fans rejoice! J-Fan Radio is the place fer you to listen to J-Pop online radio stream. The main site also have tons of info on J-Pop culture be it music, anime, manga etc. I'm currently searchin fer this Japanese jazz song which I heard over an anime movie. A sweet jazzy tune but I'm still hopeless in findin the singer/name of the song. J-Fan Radio here stream not only music from albums, they also put anime songs in it so there's still hope fer it. They also put a donation request to help the free J-Fan Radio to grow. Tanosimimasyo! Later.

FreeURL gone wacko, again.

Currently my FreeURL's url redirectin service has gone wacko and it's askin fer username and password if I want to go to http://www.alsemo.isdangerous.com (my webby's short url). Now that sucks. I don't know what happened but it seem that all the other website that uses FreeURL service are havin the same problem. Even the FreeURL website are havin some sorta problem. So, it's better to keep this url in mind (like a deja vu, I know I wrote somethin like this before... Hmm...):

http://home.graffiti.net/Alsemo/

If you can't see any graphic on the intro page then you might missed out the endin "/". If you hate the intro page (awwww...) then be my guest and hit straight to:

http://home.graffiti.net/Alsemo/main.html

I'll probably find another short url but I really like FreeURL's because I've been usin that fer years now. Hope it's just a temporary problem they're havin. Later.

Meetin, volcanoes wakin up, luxurious Marukku, ADSL splitter damaged & songs.

Bosses always knew how to hit you with a good point that you can't figure out how to defend yourself from instantly. Oh yeah so there was a meetin today and I got flamed. Again. And it's always after the meetin that I managed to think of some great excuses that can save my lazy arse back then. Sheesh. Anyway some of the things I expect him to spill out, did came out from his mouth. Like my hair fer example. The disapprovin tone bout my hair has finally made it to the meetin. Ah well, I got nothin against tyin my hair. Can't blame him tho, I'm always a rebellious (I am rebellious only when I'm right, don't get me wrong.) type and my hair seems like the most valid point.

Did you heard/read/saw the news bout a bunch of volcano activities around Indonesia? As reported in Berita Harian (Bahasa Malaysian news, keep your English-Bahasa Malaysia dict handy), 11 volcanoes around Indonesia is currently bein monitored because of the volcanic activities. Should we worry bout it? I mean, we're Malaysian and we don't have active volcanoes standin on our ground. Now that's where you're wrong. We should be worry. If fact, prepare to be slightly panicked. Remember 1883 - Krakatoa explosion? I don't remember anythin bout it because I was not born yet but you can read the link. It's still listed as one of the worst disaster. Now tell me why we should not be worried bout this. I mean. 11 volcanoes dude! Even the long retired Krakatoa volcano has a child (called Anak Krakatau = Child of Krakatoa)!. If you read the link bout the all-time famous Krakatoa Volcano, you can see the Krakatoa island before and after the great explosion. Now tell me we should not be worried bout this (I'm repeatin meself, I know..). If you managed to get the hard copy of Berita Harian, you can see the placement of those 11 most active volcanoes. They're basically surroundin the whole southern part of Malaysia. Volcanic eruption = bad. More on this later. This is scary and terrifyingly interestin at the same time.

I was havin a mid-evenin ride with my bike this evenin, searchin fer a pack of Marukku (an Indian style of munchies, like twisties but made from traditional indian ingredients, don't ask me what in it.) without any luck. Heck it's always like that. Everytime you really want somethin, you'll surely have a hard time findin it. So I got home and I went to the nearest supermarket to buy it. RM3.20 fer 350grams of marukku which I know they sell the same amount fer only RM1 or RM1.50 at the bus terminal. It's not even a festive day fer all I care! Ah well, at least the taste is still great. Yum!

My sister accidently stepped on the phone line a my adsl splitter was damaged. So now we have to swap usage. But I got the veto vote because it doesn't mean anythin if I can't use my "always on" broadband connection. Moral of the story, never let yourself got tripped on the phone line because you might lose the phone line's benefit if your brother pay fer Streamyx/any other broadband service. :D.

Songs fer today is:

Chantal Kravianuk (whatever her name is) - Armageddon OST - Leavin On A Jet Plane.

Stone Temple Pilots - Purple - Interstate Love Song.

Stone Temple Pilots - Purple - Still Remains.

*sigh*... Later.

A date with Momoe

The net buddies meet up went on just fine. So is my 1st date with Momoe. Who? She's the japanese girl I said who would come to Malaysia. And she came. She's still here and her flight back to Japan is on this wednesday. I didn't and won't get any more days off tho so I can't be with her on (last) Monday onward.

Yeah I was pretty much nervous. To meet the one you've been emailin fer quite a long time (more than a year) and finally you're meetin her/him in person. She was plannin to come to Singapore to catch the gigs Fractured played but unfortunately she can't get any ticket from Japan to Singapore. I've also blew her plannin fer last August 2004 so her would be trip to Malaysia back then was also screwed. Also screwed up another of her plan a few month after that too. My bad. So, to avoid meself from turnin another one of her trip to another repeated disaster, I gave the green light as soon as she mentioned somethin bout comin to Malaysia on 09/04/2005 (last Saturday) although the Singapore gigs has made a major hole in my pocket.

We're supposed to meet at the lobby of her hotel but I was late fer a few mins. Ack. Bein late fer a 1st date is a no no but KL is a very strange place fer driver comin from other state like me. To make it short, I was lost. Not lost while drivin, I was lost while walkin to her hotel. Yeah, it was that bad. I was already a few hours late fer the net buddies meet up because I have to do some servicin fer my car. But I managed to keep the delay to a minimum so *I guess* Momoe is not that angry with me :D.

So we meet at about 8:00PM somethin because she went back to her room to call me up. How was it? It's kinda awkward. Because I dunno if I should bow, or shake hands; that sorta stuff. Not to mention that it's the 1st real date. Lucky me my sister let me use her mobile fer 2 days so I was not completely out of reach. In fact I borrow my sister's mobile just fer that special occasion ;). So we met, I was about to make a Japanese style bow when she offered her hand. I was saved from the unfortunate humiliation :D. 1st phase was completed successfully.

I'm lucky too because now that I have my own car, I'm not tied to KL public transport's timetable. That's currently the only good point in havin my own transport as I was left with another problem. I don't know anythin bout drivin in KL. So somehow I sucks. We went to KLCC, had some Malaysian dishes, went to a late night TehTarik session (thanks Isman fer showin us your fav TT spot & a place fer me to stay that night), went to Teluk Kemang and Blue Lagoon in Port Dickson on Sunday (I was late, *sigh*, again).

Fun time really flies and before we know it, Sunday is wavin its hand to say goodbye. I hope she enjoyed her 1st trip to Malaysia although I'm a lousy tourist guide, broke, non-punctual & I didn't get more days off. Somehow I'm not satisfied because she could go to more nice places and enjoy many more things that Malaysia has to offer. And honestly I'm sad because she got nobody to go out with on Monday till this Wednesday, the day she'll go back to Japan. I don't know if I will be there to see her board her flight on Wednesday. Not to mention she can't call me up because my sister has taken her mobile back. I even fergot to ask her room number. *sigh*. I'm hopeless and it breaks my heart.

Net buddies meet up, Streamyx ain't fast right now & Singapore's gigs picture.

I'm goin to KL tomorrow fer a small gatherin with a few of my long time net buddies. Tomorrow too will be my 1st time drivin on the crazy roads of KL. Oh yeah I did mention drivin. My last car loan application was accepted so I've add another commitment in life. No more drenched in rain! No more hot sun! I can hear songs while on the road! Oh, oil price has been raised again... Drats. Back to the gatherin, I'll probably be in KLCC and/or anywhere there's chicks can be seen roamin the area. If you're my net buddy, do come. To my long lost net buddies, really misses you guys so come and join us too! Got a date too tomorrow, after the gatherin with an oversea friend. After a few plans that went kaput, Momoe will finally come to Malaysia tomorrow. Another event I've been waitin fer.

The net has been slow this past few days. Even at my office which uses 1Mb Streamyx connection. Now what the heck are the guys at TMNet are doin right now? I don't have any idea but I do hope this slowness will be a brief encounter. I have a "The document contains no data" problem with blogger just now. I don't know if you guys are experiencin the same problem as I have. So, rather than editin my previous post, I was left with the option of copyin the entire post, deletin it and do a repostin of the edited version of the blog. Sheesh.

Thanks to Venibbeth (Fleurs Du Mal's guitarist), I now have Fractured band picture when we was in Singapore. Expect the picture to be uploaded into my homepage soon. More pictures will be comin soon as Faiz is processin his films. I'm startin to miss the video we took. That too, will be soon. Later.

p/s: I tried postin this blog but still got this annoyin "The document contains no data" bs. Drats..

The Singapore's experiences.

I promised to tell somethin bout my Singapore gigs's experience so here I am. Sorry fer the delay because there's currently many things that came in the way. Anyway, on with my story.

It was quite a surprise, my experience in Singapore I mean. I always thought that the people there is not much of a friendly bunch. I mean, who knows what other people in other countries are like anyway. We (Fractured) are foreigners anyway and Singapore is not our turf so it's nobody's fault if we're ignored and such. But it didn't happen that way. All the people that got anythin to do with us and the gigs is friendly.

We left Seremban around 10:30AM on Friday and went straight to Johor Bahru. We made a few plans like goin straight to Singapore / takin a train ride but in the end, goin to JB 1st seems like a good idea. We can have a rest beforehand and chill out in JB or somethin. We, all the 5 of us (Me, Fahmi, Dayne, Hangah and Faiz the camera dude) rented a RM30 room fit fer 3 person max and ho boy it was quite chaotic. The aircond was broken and it's like sleepin in a hot stove there. So I slept on the floor. It was in JB that I knew the name of the gigs. It was "Infestation of Evil Fest 2005". Cool huh? :). Fractured was listed on top of other bands like we're headlinin the gigs and we was nervous like mad. Who ain't anyway. The part in the flyers that I like the most is that they'll make an official DVD/Vcd out of the entire show. Yay!. Expect that vid to be in my private collection when it's available.

We crossed the Johor - Singapore border around 10:00AM on Saturday mornin. We went to this guy; Fadzil's shop beforehand and fill up our white cards (the card fer us to go to Singapore.. Don't ask me I dunno. It's the law). All of us except fer Fahmi got to Singapore's Immigration with no difficulties. Fahmi's Iron Cobra which he brought in it's box case caught much unwanted attention to the Immigration officers. So he had to open his bag, the Iron Cobra's box etc etc you know the drills. Fer a 1st experience, it sucks to be searched like that but heck, it's forgiven. Fahmi got the same encounter on our way back to Malaysia by our own Malaysian Immigration officer. Heck I pity him.

It was a brief trip, crossin the border. The scenery is not totally different from ours except fer cool cars. Oh the city is clean too. It's more bout money over there. Here you can have a decent meal with take as many as you want servet/tissue. Over there in Singapore, I have to buy the tissue. Somebody said "ciggy"? Ho boy cigarette over there is expensive. Very expensive. A pack of Marlboro will cost you around SD11.++. Yeah I'm talkin bout Singapore Dollar. So we bought a pack of our fav flavor right from JB. A person can't cross with more than 1 pack of ciggy tho. After we arrive at Keranji, we waited fer Fadzil and his gang because he's the one who knows bout the place the gigs will be.

We got to Planet Paradigm (where our gigs was held) around 11 o'clock or somethin. Man that place is big. There was a stage and the mosh pit is big. We got a chance to do a soundcheck so after a few brief thoughts, we went fer At The Gates - Blinded By Fear cover. It was my 1st time usin Boss Mega Distortion with my bass guitar fer a gigs and it was way great! The soundcheck went well so we went out (the gigs start at 3PM) to find ourselves somethin to munch. Mc Donalds got the highest vote so we went to the nearest McD which is bout 10 mins walk. It was my 1st time eatin Big Mac because I'm allergic to meat (except fer chicken). Fergot to tell Faiz bout that and he already ordered the Biggies. Except fer a brief nausea, the Big Mac didn't kill me. Phew I was lucky because in my last experience, I went blank and fainted. I was fine durin our show too. Would I eat Big Mac again? No and they invented Mc Chicken fer guys like me. Duh.

We got to be the 6th act that day and my wish came true. Like I've said, performin too early and there'll be not much of a crowd and perform too late the crowds are tired. But is there any crowd? Includin all the bands performin, we got 100+ people in it. Not much of a crowd but considerin that there was a big gigs a week before and a week after ours, it's pretty much predicted. Did it burn our anxiety? Hell no! We; Fractured really enjoyed our show. All of us axemen, even includin Hangah headbang throughout our performance. I even did a request fer the crowd to headbang on the middle of Dimension Zero - Immaculate cover but nobody responded. LoL. Ah well, at least we know that we really enjoyed playin the whole 6 songs. What did we perform?

1) The Bodybag (Inside The Bodybag in the demo)
2) War Of The Lords (War Of The Gods in the demo)
3) Once Stabbed
4) The Haunted - Tresspass cover
5) Dimension Zero - Immaculate cover
6) At The Gates - Blinded By Fear cover

I guess people do enjoy the show but they just don't headbang. Not only on our turn, but basically on all of the bands's performance. Well, as long as people do enjoy themselves, it's AOK fer me. Fleurs Du Mal didn't perform because their drummer had a bad accident with broken leg(s). We're sorry to hear the news. Anyway two of FDM's army did came to the gigs so it's cool. Maybe someday soon we'll get the chance to perform together. Oh they're friendly bunch too.

After the show, we was taken to the place we will be livin fer that night. It was at Coxscrew Studio. It's a damn nice place. The crews is friendly and they even took the burden to bring our equipments with em so that we; Fractured are freed from carryin those heavy stuff with us. It was a 20mins walk from Planet Paradigm. As we arrived, the 1st thing I did was take a peek at the recorded vid from Fahmi's camcorder. The extra nice guys at studio even cook fer us that night! I viewed the vid a few times until I got very sleepy.

The next mornin, one of CS Studio's crew took us fer breakfast and he paid fer all of it. Man can anybody be friendlier than that? We had a short tour around and we went to a shoppin complex to kill some time. There's many guitar shop and the goodies are cheap! You can get a cool lookin B.C Rich Warlock fer bout RM800! No luck on findin my all time fav Ibanez EDA 4 Strings tho but I'm sure it's on sale somewhere. Why is it so hard to find good stuph fer bassist everywhere? Drats. Our Seremban bus was scheduled to leave at 5:30PM so we pretty much got many free time doin some window shoppin.

We left Larkin, JB at 5:30 knowin that we've made good friends over there at Singapore. Someday we'll meet again my friends! We're scheduled to arrive at Seremban somewhere around 9:30 but there was a major traffic jam at Lipis/Pedas so the bus went out from the highway to use the country road. It was a bad idea because there was a flood and to make it worst, the bus's baggage compartment opened out of some freak failure and a car accidently hit it. Some repairin session, driver to driver discussion and police report afterward, we finally arrive at Seremban around 12. What an experience. But overall, it was a great memories. Unforgettable. We really had fun all the way till the end. I didn't get any goth chicks tho so it sucks somewhere haha.

Countless respect goes to Coxscrew Studio crews fer providin us with a comfortable place to stay after the show. Thanks fer the homemade foods too!. To Fadzil's crew too and his band Terkutuk which sadly didn't get the chance to perform at the gigs. Kudos to the bands who gigged with us that evenin. To the crowds. You were all great people. I personally hope that Fractured will have the chance to perform with/infront of you guys again. \m/

Arieses rejoice! This month is ours! Yeah well so my birthday is just around the corner. I'll be 27 very soon. Heck I'm that old already. Sheesh. It seems like yesterday that I went to school. So many memories. I'm thinkin bout my mom. Miss her very much. Nobody special to celebrate my birthday with. Heck it's no surprise. Would be glad if this year is different. Heh. Anyway, be prepared to sing the all time favorite "Happy birthday to you" song aye! Later.

My grandmother died. Al-Fatihah.

My cousin called just now sayin that my only grandmother I had left has passed away peacefully today. I'm goin to the hospital now. Can't contact my big sis tho. Dunno where she is right now. Later.

I'm back and feelin good! (tired too..)

I just got home. My bus departed at 5:30PM from Larkin, Johor Bahru and many things just happened on the way. Ho boy I got lotsa things to write bout my 1st experience in Singapore. But, I'm too tired to start it, not to mention I'm very hungry right now. So I thought I better save the good stuff fer tomorrow. A teaser though. It was great! So, later then.