Fractured @ Sunday Live Jamm Session Part I. More great memories.

So it was Sunday Live Jamm Session: Part I gig. The flyers was all over local myspace bands. We are not listed in the flyer because we're kinda got fitted in after the flyer got released. If I knew earlier I'd tell you guys all about it but heck I didn't. So sorry about that. A few of my buddies are pissed off because I can't give the correct information about it. Like I've said, it's not totally my fault.

Got a brand new bass strings so I'm all ok. I can't remember the brand of the strings but you can be sure it's not Kyser's. Bah we can't have all the things we wanted in this world. Anyway, it feels great to be holding my Ibanez again. Angah on the other hand, was totally pissed because his Ibanez was still with his buddy, undergoing some minor repairs. So he was left with no choice other than to borrow someone's Ibanez instead. The guys and me, we all had a night stay at Angah's house fer it'll be easier fer us to find the venue of the gig (as we still didn't know the name and the place of the gig. Imagine that.).

So the plan was, pick up Angah's friend the next morning so he can guide us to the whereabout of the gig. Good plan. But the only problem was the "morning" thingy. If we're all staying in the same place, you can be sure that it'll be a looooooong night. Chatting, laughing, talking nonsense and stuff. I slept around 6 in the morning and we need to get up around 9, morning que fer bath. Yeah right, sure. It was 9 something and Angah was the only one who had taken a bath. All the others? Well, rubbing their eyes (me included), changing sleeping position etc.

Domestic issues aside, we picked Angah's friends, the vocal fer Furion Escalada and his buddy. Nice fella. Honestly I never heard them before but I know from other people that they are great. When they perform, they totally own the place. Tight performance. Great showmanship. Simply awesome.

We were supposed to be the 1st band to perform there, not the number we like. We arrived around 12 in the afternoon or something. Seeing the "Holiday Villa Hotel" sign made me recall the flyer of "Sunday Live Jamm Session" somewhere in myspace. "Damn" I thought. "This is the gig we're gonna play in.". Anyway it was too late to spread the news to anyone. The only person I called was Bobi because he was eager to come and see us. But then he never came. Brat. Lucky fer us the soundcheck haven't started yet because we're about an hour late fer the session. The place was in Lavida Lounge in the hotel.

Inside the pub, one by one of us was invited to check the sound equipments. Lucky us. At first Fahmi was told to test the drums, then me fer the bass, then Udin and Angah fer the guitars. We even played our newest song Leaving Deads Behind (very very new, even the lyrics is not completed yet.. hehe) fer the soundcheck. Well because the songs is pretty much still fresh, I forgotten a few licks here and there. Still it was fun.

After the soundcheck, we all went to the nearest mamak joint fer lunch. Joined by Furion Escalada's army, the session took longer than expected and when we came back to the pub, the show has already begun. Lucky fer us the organiser didn't kick us out and we're slotted fer 3rd performance instead. Not intentionally but somehow it's great news.

It's great to be performing live again. There was moshpit activities when we play our 1st number, The Bodybag and it's a great feeling. After our 2nd song War of The Lords, Angah's string snapped (again? yeah it's a curse) and we were left with another 2 more songs instead of 6 fer total because replacing Angah's string ate our stage time. Our track list that day:

1. The Bodybag (demo)
2. War of The Lords (demo)
3. Let The World Burns (new song)
4. Once Stabbed (demo)

All the other bands that day was great. In fact I guess this was the gig that have the most talented bands (well, excluding us of course. :P). I really enjoyed being there till the end of the show. Sorry fer not joining the moshpit because my neck aches like mad. It's been too long I guess. But then I can't stand the excitement when Et Cetera covered Dimension Zero - Silent Night Fever. What a bloody show. Simply excellent. I can tell you all about the other bands too but I'll bagged me eyes writing all about it all day. To keep it simple. They all simply tears the place down to dust.

We all had a great day. It was a great experience to be amongst the talented people. I'll remember this fer life. Later.

Fractured would like to salute and thank the followings:-
The organiser fer giving us a spot in the gig.
The crews fer a hell of a job.
Bannbodo
Furion Escalada
Infectious Maggots
Et Cetera
Dark Horror
Onani
Oddity
Ego Drama
Not forgetting the people who came to the show. We really appreciate the support you have given. We'll keep this memories with us fer eternity. Hope we'll see you guys again in the near future. Rot On!

* p/s: ohh, my neck, back, thigh and legs aches like mad...

I'll play at whatever-the-gig-is, see ya on 25th! *If we can find the place..*

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I still didn't get any information regarding our next show. Yeah the upcoming 25th gig. Asked around and the guys didn't know much about it too. Hell. Is it a private gig or something? Can't imagine Angah shredding his guitar wearing zebra's underpants in front of a group of mid-age women. Haha!

Tomorrow I'll be off to Angah's house, staying there fer 1 night before going to the wherever-the-place-is gig. Sooooo, I'll be out of the net fer a few days, and that means I'll update the informations about the gig, after the whatever-the-gig-name-will-be is done. I don't know why nobody asked whoever-the-organiser-is more informations. It's too late to care now. Bah. All I care now is about my freakin new strings. Hopefully I don't have to borrow someone's bass guitar.

About that crush thingy, I think it's better to leave the feelings like that. Untouched. No further approach, no plans or anything. I just like the feeling. No need to ruin it with some serious thingy. And she doesn't need to know. Later.

Job & inner conflicts.

Just when I thought the smoke on this side is finally cleared. Just after my my 1st duty yesterday, new problems surface. Can't it wait fer another month or somethin? Oh yeah I'm back to writin with no trailin 'G', I guess the spell-checker took a day off or somethin.

I'm still a few weeks more to gettin my 1st paycheque, but the 'test-of-life' couldn't wait that long. I've already been buggered with some things I 'should' be payin with my not-yet-earned salary. Damn. Then the question of maybe bein relocated because the instability of my housemates, probably discussin a new rent terms because of things that's unavoidable. No, my job is ok, my boss is cool, but this things somewhat related to the surroundin of my work so it has successfully makin me rethink the path I'm currently takin.

I'm not gonna put in details the things that been botherin me, today. Yeah today. Twisted as it is. Funny how I was confident about this new career path I'm takin, not gonna depend on my relative to make a livin and choosin what I want to do instead of how much I'll make on doin somethin fer supportin me. It didn't wait fer another 10 or 20 blog post from me to test me out. As soon as I made a statement and willin to be firm about it, the 'test' has to try me out hastily, to shake me from my stance. From my own foundation.

I agree. Money talks. Damn it I hate it but I admit it. With my cousin, no housin problem, transportation problem and I'll be forced to gain weight. Sure the pay is good too. Bloody 'el my plan was nearly perfect yesterday, took me more than a week to make this decision. But this mornin, the situation changed. My ship took a turn elsewhere and I'm just a mere sailorman. No say at the course of the ship, can but will not be taken seriously.

Bah. Entangled in self-conflicts, inflicted upon the way things 'should' be from the majority point of view. From their 'nature'. Now, goin on with my plan will financially leave me with nothin much to spare. Workin my arse's off, though lovin it, but I'll be throwin the money elsewhere. Sure I can try to cope with that, if I'm strong with my decision. But I'm no longer 18. *yeah I do know I'm old now, thank you..*.

And now, as per this case; ego aside, personal demand means nothin. Principal stand got no values. Tryin to stand out by bein different sometime means suicide. Helpin out the 'circle' directly is good, but when the 'circle' can't do much to help you out, maybe it's best to be outside of the 'circle' and helpin them from there instead. Yeah people say loyalty can make a miserable life out of you, but that's what who I am.

I'll discuss this with my boss soon. Try to figure out some sort of solution, a way. Maybe an exit. Not puttin a hope on anythin. This time, I'll let this piece of plank drift me anywhere the wave wants me to. Maybe another ship will pick me up, maybe I'll still be driftin, dehydrated and hungered or hopefully, as I open my eyes, I'll found meself on an island. Later.

Not workin with my cousin.

Ah. So I silently turn down the job offer from me cousin. I'm now workin with my friend, guy within our 'circle'. Financially, my cousin pays better money, technologically *is this word even exist?*, my new job is better. Still within my field of interest. I do what I'm interested in, money comes second. I might be naively fool to say it like that but heck, I'm not bothered with that. Nor it's some sort of brag.

What am I doing now? Mostly CCTV stuff. I'm dyin fer our next project involving fiber optic cables. Been waiting fer years to do fiber optic cabling. So it'll be some sort of amazing experience fer me then. Wish me luck on that. Later.

Not that important but heck I wrote it didn't I?

Uhm. I wanted to say somethin. Kinda important. Important to me I mean. Well, I'm pretty sure it's nobody else's problem. But heck. I just wanted to say.. Hmm.. *shy*.. I mean.. You see.. .. *s.h.y*.. It's somethin like this.. .. uhh.. *shy*..

Ok, ok. I just wanted to say. Arrhhh! How to put it. I, I'm in this kind of situation, you see. I guess I'm in that situation (it's 'this' or 'that'?.. weeeeell..). I'm not sure but I think I am. Uh might as well spill it out. It's kind of difficult to express. Twisted or somethin. Never imagine I'll be in the situation. Not at this time. With her! Urh.

Ok I think, I guess, I'm kind of have a some sort of thing, like somethin like a crush, on someone I never thought I will.



*blush*


p/s: that's why I've been listenin to HIM - Wicked Game lately...


*bluuuuuusssssshhhhh*

IslamicTube: YouTube with Islam contents.

I got an invitation email. Not sure when it was sent. Don't know who sent it. What it is about? That someone wants me to see IslamicTube.

Fer that somebody, I thank you. IslamicTube is just like YouTube. The difference is that IslamicTube allows people to share videos about, well, Islam. See it fer yourself. Currently they have many videos about Islam culture, people, debates (Ahmed Deedat anyone?). I guess this site is new. Well I might be wrong. Here's the address:

http://islamictube.net

So that's the thing I felt like sharing with you guys. Later.

New update on the gigs.. Not sure you'll like to read it..

Ok. 1st of all, I'd like to apology. There's been a few changes on this gig thingy *taking cover*...

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Enough of that. Fahmi called and told me that the proposed 31st March gig has been canceled. Not our fault in any way. Seems like the organiser is having a problem about location. :/. Can't say I'm glad to hear about it too. It was supposed to be a big one and.. canceled. Shucks.

Another info. No I don't have the flyer fer our next show, neither do Fahmi. But the date will be on the 25th March...

*taking cover*... *again..*

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Ok ok I'm sorry! Not my fault! Sheesh. So now I have to update the myspace. Later.

Update: Ops. My bad. There was no 18th March gig. The Subang's show has always been 25th March. Don't ask me, I don't know where I got the idea meself. *taking cover*....

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Gig infos? What infos? Urgh.. and other mumblings.

What's the date huh? March 13th or something. Got a few more days before the Subang gig. My TR Series is still naked. Without strings. Collecting dust. And still no information(s) on the upcoming shows?! ARGHH! Everytime, EVERYTIME we have show(s) we're listed in, the situation will always be like this. Everyone is keeping quiet. Bah! At least a text msg or something. Then when it's a few hours before the show, everybody, EVERYBODY will be chaotic. "What's the playlist?", "Did you get the yet? We're gonna play it.", "Did you by any chance find my wristband?". Urgh. I still didn't get any flyer. If somehow this show got cancelled or something, all my band's friends in myspace will get pissed off. Ok we only have 3 friends in there so it's a bit too much. Haha.

Still haven't call up my cousin to confirm on whether to accept his job offer or not. The favor is more on his side though. But because I'm currently busy playing with my new server, I guess I still have a reason to be here fer another few more days.

Here, it's raining almost everyday. Weird because people I know seems to be whining about the lack of downpour in their area. My cousin, the guys at my previous home, some other people. It rained here a while ago. When it's not raining here, it's pretty hot.

Finished half the lyrics of our new song. Wanted to finish the song quick but I'm not multitasked enough. Heh. Got meself busy with my server like I've said. Have a few things I wanted to change fer that new song but I haven't had the time to discuss it with the boys yet. Oh, btw, the new song is call "Leaving Deads Behind". Expect that to be played live in another few more gigs. If we got more gig offers.

Speaking about music, Epiphone Les Paul & Dean Explorer ML basses been haunting me lately. I find that Les Paul basses are sexy. Found some good deals on 'em in Ebay, along with my all time favorite Ibanez Destroyer. Anyway I can just window shop fer now. Still, just seeing the pictures makes me feel sunny inside. Like candy to kids. I'm seeking fer someone who'll give me any of the 3 basses I've mentioned fer whatever reason or none. Hah! Tough luck.

I'm planning to buy a new pair of Chuck Taylor's shoe. Found a shop in OneUtama and can't call the discounts there a bargain so I just skipped it. Maybe I should look in Seremban. Later.

Freaky horoscope..

I just came back from my cousin's house. Been there fer a few days. So there I was, looking at this place I call home and I saw a 'Remaja' mag. Flipping through it, and I saw the horoscope section. Bah. Turn out to be the only page I stop flipping at. The heck. Just read it through.

And then. BAM!. It says (lousy translations up ahead):

Think this year as a new page. Look forward, don't look back anymore. The offer from your nearest relatives must be accepted as it's connected to your future. There'll be many chances after 12th, so don't lose it.

Financial: Getting thinner because your plan(s) got screwed in the middle.
Career: Don't run away from problems.
Health: Lung's problem.
Love: You are really lonely and need someone to be by your side.
Men: Careful on making promises.

Bloody 'el. Sometime this things amuses me. Some other time, it's freaky. Not saying I believe this sorta things but, hell, it's plain impressive. Just as I've been doing a bit of a deep thinking about a job offer from my cousin. Darn. Someone been scooping on my life or what? Ah, Isman, you're an aries too right? And I kinda know this misses you by a gazillon marks. So, I think this things do get to the right person sometime. Not all the time. Heck.

How bout the others? Hah!. Like I said, it's impressive.. Later.