Howdy folks. It's me here, tryin to write some more blog from an internet cafe. It still sucks but hey, had to do what I had to do. Sheesh now this pc's keyboard has a sticky keys so I have to correct almost everythin I wrote. Darn.
I still have no job. Ah, such a short word to describe it. But it's enough.
My sister still haven't cut off my Streamyx so it'll be another month of waste fer my RM88 bucks. Drats. I can't cut it because it's registered usin her name (my name is blacklisted because my old old company use it and had more then a thousand ringgit worth of debt. Drats). I dunno when she'll go to the Telekom and cut it though but I hope it'll be soon. Can't use the darn Streamyx though so what's the use anyway?
I wrote a blog but I left the diskette at home. So here's a brief blog I guess. I wanna write more but this is an internet cafe so it sucks to blog from here. I guess I'll paste the blog later and adjust the date because I blog about yesterday. Heh, it's almost an hour so I better stop. Can't do like what I used to at home. Yeah I kinda love to stare at the internet. Later then.
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Saturday, July 30, 2005
No Singapore job fer me, new blog? & the pain is back?
I still have no new job. Jobless. *sigh*. What a way to survive. My sister still haven't cut the Streamyx so I'll burn RM88 fer another month. What a waste. My daily-pay jobs aren't doin so well either. Sometime I have somethin to do and most of the time, there's just nothin left fer me to work on. And when there's no work, there's no pay. I was plannin to go to Singapore this August. Got a friend who's workin there and he was back here tryin to settle some required documents. The plan was good. But then he got a job here, workin as a driver fer a VIP and he got a good pay. In fact, much better than what he get in Singapore so I have this feelin that he won't be leavin to Singapore anymore. You see, I was plannin to stay at this guy's place in Johor Bharu because he got his relative there. So then, if he ain't goin back to JB and work in Singapore after the required documents are settled, how am I goin to bump in? Such a dilemma. As fer me, I'm the kind of guy who'll try to focus at 1 thing instead of thinkin bout a few backup plans so I'm now without any other choice. I don't know if I can clear up any of my bills fer this month and it's already the end of the month.
I have this scattered ideas of a new blog. The idea seems to be a cool one. It's still a hush fer now. I don't wanna spoil the element of surprise so I'll spill no more. It'll might or might not be materialised because my current internet connectivity state aren't actually somethin to be proud of.
I'm kinda scared right now. It seems that the mysterious pain I rarely get is comin back. It's my 'Batu Karang' thingy. I hate it. It'll always make me almost break in tears just thinkin bout it. It's a hell of a pain when I'm tryin to pee when it happens. The doctor said before that I got no trace of any infection in my urine but there's a trace of blood in it so it's presumably caused by 'Batu Karang'. Trust me, it's a lot of pain when you're tryin to urinate. It's such a pain that all of the time when I'm sufferin from the effect, I can't bear it at all. It's somewhat, half my fault because I don't drink enough water. My kid sister said that the peein difficulty was probably because my body doesn't have enough fluid. I tried to make drinkin plain water a habit, in fact I even have a bottle of plain water in my room fer my convenience but it just slips off me most of the time. I hate to say it but I sense that the effect is comin again. And if that happens, I will be in a hell of a pain when I'm tryin to pee tomorrow. I pray that the feelin I get is just a false alarm. It's unbearable just to think about it. Later.
I have this scattered ideas of a new blog. The idea seems to be a cool one. It's still a hush fer now. I don't wanna spoil the element of surprise so I'll spill no more. It'll might or might not be materialised because my current internet connectivity state aren't actually somethin to be proud of.
I'm kinda scared right now. It seems that the mysterious pain I rarely get is comin back. It's my 'Batu Karang' thingy. I hate it. It'll always make me almost break in tears just thinkin bout it. It's a hell of a pain when I'm tryin to pee when it happens. The doctor said before that I got no trace of any infection in my urine but there's a trace of blood in it so it's presumably caused by 'Batu Karang'. Trust me, it's a lot of pain when you're tryin to urinate. It's such a pain that all of the time when I'm sufferin from the effect, I can't bear it at all. It's somewhat, half my fault because I don't drink enough water. My kid sister said that the peein difficulty was probably because my body doesn't have enough fluid. I tried to make drinkin plain water a habit, in fact I even have a bottle of plain water in my room fer my convenience but it just slips off me most of the time. I hate to say it but I sense that the effect is comin again. And if that happens, I will be in a hell of a pain when I'm tryin to pee tomorrow. I pray that the feelin I get is just a false alarm. It's unbearable just to think about it. Later.
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Blog from outside, daily-pay jobs & Nintendo DS
Ah. Hello world! This is my 1st time bloggin from an internet cafe. And all I can say is: IT SUCKS. Bloggin fer me is time consumin process. It'll not be a problem if my Streamyx is usable. I'm used to open up the quick blog window and let it open fer a while until I finish up my blog. Now, I have to blog quickly or else it'll burn a hole in my pocket. No don't get me wrong, I can blog quickly. So I'm provin it right now. Oh yeah I have another 32 minutes to blog here *smirk*.
I still don't have a new job yet. Job are pretty hard to find nowadays. I believe there's a job openin somewhere but to find it is somethin that requires a lotsa patient. Hehe. Oh mind me. I just remembered that me and Bobby went to the market to find a job. Bobby's still workin though. But we're both tryin to find a daily-pay job which is the best way to support ourselves in this situation. And fer added info, most daily-pay jobs are mostly works that's pretty much require you to do jobs that most educated people won't bother be doin. Like the market, agricultural sector, car wash etc. As fer meself, I don't mind what job I'm doin as long as it's 'halal'. Still, I have to look at the 'workin hour - amount paid' ratio. It'll be almost useless if I'm gettin 20 bucks workin my ass off fer 12 hours. There's a few promisin daily-pay jobs I'm tryin to get and no I won't tell you before I know I can get the work. Hah! :P
Fahmi bought a Nintendo DS 2 days ago. He was thinkin bout buyin between a Sony PSP or the Nintendo DS and the result was, Nintendo DS win. I had the chance to try it out and all I can say is. I was never wrong! Nintendo DS will always be the stuff I want in my wish list! I envy him. Drats.
Yeow. This internet cafe's staff have already startin to close this place up. Huh? It's still 11:10?! Man this sucks. This is what I can expect from doin my internet stuff from outside my cozy place. Sheesh. Ah well. My bloggin was fast anyway. Chow.
p/s: Momoe is plannin to come here again on the middle of August! Yeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssss!
I still don't have a new job yet. Job are pretty hard to find nowadays. I believe there's a job openin somewhere but to find it is somethin that requires a lotsa patient. Hehe. Oh mind me. I just remembered that me and Bobby went to the market to find a job. Bobby's still workin though. But we're both tryin to find a daily-pay job which is the best way to support ourselves in this situation. And fer added info, most daily-pay jobs are mostly works that's pretty much require you to do jobs that most educated people won't bother be doin. Like the market, agricultural sector, car wash etc. As fer meself, I don't mind what job I'm doin as long as it's 'halal'. Still, I have to look at the 'workin hour - amount paid' ratio. It'll be almost useless if I'm gettin 20 bucks workin my ass off fer 12 hours. There's a few promisin daily-pay jobs I'm tryin to get and no I won't tell you before I know I can get the work. Hah! :P
Fahmi bought a Nintendo DS 2 days ago. He was thinkin bout buyin between a Sony PSP or the Nintendo DS and the result was, Nintendo DS win. I had the chance to try it out and all I can say is. I was never wrong! Nintendo DS will always be the stuff I want in my wish list! I envy him. Drats.
Yeow. This internet cafe's staff have already startin to close this place up. Huh? It's still 11:10?! Man this sucks. This is what I can expect from doin my internet stuff from outside my cozy place. Sheesh. Ah well. My bloggin was fast anyway. Chow.
p/s: Momoe is plannin to come here again on the middle of August! Yeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssss!
Thursday, July 14, 2005
A letter from afar
Dear me,
Sorry if I wrote this a little bit late. It's not that I don't want to get online, it's just that I can't anymore. No my Streamyx didn't get cut off. It's my laptop's built-in network adapter. I fergot to detach the telephone line from my ADSL modem and I think it was rainin quite heavily while I was in KL fer Gegaran Metal 2005 gigs and lightin zapped my network adapter. How did I know my network adapter is kaput? Because it's no longer present in the System Information (Win XP) AND ifconfig (FreeBSD). So, I had to write this from an internet cafe. I can safely assume that my internet life is over now. Why the hell do I want to keep the Streamyx if I can't use it anymore? It's no use tellin me to repair the darn built-in network adapter because financially, that's the least important thing I want to consider doin right now.
But I'll log in once in a while from an internet cafe or whatever because somehow, my life grew around the internet. I consider you guys, the people I can't see, the people I don't know as my friends. While others prefer to go out and face the real life, I live in this tiny room, roamin the big internet life. Someday I'll get my Streamyx back. I do hope so. Someday, probably after I bought a better desktop computer. Who knows. Or perhaps, I'll try to live in the real life. Back to reality.
I also want to tell you about the gigs. How was it? Well, it was great! The crowd was very supportive and the bands playin with us are all great. Symphonic Metal, Brutal Death Metal, Thrash Metal; you name it and it was all in it. We did good and my throat did make it till the last song. Whew. I was afraid that I'll cough in the middle of a song or somethin and thankfully, I didn't. We got our performance on video and Fahmi already burnt in to DVD. Well, my laptop doesnt have a DVD-Rom so I can just drool and hope that Udin will convert it to VCD. We played 5 songs that evenin.
1) The Bodybag - our own
2) Once Stabbed - our own
3) Let The World Burns - our own (new song!)
4) Tresspass - The Haunted
5) Blinded By Fear - At The Gates
The new song went great! Unfortunately, one of Hangah's strings snapped in the middle of the new song but another band lend him a guitar and the show managed to go on without any other glitches. Like I've told you earlier, the crowd was very supportive and someone actually shouted "Orang kampung den" at me. That's cool. Hopefully there'll be another gig fer us soon because I'm sure as heck can't wait fer another one to come.
I didn't find a new job yet and yeah I know it's the middle of the month now. I still don't quite know what I'm gonna do but I'll figure out somethin soon. It's good thing that I'm havin a rest because Momoe was here so I can just go out on dates with her and never have to worry bout goin to work. I'll find some kind of work later after she went back to Japan.
How's Momoe? I sent her to KLIA on 14th July in the mornin fer her flight back to Japan. She came on 9th July and I thought I was late to pick her up at KLIA when nearly and hour after that, she called and said that MAS was late. I managed to avoid usin PLUS highway on my way to KLIA but I kinda lost in my way back to Seremban and was tricked to choose the highway. Damn PLUS is sure smart. In quite a short trip, we managed to do many memorable things. We went to the amusement park in Seremban, goin to a ghost house (which later I saw a teddy bear hung inside among the other ghosts and she said it scared her. I hope she's not scared of that teddy bear) and I almost spewed my guts out when we ride a rift ride which I swore that will be the last time Ill ever get on that ride again.
Oh, she came with us to the Gegaran Metal 2005 gig. When it was time fer me to perform, I saw her near the front of the stage. It's not that hard to find her because while everybody else is wearin black shirts and a few white one, she wore a kawaii (yes kawaii, not hawaii. kawaii means cute) floral shirt. She kept buyin bottle after bottle of mineral water and I do feel guilty because we kept gettin the newly bought mineral water lost somewhere. Deep down inside me, Im very glad that I see her again; even when she said that the trip was the last one. Yes, she came here fer the last time. I avoided to talk with her bout that when she came because I just want her to enjoy her visit. And I wanted to enjoy her visit too.
Before I sent her to KLIA fer her flight to Japan, she gave me a bottle of honey and said, "it's a honey fer my honey, eat it so that you can sing better". That's sweet. Both her and the honey. I didn't get her anythin, a typical stupid behavior-o-mine. I should've bought her somethin at least. Damn. I'm feelin mushy. Why can't I? To know that after this it'll be hard fer me to see her again makes me feel empty. I don't know what I'll do to see her again. She's special, very special to me and I'm not afraid to tell you that. And yes most of the time, reality is so cruel. It's somethin special to me, that in a short period of her trip, we're close. In fact, we're so close that I still wonder why was I born Malaysian and she, Japanese. It's saddenin fer me to see her go back and instead of kidnappin her and make her stay, I was the one who sent her away. It breaks me even more to realise that this was the last time I'll see her in real life and the time to look at her was never enough. "It's a honey fer my honey..". I'll never forget that phrase.
Ah, this is gettin more like an anti-hero love story. Forgive me if the emotion was overflowin but I just feels like writin bout it. It's rare fer me to show some emotion but this time, it's somewhat different. I feel like I want to show how I feel to somebody. All this time I kept all the emotion inside and now I can't take it anymore. Yeah, I'm gettin soft nowadays. But I know it's a right feelin. I'm gonna go now and take another spoon of that honey she bought. Later then.
Yours(elf),
Zul.
Sorry if I wrote this a little bit late. It's not that I don't want to get online, it's just that I can't anymore. No my Streamyx didn't get cut off. It's my laptop's built-in network adapter. I fergot to detach the telephone line from my ADSL modem and I think it was rainin quite heavily while I was in KL fer Gegaran Metal 2005 gigs and lightin zapped my network adapter. How did I know my network adapter is kaput? Because it's no longer present in the System Information (Win XP) AND ifconfig (FreeBSD). So, I had to write this from an internet cafe. I can safely assume that my internet life is over now. Why the hell do I want to keep the Streamyx if I can't use it anymore? It's no use tellin me to repair the darn built-in network adapter because financially, that's the least important thing I want to consider doin right now.
But I'll log in once in a while from an internet cafe or whatever because somehow, my life grew around the internet. I consider you guys, the people I can't see, the people I don't know as my friends. While others prefer to go out and face the real life, I live in this tiny room, roamin the big internet life. Someday I'll get my Streamyx back. I do hope so. Someday, probably after I bought a better desktop computer. Who knows. Or perhaps, I'll try to live in the real life. Back to reality.
I also want to tell you about the gigs. How was it? Well, it was great! The crowd was very supportive and the bands playin with us are all great. Symphonic Metal, Brutal Death Metal, Thrash Metal; you name it and it was all in it. We did good and my throat did make it till the last song. Whew. I was afraid that I'll cough in the middle of a song or somethin and thankfully, I didn't. We got our performance on video and Fahmi already burnt in to DVD. Well, my laptop doesnt have a DVD-Rom so I can just drool and hope that Udin will convert it to VCD. We played 5 songs that evenin.
1) The Bodybag - our own
2) Once Stabbed - our own
3) Let The World Burns - our own (new song!)
4) Tresspass - The Haunted
5) Blinded By Fear - At The Gates
The new song went great! Unfortunately, one of Hangah's strings snapped in the middle of the new song but another band lend him a guitar and the show managed to go on without any other glitches. Like I've told you earlier, the crowd was very supportive and someone actually shouted "Orang kampung den" at me. That's cool. Hopefully there'll be another gig fer us soon because I'm sure as heck can't wait fer another one to come.
I didn't find a new job yet and yeah I know it's the middle of the month now. I still don't quite know what I'm gonna do but I'll figure out somethin soon. It's good thing that I'm havin a rest because Momoe was here so I can just go out on dates with her and never have to worry bout goin to work. I'll find some kind of work later after she went back to Japan.
How's Momoe? I sent her to KLIA on 14th July in the mornin fer her flight back to Japan. She came on 9th July and I thought I was late to pick her up at KLIA when nearly and hour after that, she called and said that MAS was late. I managed to avoid usin PLUS highway on my way to KLIA but I kinda lost in my way back to Seremban and was tricked to choose the highway. Damn PLUS is sure smart. In quite a short trip, we managed to do many memorable things. We went to the amusement park in Seremban, goin to a ghost house (which later I saw a teddy bear hung inside among the other ghosts and she said it scared her. I hope she's not scared of that teddy bear) and I almost spewed my guts out when we ride a rift ride which I swore that will be the last time Ill ever get on that ride again.
Oh, she came with us to the Gegaran Metal 2005 gig. When it was time fer me to perform, I saw her near the front of the stage. It's not that hard to find her because while everybody else is wearin black shirts and a few white one, she wore a kawaii (yes kawaii, not hawaii. kawaii means cute) floral shirt. She kept buyin bottle after bottle of mineral water and I do feel guilty because we kept gettin the newly bought mineral water lost somewhere. Deep down inside me, Im very glad that I see her again; even when she said that the trip was the last one. Yes, she came here fer the last time. I avoided to talk with her bout that when she came because I just want her to enjoy her visit. And I wanted to enjoy her visit too.
Before I sent her to KLIA fer her flight to Japan, she gave me a bottle of honey and said, "it's a honey fer my honey, eat it so that you can sing better". That's sweet. Both her and the honey. I didn't get her anythin, a typical stupid behavior-o-mine. I should've bought her somethin at least. Damn. I'm feelin mushy. Why can't I? To know that after this it'll be hard fer me to see her again makes me feel empty. I don't know what I'll do to see her again. She's special, very special to me and I'm not afraid to tell you that. And yes most of the time, reality is so cruel. It's somethin special to me, that in a short period of her trip, we're close. In fact, we're so close that I still wonder why was I born Malaysian and she, Japanese. It's saddenin fer me to see her go back and instead of kidnappin her and make her stay, I was the one who sent her away. It breaks me even more to realise that this was the last time I'll see her in real life and the time to look at her was never enough. "It's a honey fer my honey..". I'll never forget that phrase.
Ah, this is gettin more like an anti-hero love story. Forgive me if the emotion was overflowin but I just feels like writin bout it. It's rare fer me to show some emotion but this time, it's somewhat different. I feel like I want to show how I feel to somebody. All this time I kept all the emotion inside and now I can't take it anymore. Yeah, I'm gettin soft nowadays. But I know it's a right feelin. I'm gonna go now and take another spoon of that honey she bought. Later then.
Yours(elf),
Zul.
Friday, July 08, 2005
My bass string snapped... Arghhhh!
Arrghhhhhh! Damn! Why it has to be this time? When the gigs is just around the corner. Drats!! #$@%!! Why? I'm goin frenzy because the 4th string of my bass has retired last night. It snapped just after we're playin 2 songs in our practice session. Heck. Anyway, Kayser Strings was the best ever! I bought it a few years ago (more than 2 years! It's true!) and nothin I tried can beat its performance. The only catch is that I bought it in KL and I never saw it bein sold here in Seremban. Damn! Imagine that the biggest string snapped just like that (well it's rusty a bit, like the other 3 strings). Now I'm worried that the other strings will snapped too. The complete set cost me bout RM98 and that is a hell lot of money. I don't know if they sell it seperately. I guess I'll have to make do with another brand of string to replace the old Kayser. It's temporary fer the gigs. Yeow this is very troublesome.
Speakin bout the gigs, it'll be another 2 days. I finally finished writin the new song's lyric! Yeah! But I still didn't memorise it to the max so it'll be yet another hard task fer me. Still doin a bit of a revision of the new lyrics though. Nuff said. Later.
p/s: Momoe will arrive tomorrow. Hurrah! Err, how to get to KLIA?
Speakin bout the gigs, it'll be another 2 days. I finally finished writin the new song's lyric! Yeah! But I still didn't memorise it to the max so it'll be yet another hard task fer me. Still doin a bit of a revision of the new lyrics though. Nuff said. Later.
p/s: Momoe will arrive tomorrow. Hurrah! Err, how to get to KLIA?
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Countdown to Gegaran Metal 2005, new song & Momoe's visitin.
3 more days till the Gegaran Metal 2005 gigs! Me and Fractured are havin a rest yesterday from any practice so today we will go fer a jam session again. Friday too. However Saturday will be another big break fer us as we don't want to waste energy before the gigs. My throat is still a bit sore and the darn cough is still here to stay. Drats. I better get meself a bottle of 'Air Asam Jawa' or else my (not so good) singin will be a disaster.
Hangah seems to memorised his parts fer our new song. That's great considerin that he had a strict time to practice it. How bout my lyrics? Well, it's 90% done and I'm thinkin of finishin it today. Got a few more days to memorise it though so I'm still crossin my fingers. It's funny that I nearly lost my breath while singin the new song because my lyrics is quite lengthy so I had to sing it a bit fast. Haha. So, revision is a must. I'm a singer AND the bassist remember? So the stamina is drained quite extensively in a brief. Oh yeah and I would like to take this opportunity to blame this problem from the effect of constant smokin of tobacco, thank you.
Momoe is comin to town just a day before the gigs because she wanted to see the show. So her visit is another event I'm lookin forward to. Unfortunately, because I'm no longer workin now, the activities while she's here will be a bit dull. Ah heck. Just enjoy it. Later.
Hangah seems to memorised his parts fer our new song. That's great considerin that he had a strict time to practice it. How bout my lyrics? Well, it's 90% done and I'm thinkin of finishin it today. Got a few more days to memorise it though so I'm still crossin my fingers. It's funny that I nearly lost my breath while singin the new song because my lyrics is quite lengthy so I had to sing it a bit fast. Haha. So, revision is a must. I'm a singer AND the bassist remember? So the stamina is drained quite extensively in a brief. Oh yeah and I would like to take this opportunity to blame this problem from the effect of constant smokin of tobacco, thank you.
Momoe is comin to town just a day before the gigs because she wanted to see the show. So her visit is another event I'm lookin forward to. Unfortunately, because I'm no longer workin now, the activities while she's here will be a bit dull. Ah heck. Just enjoy it. Later.
Friday, July 01, 2005
Bands list fer MetalTerus compilation announced, workin fer meself now & no LTD fer Hangah yet.
Looks like the final band list fer the upcomin MetalTerus Compilation has been announced and sadly we (Fractured) didn't manage to get a slot in it. *Sigh*. Ah well there will be next time. All the best and congratulation to the bands that made it and hopefully this compilation will be a blast! The announcement can be read here -=> Metal To Metals :: View topic - Pengumuman: Band List!.
Today is my 1st day workin as a freelance. No more goin to the office. Enjoyable and a bit borin if you ask me. You can say 1st day workin by meself sucks a bit. I'm still not 100% well too. Still got this annoyin cough, my head is achin and my temperature is a bit hot. Ah the water ration is here again. Looks like we're in a long dry season fer quite a while.
Unfortunately, Hangah said that he can't bring his LTD guitar to the gigs because his salary will be a bit late. So he'll end up borrowin yet another Ibanez guitar (RG I guess) fer the upcomin Gegaran Metal 2005 show. I hope my condition will be ok by then because I don't want my current health condition to affect Fractured's performance. I need a soup. Later.
Today is my 1st day workin as a freelance. No more goin to the office. Enjoyable and a bit borin if you ask me. You can say 1st day workin by meself sucks a bit. I'm still not 100% well too. Still got this annoyin cough, my head is achin and my temperature is a bit hot. Ah the water ration is here again. Looks like we're in a long dry season fer quite a while.
Unfortunately, Hangah said that he can't bring his LTD guitar to the gigs because his salary will be a bit late. So he'll end up borrowin yet another Ibanez guitar (RG I guess) fer the upcomin Gegaran Metal 2005 show. I hope my condition will be ok by then because I don't want my current health condition to affect Fractured's performance. I need a soup. Later.
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