Lyrics.

FYI, I've just finished writin the 3rd lyric fer Fractured and there's still 1 song left to write the lyric fer. Now 'Once Stabbed' has lyrics. I was pretty lazy and brain dead so that explain why my lyrics writin skill is nothin to be proud of. I was unmotivated too so that adds up. But because we're most probably be playin in Singapore so I have to hurry up with the lyrics and memorise it. Still on anti-war stuff tho because I have more ideas on that issue.

Fer me, 'Once Stabbed' is the hardest Fractured song to perform. One of the reason is that I haven't memorise my own lyrics yet. Haha. Seriously, that song is pretty fast and the vocal is pretty much fast too. Because I'm the bassist AND vocal, I'm pretty much have to focus on both while performin that song. It's easier to jam with just singin nonsense (just like before I wrote the lyrics) and it's much much harder when I have to exactly speak (or rather.. ehem.. shout) the correct words. Plus the bass follows the guitars. Still, this is my fav song.

Now to write the last lyrics. Now where's my thinkin cap? Later.

Cold and shampoo.

Today is one of those days when the body didn't function at the optimum performance. I got a cold and it's quite a story how I got it. Tersedak == choke? I dunno. Then the back of the nose starts to feel sick. And soon the body starts to give up. Well I need a rest anyway.

I've been usin this "Hair Fall Control" shampoo fer nearly 2 weeks now (2 times per week). I always uses Rejoice "Dandruff Control" shampoo and I'm still a happy user. But because I haven't restock my fav shampoo yet, I was left with the only option of usin my sister's shampoo. I'll spare the product name. What's my verdict? When it says "Hairfall Control" it really is. And I guess the shampoo ain't happy with my long hair. I better get meself the trusty Rejoice again or else there'll be no hair to shampoo. Later.

Workout lesson #1: Daily schedule.

Today will be the 5th day of my daily workout and due to popular demand (*yeah rite..*), I'll try to write down my exercise schedule fer those who like to try it out too. Take note that you'll need to consult your physician and/or relevant trainer fer the best result. To my surprise, my weight yesterday was 52.6Kg! Wow. My weight has never been passed higher than 50Kg before. Oh yeah this is an official world record :P. Note too that I'm not a professional trainer nor experienced enough so stop readin if you're very serious about workin out (goin fer Mr. Olympia or such).

It's easier to have experienced trainer to personally train you on your workouts because I heard many cases of people doin workout fer months without any good result because they just don't do it right. There's many type of workouts fer each of body parts you want to develope. I heard that the most difficult and hardest part in a workout is the shoulder area. I got a few tips from my buddies in the gym I went so I'm pretty sure that I can make an effective workout routine. Here's a few tips I heard:

- If you never do weight liftin before, do it 3/4 times per week. Don't overdo it because you might damage your muscle.
In my case, I have some weight liftin experiences before although it's just fer fun and currently I'm trained by a few experienced buddy so injuries can be kept to minimum.
- Watch the back area. This is very important because back injuries are more common than anythin else. Serious injuries can lead to bad things. On every workout, be sure to keep a good posture of your body.
- Weight vs repeatin. Concentratin on weight will make your muscle grow bigger and repeatin a consistent workout routine fer lighter workout will shape it. SO be sure you know what you want.
- Eat wisely. As fer me, I'm currently drinkin additional protein fer muscle growth and because I can eat anythin I want without the fear of bein obese, I don't have any eatin restriction. If you want to lose fat instead, there's stuff like Cuts / Hydra Cuts etc to burn the fat like mad. Consult your physician.
- Make a schedule to suit your style of workout. Some people have shapely chest, some have built legs so be sure to know what area of your body you want to grow/shape.

This is my previous schedule. My workout routine is 2 hour per day, 5 days per week. Saturday and Sunday of the days fer my muscle to relax. Protein is taken before and after workout. My next schedule will be different as I'm makin a more suitable routine.

Monday: Workout chest, bicep and tricep. (This is very achin the next mornin, I overdo the bicep part haha)
Tuesday: Workout fer back areas
Wednesday: Workout fer chest
Thursday: Workout fer shoulder
Today: I think I want to do chest and bicep.

Later.

Workin out.. and ouch..

i've been doin some simple workouts fer 2 days now. And currently, I can't straighten both my arms. If it wasn't fer my buddy, I probably won't bother anyway. With aches everywhere, somehow I feel good. My sleeps are better. You know when you're tired and then you go to sleep. The moment you close your eyes you'll be sleepin like a log and in the mornin, it's a very refreshin feelin. Well except fer the major aches of course.

Why workout? Fer me, I don't exercise much. Bein a slim guy, I don't feel the need. That was before. Now I think I need more exercise than workin my fingers out (writin blog, playin bass et cetera..) and it's a good thing to have a partner to do it. One more thing, I've been maintainin my 50+kg barrier fer quite a long time now and I need to grow some weight. I won't complaint if I'm a women tho. I dunno where the heck does all the fat I ate went to. All of em directly to the flush? I dunno. So I guess I'll have to get it the harder way. Workin out. Sittin here smokin cigarettes in front of this laptop everyday ain't that healthy anyway. I hope I can maintain all this tortures tho. The 1st few weeks will be the hardest and I got a new world record fer the longest time to wear t-shirt this mornin. I won't bother tellin how I rode my bike to spare some embarassment.

Oh did I mention workin out is healthy? Yeah. :P.

Later.. Urhh..

Work with no work, no plans fer tomorrow, Aedes & Satisfaction.

I went to work today and I wish I didn't. Why? Because the period of time that I'm really doin some work is just a few mins. The rest of the time I spent on the net (like usual) and makin it look like I'm not on the net and really workin in front of my boss. I should've slept the entire day instead.

Nobody called today so I guess no jam session this week. Although tomorrow might bring good news. I'll probably hibernate the entire day tomorrow if there's no interestin things to do.

The Health Ministry have been smoggin my area fer 2 days now. Ah. There must be a case of Denggi recently. Most cases are with childrens and many of the cases are fatal. So be sure to keep your surroundin clean and watch out fer any spot that can breed Aedes.

Spam mails are best deleted from ur mailbox. Yeah everybody knows that (well I might be wrong because if everybody really knows it then Sobig or any other mail related nasty stuff won't be a big thing right?) so I was just about to clear my Spam when I some interestin mails caught my eyes. Pr0n links aside, I read "Satisfy your girl, [u-know-what drug name] is better than [another drug fer u-know-what]". It's typical, I know. But judgin by the commitment of this spam guys, it made me think. *Drum rolls*. We are force-fed with feelins of bein unsatisfied. Oh no I'm not gonna talk bout me or anybody else's private part here :D.

Admit it. We're livin in a world where everybody wants more than anybody else. Even though that they don't really need it. Sometime we got the money fer it and most of the time we're forced to believe that eventhough we currently can't afford it, we must somehow get it soon. Fer example, I currently own this great laptop, it's more than adequate to satisfy my computin need although when it comes to gamin, I wish I own a supercomputer instead. Then comes the power of hypnotise-advertisement. They show a computer motherboard, make it look nice, wrote reviews with tons of calculations from HDD read/write access to the short period of time you'll need to screw it into you casing. Then my dual-personality starts debatin.

"Look at that, that's the new [brand]'s mobo"
"Yeah so? We got a laptop here already and it's still workin fine."
"True but we can get [another geek peripherals] to work with this!"
"If we really need that [another geek peripherals] which I doubt we'll even need it, I'm sure we can use [another geek peripheral] fer this laptop."
"Ok sure but this is [brand-name]!"
"Ah. You win."

No matter what's the reason, we will find one to suit the purpose of gettin new stuff, better stuff or even bigger private parts (ok this is the only line I'll mention bout it here..). And by the time we got it, we'll see another new stuff and the cycle will continue to wind. But I can assure you that I got a legitimate reason fer buyin a new motherboard. Yeah right. Lucky me I got no extra money to burn. Later.

p/s: I found out that although I tried installin some cool games (and cursin when it can't run), or hookin up some additional devices; I always end up usin the laptop fer the same ol things (surfin, mp3s, writin/readin some text) and bein happy with it. Simplicity is the most comfortable space. I'll need a PC to do what my tortured laptop can limitedly do but the only time I'll consider buyin it is when I have a good bargain and lotsa extra bucks to spare.
"But it's the [brand name!!!!!!"
"Oh damnit just shut up"

Hot and cold.

Ahh. What a refreshin nice cold shower. It's hot here in Malaysia aye? It have been hot like this fer weeks now. I don't remember hot days like this before in my life. I guess there's always somethin new to experience. Water ration is comin. I bet our water reserve is runnin low. Wonder how our neighbour will cope with that. As long as I can have my nice cold shower, it's A.O.K. Later.

Url redirectin service was interrupted.

My homepage was inaccessible fer a few minutes if I use my easy to remember url. So I better write the direct link to my homepage here. Here's the direct link:

http://home.graffiti.net/alsemo/

Please bookmark that link if my short url is havin some problem. And here's my easy to remember url:

http://www.alsemo.isdangerous.com

Oh. If you didn't know, I have another blog about my another obsession: FreeBSD! Here's the address.

http://karlbsd.blogspot.com

So much fer self advertisin huh? Ah well. Later.

Cheapo DSL modemo is dyin *sob*

Looks like my cheapo electronico DSL modem is showin its age. It've been tortured since the day it knows the meanin of broadband. Now, after a few month, it looks like it's dyin of old age.

Old modem != pleasurable internet

Ah. I've been disconnected again. The DSL, LAN & PWR led just lights up without blinkin. The life as we know it, is comin to an end. Well at least fer my good ol DSL modem. I'll surely miss it. Not because it have gave me unforgettable surfin experiences. No. It's because it was a free modem. And free modem doesn't last long. Free modems are like the front line assault team. They got wasted easily. They make pathway to freedom. Even though just an internet freedom. It's freedom nevertheless. And they die halfway makin it. And when that happen, we gotta chunk out another hard-earned money to buy a better modem. And what happen to the ol cheapo modemo? They are forgotten.

Ah. Disconnected again. Well well. Look at it go. The good ol modem. I'll tell you what I'll do. There. Just turn the switch off then back on. And I'm online again. Fer sure it won't take long before I got disconnected again. But well, the ol guy just keeps goin as long as it can. *pat the back of my old modem* Uh. It's hot. I was too hard on it. But we both enjoyed it. It'll be soon till I get a new replacement. A much better model from a well known brand. Aztech mebbe. Or 3Com. Or even another same cheapo DSL modem just like my ol guy if I got too sentimental. No I'm not pullin the plug yet. No sirree. He can manage another few terrabyte of downloads, mp3s, pr0ns or keeps idle without any activities eventhough I'm connected (I always do that.. bein online without any online activity. Yeah I need a therapist). Ah the guy is hotter. No worries though, he can manage it. Yup sure he can. Or can he? Like the old sayin goes:

"Old modem don't die, their chip just burn to a crisp"

So be proud my ol modem. Let the binaries go through like you've never let em in before. Make me smile. Make my day. Heck. I got disconnected again. *sigh*."

Blog from a friend.

Blog fetish beware. Here's one of my buddy's blog right on [my mind ramblings], blogged by Isman from KL who I guess updates his blog more frequent than me (shame) so fer those who loves to read blogs. Bon Appetite! Later.

Sony NetMD fer me? Hmm gotta think bout it.

I was searchin fer infos in Sony NetMD walkman which I'm thinkin bout gettin a piece fer meself when I stumbled into Sony Net MD Walkman Software Problems Petition site. I read many reviews today and trust me, Sony NetMD is pretty much sucks. Too much restrictions (Doesn't really store mp3s in the minidisc, it's actually converted to Atrac, Sony own audio compression format which is also shitty), not to mention crappy software bundled with it. Well, who am I to say all this huh? Ouch, there's already 3,617 people who said somethin similar already. Looks like I have to cross Sony NetMD from my list of portable mp3 player's candidate. Shame. Just do some goolin and you will surely find someone havin some problem with Sony NetMD. Wow, comin from such a big and well known company, well again, it's a shame.

Other info, you can use Petition Online to host your petition, if you have any. Maybe you have some problem with somethin which somebody has already made the petition there. So help yourself and sign it. It's quite a relief though. Later.

My uncle died.

If you ever read my stories on my homepage, you might remember Bang Lan. The one who influenced me on bein a musician. His father, my uncle died peacefully this mornin. 1st time in many years we; me and Bang Lan meet again. He's still tall and have a big voice. His father was buried after Jumaat prayer and I'm goin to his house again in a few mins fer a Tahlil. May Allah bless him and keep him with all the solehin. Al-Fatihah. We'll miss him fer sure, but we know, God loves him more than we do.

We don't know fer sure how long we are goin to live. So live wisely. Later.

I'm beat and we're beaten. Still it's a great game.

Urhh.. I'm beat. A few mins after my last blog, my friend from BCF called and said that I'm already late. It seem that the match is at Sekolah Teknik Tuanku Jaafar, just next to Sekolah Teknik Ampangan. Drats. I already asked the guard there but he said that he didn't know anythin bout any match. So, I arrived nearly 20 mins late and we already on the lead with 1 - 0. Great. Ain't it?

Yeah. I got the back position as someone already wore goalie's jersey. To tell you the truth he's a much better goalkeeper than me. So everythin was fine. Until after 2nd half. We got beaten 4 - 2 till the end of the game. Ouch. Like I've said, I'm beat. Still, it's a great game and although very tirin fer me, I lasted till the end. Got a scar on my left knee from my attempt to guard our goal post. There will be more matches comin our way and maybe this time around, we (BCF FC) will be more prepared (hey I even bought a new boots, didn't I?).

I'm waitin fer my body to cool down so a can take a nice cold shower and Fahmi called sayin that Fractured will pratice. Tonight. Errrr. Ho boy. I'm excited but my knee doesn't agree with me. Thinkin bout our upcomin gigs in Singapore. Well. Just go with the flow and enjoy the show bro. Hah. It rhymes. Later.

Where's the game at anyway?

It's 5:00pm already and I'm sittin at home writin this blog. Why? I went to 3 different schools and nobody got informed bout any damn football match. My mobile is faulty so I'm stuck waitin fer call to my house and still nobody called. I swear they said it was at Sekolah Teknik Ampangan's football field. And as far as I know, there's only 2 Teknik school in Ampangan and both are located side by side. This is shitty. I've bought new pair of shorts and new boots. Irritatin. Expect some world-class flamin next Monday because I'm pissed. Later.

Bootless now..

The match will be on at 5:00pm or somethin. The guy who I'll be borrowin the boots from went outstation so I'm left with the option of buyin my own boots. Drats. I'm thinkin bout goin out and buyin a pair fer meself but I was asked to help one of my friend here packin his things because he's movin to another place. Sheesh. Will this ever stop? I hope I'll have enough time to buy my boots and a pair of football shorts or somethin. Ouch.

BCB against PGG.

Looks like football match is on tomorrow. Someone will lend me his boots but right now he's nowhere to be found. Ack. The match will schedule at 4:00pm at Sekolah Teknik Ampangan football field (used to be Vokasional Ampangan, my school). It's a bit funny because we (the team) haven't formally meet each other yet and there's no use talkin bout practice either. Ah well. It's suppose to be a friendly match anyway so I'll meet some new friends there I bet. Wish me luck peeps!. I'll try my best to keep the ball out of my goal.

Moody because...

Ah. Another breakups. No, it got nothin to do with my band(s). I just broke up with (now ex-) gf. It was pretty hard to say it but it's unavoidable. Things just don't go as planned. Mebbe I made the right decision and maybe I've made a disasterous one. I dunno. I'll probably be the one to blame from her friend's point of view but I just don't have the energy to care anymore.

Now you know why I was havin a moody days. Well, my Ibanez is still here though so life still have purpose. Later

Bad mood.

Sheesh.. I'm such in a bad mood... It's hard to sleep when you're in such state. What the $%@* are ya lookin at?

Comments, Fractured's lyrics & videos on I-Bands.net

Wow. There's actually somebody who reads what I'm postin in here. Thanks fer the comment Farrukh Malik!. Ouch, I'm blushin already. :)

I just remembered that there's still unwritten lyrics fer 2 of Fractured's songs. I have to make sure I can make those lyrics and memorise it fer the gigs. What am I gonna write about? Well, bein an anti-war person meself, I guess I'll write my lyrics based on that. Bein poetic is somethin that I'm not good at but heck, I hope it's good (and rhymes too :).

http://www.i-bands.net now lets its members to upload and stream their home-made music videos! Hurrah! I'm thinkin bout uploadin Fractured's last gigs's vidz in it but I'm too shy (awwww....). Later I hope. If I can make up my mind. Hehe.

Hi to all Bloggers! Blog on! :)

Football match postponed..

How was the football match? Well, it was postponed till probably next week. Since I still can't find any boots fer meself then it's a good news. Now I'll have another few days to prepare fer the match. Ops, still keep fergettin to ask where the exact location are the match goin to be held. I'll post the info later.

I'm broke.. What else is new? Cya!

Another attack from the bills of death

When I thought I'm safe to spend my money again. That's when another disaster strucks. My newest phone bill just arrive and it ain't happy with me at all. Arghhh!!!!!. Why me!!!? I have to refrain meself from any outgoin calls from now on. My last bills nearly killed me and this phone bill got the job done. I'm dead. Dead and broke (again..). Trip to Singapore? Arghhh! New jeans? Arghhh! New mobile phone? Arghhh! MCP exam? Arghhh! I'm thinkin bout sellin meself off as a souvenier or somethin. Maybe I can be a lamp-holder?

Still can't find anybody who can lend me his football's boots. By the way my money keep drainin away from me, I'm sure I can forget bout buyin a new pair. The match is tomorrow, 5:00pm at.. at.. ouch I fergot to ask where the hell are we gonna play. Again. Later.

Saga Artakusiad

Ever heard of Artakus? or Jundak (my buddy from KP call me by that name.. I'll tell u more bout it later)? Some of you might heard the name Ahmad Patria Abdullah. I read the whole 6 series of Saga Artakusiad when I was in form 2 or somethin (I can't recall correctly) and his works (the series) was simply magnificent. To think that he wrote those series with such style of literature, his high imagination, to me he's a great inspiration. After bout 17 years of silence, he came out and wrote the 7th series of his great masterpiece titled 'Lagenda Numerius'. Nice title huh? All his 6 series was never reprinted (officially) aeons ago and it's the rarest of the rare. To find the original print is somewhat nearly impossible and I'd even jerk my cousin off (the books I read belong to him, now I dunno where did he put those books and it've been years since I last saw him. I probably won't recognise him if he's infront of me) just to make him give me those rare prints he have. But, all hope is not lost and there's a website out there that still have the series up fer sale (although most of it are now a bunch of reprints, original copies are nearly extinct). Visit this website:

http://www.artakus.net

So if you never read it, or you nearly fergot how well done it's written, go order it online. Fer such a cheap price, you can get all the series and be glad that someone out there, a local man, have created such a perfect fantasy world which can draw you in its marvelous storyline, the thrill, tears and happiness by just simply writin it. It'll cost me nearly RM100 fer sure. But to think bout it, it'll be my priceless possession.

p/s: Oh, fergot to tell how the heck I was called Jundak in the old days. Well, some of us (my friends and my cousins) were so much into the story so we got nicknames from the characters contained in the series. Mine was Jundak coz they say his description resemble mine so that's the story. Yeah I know, not interestin at all huh? But heck they still call me by the nickname! Later

and it's a GOALLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!

What a topic huh? Ah yeah. Football. I was never a fanatic. I'm still not. If it's on tv and yeah I'll watch it but I won't stay up late at night just to wait fer it. Anyway, what is it gotta do with me? And why am I blabbin bout it here? It's because I'm gonna be playin in a friendly match this Saturday.

I fergot to ask which stadium are gonna be playin but I was picked to join BCF (Bumiputra Commerce Finance, Seremban branch) football team to play against Persatuan Guru-Guru (NSDK I presume) this Saturday at 5:00pm. The BCF (Bumiputra Commerce Finance) picked me because I'm workin at their dealer's office (my office) and those dudes kinda know me quite well. I'm not that interested until they said that I got nothin to worries because we're gonna play to lose. Wow. Now that must be somethin big. If it got nothin to do with winnin then I'm the right guy! What position am I gonna be playin? I opted fer goalie. Yeah not much of an action but heck nobody else are goin fer that and I kinda like being a goalkeeper.

Gotta find somebody with boots my size so I can just borrow it. More details will be exposed here so don't chew the last grab of popcorn yet. Expect some intense football extravagant that day. Wow. Me, playin football, standin on the goal area shoutin somethin just to make me look like I know what I'm doin and pray nobody will roll the ball anywhere near. Damn, I'm sweatin already. Later.

Found it!

Ah. I finally found the passport. It'll expire on june and I dunno if I can just bring that passport fer my Singapore's trip. Can't afford to spend RM300 just fer a one-time gigs. I can do somethin more meaningfull with that 300 bucks. Better get another opinion. Later.

Fractured jam session & dude, where's my passport?

We (Fractured) went a jam session last night without Angah and it was kinda terrible. I mean, 3 piece is hollow. And we got a few weeks before our Singapore gigs. This is currently a mess. Angah will be available next week but Udin have somethin to do by then so we'll most probably go fer another jam session on the other week. I'm nervous. Yeah and excited too.

Speakin bout the Singapore gigs, I still didn't receive any flyers or such but Fahmi said that it's confirmed. I can't find my passport and I remember that it'll expire on May this year. I heard that it'll cost me around RM300 to renew that. Sheesh. Hmm, where the hell did she put my passport? Later.

AngelClaw's jam session DVD, I missed a job offer... Grrr

I saw the DVD of our (AngelClaw) jammin session and it's quite fun and funny to watch ourselves went monkeys in it. Too bad Fahmi burnt the vidz into DVD which sadly, I've no DVD devices whatsoever so I just have to make do with watchin it in his house.

I just missed a darn good job because my mobile phone broke. My friend been tryin to contact me fer weeks to tell me bout the job offer but because of my darn phone went loonie, another lucky brat got the job. *sigh*. There's another job offered (he came to my office last Saturday tellin me bout it) so all hope is not lost. Maybe, just maybe, it's my day. Later.

Oh my... AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHH you won't believe this! I'm so sure you won't. I still can't believe it too! AHHHHHHH!!! Omigosh! AHHHHHH. Calm down.. *inhale...*. What's the story anyway? Well... here it goes...

Fractured will most probably be playin in Singapore this March...

There. I spew it. Too soon to expose it though but heck, I'm so happy I'm wettin my pants! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!

*p/s: I originally wrote that the gigs we're gonna be playin is in May but the exact month is March. Sorry. Too excited I guess. So it's sooner than I previously stated (I knew it's in March but I wrongly put it as May). This is a correction. Sorry fer any inconveniences.

I'm on home video

I'm still havin problem with the "batu karang" and thankfully it's not as painfull as 4 days ago. I've been delayin the recheck I've said before but it's mandatory so I guess it'll be soon.

Despite my illness, me and AngelClaw went fer a jam session last night and Fahmi brought his new-bought camcorder with him. So we got more than 1 hour of headbangin session caught on video! Now to wait fer him to burn the video into CD so I can send it to Akademi Fantasia fer selection... Hah!..

I'm not feelin well...

It's confirmed that I have "batu karang". Went to clinic yesterday and my urine sample does confirm this. I'm havin difficulties tryin to take a leak fer 4 days now. I'm sure that I had this problem before when I was a kid but it disappeared soon afterward. Seems that it just temporarily disappeared and now it got me again. So officially, I'm on pills now and I got medical leave fer 2 days (probably more coz I have to go do some recheckin later on). Do wish me luck on that.

I was fined fer RM30.00 today fer parkin my bike at my usual spot. Drats. I'm already broke and now another thing came and try to burn more holes on my pocket. Sheesh...

I'm on medication so I'm feelin like I'm gonna catch a fever. Later.

It's 2005

Happy New Year! But still, this year ended with a sad memory. The disaster that stroke our beloved country and killed hundreds of people will always remind us bout other people's sufferin fer years to come. Hopefully, this will be the only disaster forever.

New year brings yet another hope fer a better future and life. There'll be some decision that will change my life and I hope I made the right choice. Sometime sacrificin somethin that you love doin fer a hope that somethin new that you're into will be much better, is hard. But well, risks are meant to be taken, not scared.

Later. 2004 ended in sadness, so let's pray that 2005 will bring happiness to all of us.

Broke.

I'm freakin broke now... Ahh.. Due to my outrageous spendin this month (not to mention my 1st Streamyx's bill etc) plus my allowance is most probably frozen (again... I love my job..) so it's not totally unpredictable.

Later..

I saw meself on video..

I just got the last gigs's (Musician's Gathering gigs) video on CD today. Kinda cool actually. Fractured were featured playin 3 songs:

The Bodybag - near the end of the song
Immaculate - Dimension Zero cover - nearly the whole song
Blinded By Fear - At The Gates cover - just the intro (darn!)

and we were nasty.. uhh. Time to get our own camcorder I guess. Grr. Can't wait fer another gigs. Yeah!

..

Sometime we're unconciously walkin back through the memory lane and before we know it, those shitty images of bad experiences just fall splat right on our face. So the current hippy-mood we're havin just rotted like a stinkin trash can. The bitter memories then slaps us like some dumb boybands on mtv and it'll keep buggin us like we got nothin else that's more precious to think, like our braincells are fully reserved fer decodin and computin those darn thoughts and yet, there's nothin we can do bout it. We can just hold a big breath, tryin to realise that we shouldn't care nor give a fart. But so, at least, those things are history. Shoo!

Yes, I'm in a bad mood right now....

Found some old pictures of me. Really old.

Well, well. What do you know. My kid sister kept a few old pictures which I'm in it. Great! I was enjoyin meself lookin at me as a kid. Haha. Sure I'll scan those pictures and put it in my homepage. There's many more pictures of me back at my kampung but I kept fergettin meself to take it when I went there. I really want those pictures badly. So do check back my homepage later to see if I've uploaded those wacky pictures of me. Don't hold any laughters though because way back then when I was a kid, my pictures are meant to be laugh at. Hehe. You'll see. Later!

The king is dead.... R.I.P Dimebag Darrel..

This is sad. I saw this news on local tv yesterday and I was shocked. I still am. Damn. Dimebag Darrel, ex-axeman fer Pantera was shot dead while performin fer his new band Damageplan. SHOT DEAD! I read some report that he took a few shots by the killer. Fuck. Why? Fuckin psycho. I can't help to swear. Sometime people are fuckin stupid. What the hell that Dimebag do to make people wanna kill him? His brother, Vinnie Paul was shot too in the incident. This is a sad day and a dark history of metal.

I was a fan of Pantera when I heard Vulgar Display Of Power when I was still in highschool. I still am a fan. Fuckin shit. I'm still in shock. The fag who shot Dime is the biggest pussy of all time. That psycho is the product of this crazy world of hate today. What do you get when guns are available to psychos everwhere? This is the result. You got one more great influence in metal dead. Yeah I'm fuckin emotional right now. This is a great loss. I'm sad. I'm readin www.metalunderground.com and they have 1 article with a picture of Dime and Phil together and I'm sad to see the pic.

The stage, where bands and audiences became brothers, is no longer safe. Metal will never be the same again. To us metalheads, let's play tribute to the genius.

Rest In Peace, Dimebag Darrel.

Lamb Of God & 1000 visitors

Heard bout the band Lamb Of God? They say they're playin 'Pure American Metal' style anyway it's still Death Metal to me. Great band. Check it out!

Looks like my website is reachin fer its 1000 visitor's milestone. Wow. Yeah that's not much but fer a site like mine, it's cool. Only a few people actually sign the darn guestbook though. So, I guess you won't mind? :P

Later.

Is the truth finally here? Sure hope so.

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Streamyx!!!

Yay! Streamyx is finally here! Man this is great. I love it! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Later

8910, Samosa & Futsal

Bout Nokia 8910. I went to KL 2 days ago to pick that up. But instead of that specific model, I got meself 8910i! Hurrah! I was granted with less savings too! And Raya is gettin nearer. Ouch. Anyway, who cares if I'm broke on raya anyway? I'm searchin fer usefull proggies fer my 8910i.

Do you know kuih Samosa? I used to call it 'Karipap 3 segi' back then in Muar. Hehe, it's marvelously yummy. Why am I tellin you this? Because I found that kuih in KL and it's still marvelously yummy.

I'm gonna try out Futsal soon. Fahmi, my drummer was evangelisin it after his 1st try few days ago. Darn. Ole Ole! Later!

bored

I fergot what I wanna put in here because I can't open blogger last night. Been waitin fer the login screen forever so I gave up. Now, I'm kinda lost on what I wanna write.

How many of us hate our job? None? Well, lemme be the 1st. Oh, there is actually people who hates their job. Cool, let's make a club or somethin...

Been rainin like now tomorrow here. Kinda cool "pun intended" to have Ramadhan on rainy season.

I drove my fav car today. Quite a journey actually and it was AWESOME!

later.

Workin? ohh no.. not yet.

Wow, my boss called this mornin askin if I'm comin to work today. Huh? I wonder which part of 'motorcycle accident' he didn't understand. Grr. I was supposed to go fer job huntins tomorrow but lookin at my current state, ack, I don't think I'm in the right condition. Still, I'm plannin to get a new job after Hari Raya.

My sleep ain't that sweet anymore coz I kept hurtin the scars and wakin up. Still can't play bass but air-bassin will make do.

I just uploaded another picture of me on my website. Old pic but I just got it. Later

I'm STRAIGHT!

I'm pissed off. I posted my pic on a "friend" portal and some guy in there have this stupid idea of me bein a homo. Damn it I'm STRAIGHT!.

Ouch

If only I have a camera or somethin, surely I'll upload the pic of my left hand here. Heh. Nasty. Who knows, the pic can be used on Fractured's new CD cover or somethin. Nasty. Oh, I've said that already huh.

Urhh. It still stings like mad. Ouch.

Another freakin accident... again.

*Sigh*. I was caught in another road accident yet again. On my way to work, a dog came out runnin from my right hittin the front tyre settin me and my bike slidin fer a few metres. Thank God here was no other vehicle comin my way or else it'll get worst. The front fork is damaged, side mirror shattered, few scratches on the fairin and the engine sounds pretty awefull. I'm pissed off. Very.

Me? My left hand's fingers are pretty much bleeds (I can't remember why my my left hand bleeds because I fell on my right side) and so is the palm. My right elbow have this big bloody bruise because of the slidin impact. 2 more bloody scars has been added up on my right knee. My right hand's shoulder is still hurts because of the impact of fallin. Looks like I can't play bass fer a few days.

My flak jacket (the green military jacket, quite tough) was torn badly on the right arm so I'm pretty lucky I wore that. My pants are torned in a few areas and that's the end of that. Drats. Well, at least it could get worst. I'm left with just a pair of workin pants so I'll have to get another pair.

3 accidents while workin in this company, I guess that is pretty much enough already. Gotta find another job. Ah well, at least I got a few days off. Later.

Kept fergettin to change the darn topic..

Yeah. If you look at my previous blog's title, you'll know that it've been a few times already that I fergot to change the darn topic/title. Ah well, I'm too lazy to edit that..

One of my buddy borrowed my Burning Bridges CD and now it've been a few days. *sigh*. No scratch please..

At last, there's a ready stock of 8910! I'll probably parachute to KL before the end of this month and grab that. I took a peek at http://www.lelong.com.my and they have lotsa stuff includin pda phone etc etc goin fer cheap price. Whoa, this must be some 'test' or somethin to get me to ferget 8910. Urhh. Hang on Karl, hang on.

I'm thinkin bout writin (probably rantin more nonsenses) somethin in my website and I was burstin with ideas a few mins ago. Now? Err. Blurry. Drats. Later.

Alsemo's Homepage V.2

I saw the gigs picture yesterday and whoa, i look really nasty. so, to avoid losin potential chicks from diggin me or thinkin that i'm such an evil, i refrain meself from postin those pictures ... Haha! Well, probably later I'll post the pics.

Me and the Fractured's guys has already taken our photo and it'll be a few days till I can get the copies. Until then, stop droolin..

Today was the last day of my FTB1 course at Takaful Nasional. What is FTB1? Family Takaful Basic. Free food aside, I've learned many things which I never knew before. There was also Proper Advice Practice course and Cross-Sale course included so the 2 days course was absolutely great.

I'll probably go job huntin in this Ramadhan so wish me luck on that. Later.

The heck...

The hell. There was a gigs today in Seremban and I was the last one to know anythin bout it. Drats. I went to Seremban just now and the gigs was already over aeons ago. And the Fleur somethin band was there too. Double drats. But I saw the video one of my buddy recorded. Ah well. I'm better (yeah rite..).

I've uploaded another track from Fractured's demo to i-bands.net. Mebbe tomorrow we'll start our photograph session fer the band.

AngelClaw's website suspended....

Yes. Because of inactivity, the domain has suspended my account fer AngelClaw's website. Heck. Sure I can re-register or such, but what am I gonna update in there? Still no new songs etc. Everybody in the band is busy on their everyday life. Anyway, I'll upload the website when AngelClaw are ready fer the exposure. e/g: when we have our own songs, demo, gigs (ahhh!) and/or goth chick fer each of us...

Still.. it's sad.

My song on the net

I've downloaded a track from Fractured's demo album on www.i-bands.net

Album: Arch Gate of Insanity (Demo)
Song: Inside The Bodybag

You can visit my band's page at http://www.i-bands.net/audiovault/bands/809
click Enter and then choose the Music menu to download or stream the song I've uploaded there.

What is I-bands.net? It's a community portal fer underground musician all over Malaysia to be heard. It has lotsa stuff like forum, web space (to store even mp3 files!) all provided fer free.

Do listen to the song and tell me bout it. Later.

Bored

I'm bored. Dreamin bout another gigs. Sigh. It's hard when you don't have other hobbies. Funny though after I registered the 1515 dialup, I'm kinda dunno what to do while online. Urh.

Ah, my Slayer - Raining Blood and Arch Enemy - Burning Bridges new CDs have arrived. Great.

Heard bout an all-girl grind-death-metal band Fluers Du Mal (I hope the spellin's right) and Fahmi said they're really awesome. Singaporean band if you're wonderin. Eh, I gotta see em perform.

Love of my life.. quite

Ah, another picture. This is the picture of my love life. No, it's not my TR Series. This is an EDA-900. My dream lover. Hah! I dunno how much it cost fer this baby in Malaysia but I'm sure it's a pocket-burner. Lovely aye? Uh, don't tell that to my TR Series, she get jealous sometime. 

New dialup account, the mess continues...

Ah. Now I can consider meself actively online again. No. The darn streamyx ain't here yet but I just registered the 1515 dialup. Honestly, if TMNet didn't made the registration available online I wouldn't bother registerin. But because it's online (I'm usin the newly registered login now), it's fast, hussle-free and not to mention cheaper; lotsa cheaper than the prepaid account so I'm practically sold. Hey, credit's where credit due and I'm not anti-TMNet whatsoever though most of the time, uhm, I'm a bit harsh on em. Ah. Fergot to add 1 more reason why I registered. Yeah, it's the darn streamyx. That's it. No more hopin fer the miracle to happen. But if it's available (the streamyx), heck count me in. My FreeBSD can't use the built in modem yet so streamyx is somewhat a life saver.

I thought of somethin.. Is there really anybody who read all this nonsenses I've written? Answers are not required though coz I'm just wonderin. Ah well, at least I do read all this.. or some of it.. ok honestly just the few latest addition. Hah!

Today sentence is: r19 ...
and this program was brought to you by the letter
W
T
and F.

Selamat pengantin baru *cak pung cak pung*.

Special announcement. To Makcik Effa (ahak), yang telah selamat dinikahkan dengan her prince charmin, congratulation. I'll answer your question here makcik. Turun KL? Bilo? Tadek aktiviti ler nak turun KL. Jadahnyek. Time gigs tu jek ler turun KL. Itupun sebab gigs. YM rosak ek? aaa pc tu campak laut. Sorry I can't make it to your weddin (predictable) and may God bless your family.

I'm tryin to write somethin I currently forgot. Drats. Another advert drone icqed me. They're gettin smarter I see... Later

Streamyx, AngelClaw, Elantra and E-Cover Note

It've been a long time since I last put somethin in this aye? Ah well, streamyx thingy (not again...). They called a few weeks ago askin if I still want the darn streamyx because the last registration was expired or cancelled or somethin like that. "If I still want the streamyx.."? Heck yes I do! Anyway, My previous user id was useless fer the new registration and I was given another silly user id fer a change. Urhh.. *breath in - breath out*. I think I might get a heart attack or high blood pressure or anythin as fatal if this keeps goin on. Still no information on the streamyx stuff. I dunno if my place is within streamyx's area or not. Nada. Zilt info. *breath in - breath out*.

Still no idea on AngelClaw's new song. Ack. I just noticed that my TR's volume knob is faulty. Heck. There's a guy who borrowed my bass after me and Fractured performed (The Musician Gathering's gigs) and I don't use volume knob much so my guess is that that guy broke it. ah. Might as well buy a new volume knob and do a rewirin. There's an Ibanez SoundGear fer sale at a very attractive price. Yeah, 4 strings. I used to like 5 stringers before but considerin that I'm not that pro of a bassplayer, 4 stringers is enough.

Still havent got the recorded gigs. Nuar & Fahmi played in a contest a few weeks ago and I saw their recorded video. Cool. It was Nuar's 1st time playin infront of a crowd and he was good. I can't wait to see my video!!!

Bout the Elantra. I didn't get it. It's the car's fault. Finance said that the war had the engine changed more than once and if I get the same model with the same year it'll be ok. Yeah whatever. Such a fuss.

E-Cover Note. Nice phrase. Somewhat techie aye? Well. Almost. I tested 2 online insurance cover note website and both need IE to behave correctly. I can use Opera on 1 but not the other. The other can use Mozilla but it's a no no fer that previous. Now what made they think that EVERYBODY uses IE? urhhh.

I just blew a job interview a few days ago because it was schedule at a very unattainable time. Drats. I emailed my reason fer not attendin the interview but no reply. There it goes. Just like that. Ah well. Better luck next time.

Fractured @ Musician Gathering Gigs

I just got back from my friend's house today. The gigs yesterday was awesome and it was actually a bit surprise to me. Why? Because it's supposed to be a 'rojak' gigs of many musical genre and my band (Fractured) is the only death metal band in it. Ack! We were on the 8th list to play that day and all, except 1 band before us played punk & rock stuph I won't bother to go to the details. The majority of the crowd is uhm, punk and I personally thought that we, Fractured will be another unaccepted performance in it.

To my surprise, on our openin act; 'The Bodybag' taken from our demo people do headbang in front of me and it's way cool! That boosted my spirit and heck it's a great show. I still got cramps on my neck right now. A friend of mine recorded us playin cover of Dimension Zero - Immaculate and it's fun to see how I performed. Darn I want a copy of that video so much! To those who came and headbang with us, thanks a gazillion! It's a great honour to be playin in front of you guys.

Picture speaks a thousand words aye? Well, I'm waitin fer the gigs picture so mebbe I'll post some picture of the gigs later. Oh, there was a gothic chick there. So, there is still hope... Hah!

4th September gigs

The 4th of September gigs is still on and last night was my 1st jam session with Fractured. We're goin to perform 3 of the demo's songs and probably another 3 cover songs. Yeah, 6 songs in total. Urgh. It's puttin pressure fer sure though it's fun indeed. Ah. Wanna know a secret? Actually, the demo has no lyric whatsoever :). Seriously. But now I've made 2 of the song's lyrics and another 2 comin up soon. It's kinda hard to make lyrics when someone has already sung it coz I have to get the lyric fits in whatever the heck the ex-vocalist was singin. The songs in the demo is:

Band: Fractured
Title: Arch Gate of Insanity

Track 1: Inside The Bodybag
Track 2: War of God
Track 3: The Life Inside The Hole
Track 4: Once Stabbed

This titles is as written on the demo album. I've personally changed some of the song's title to fit my lyrics which I've made. As I've said, we're gonna perform 6 songs and I hope to see some of you guys there. Where? Oh, we still have no details on the exact location, time etc but it's suppose to be somewhere at Jalan Pekeliling near ITAR (or ITTAR, yeah the Institut Tun Abdul Razak I guess). More on that later when I get the full details.

Our 1st jam session (with me as the new lineup) was awesome. We're jammin again tonight coz the gigs dateline is very near. I still fergot many of the lyrics (like the cover songs etc, not to mention the demo songs which don't have lyrics at all.. Ack!) and I hope I won't mess the band's performance later.

It seems that a "Tribute To Metallica" gigs was schedule on the same day as my band's gigs.

I have to spend less time on the net coz my bill was killin me. Drats. Where the hell is my StreamyX!!! Later.

Gigs.. Finally!! But..

It've been a while since I blog eh? Yeah well. It's not payday yet so my financial budget are a mess right now. Heh.

Gigs. Ah. Know wut? If things goes well as planned, I'll be able to play gigs somewhere around September (probably 4th of September). But the thing is, it's not with my band. Fahmi's other band, Fractured has once again caught up in lineup mess and I was invited to replace the bassist AND the vocalist. Ack. I'll call up Nuar later fer his opinion. Can I manage it? Fer now, I can try. The problem is, Fractured is quite.. Uhm.. How should I put it.. Ah, established. They made their 1st demo and it's already in store. Fillin in the spot like bass stuff is managable, but the vocal part is what bothers me. I don't have the type of 'growl' like in the demo (which I haven't had the chance to listen to, yet. But Fahmi will give it to me coz I need to practise. Soon) and to sound like someone else is kinda hard. Well, my band AngelClaw play metal too, so what's the difference? Ah, good question. It's a bit more complicated than that.

AngelClaw feels like home because basically, it's MY band and I play and sing what I feel. Fractured is somethin else. Like I've said, I'll have to sing like the original vocalist and that I'm sure is gonna need a lot of effort from me. Dual role is hard too. Playin bass AND bein the main vocalist. Not that it's somethin bad because I AM the bassist and vocalist fer AngelClaw but now I'll have to double that. Doublin my dual role. I hope I won't get any brain tumor or somethin.

I'll confirm the gigs later. Mebbe you can see me there if I play. More on it later I hope.

I'll be off fer a while

Yes, that's right. My tmnet prepaid has been sucked dry already and I'll have to wait fer a friend to pay his debt till I can reload it. So, no internet fer while.

Hey, I got a raise! Hurrah 3x.

Blogger: User Profile: Karl

I'm still havin a sore throat. And my neck ache. Erh. Still. The jam session was great!. We, the band even had the chance to hear each of our new songs (excludin me... who is still brain dead). We got 4 songs now.

I'm still tired...

What the..

Got the price on MCSE. Ack. Another thing that'll burn a hole in my pocket. Wow. This month is amazin.

Somethin wrong yesterday, I dunno whether it's my box or www.blogger.com. I wrote a blog and when I push the [Publish Post] button, my blog didn't publish and I was left in the edit page. So I went button-frenzy and after a few mins, I gave up. When I open my blogsite usin MSIE, I was shocked to see that I've about 20+ copies of the same blog (the one I was tryin to publish). Ouch. I'm still havin the same problem just now.

Jammin & Stigmata

Yeah! Nuar came back last night and it only mean 1 thing.. Jam! Woohoo! Another 4 hours of physical torture. I love it! As it've been a long time since our last jam session, I'm sure I've fergotten a few part of the songs. Ack.

Yum! I've just got meself the rarest Arch Enemy album to find (in Malaysia..) Stigmata. Ah, now I've got all 4. Yummy. Just yummy.

8910 & Elantra

Yeah, probably I'll get that 1992 Hyundai Elantra by the next week or so. Eep. Didn't realized that it's so soon. I just booked meself a new phone (not a brand new phone, but a new phone fer me) and my budget fer this month are really tight. Well, if not now, then when? I guess I'll better get use to the new budgetin plan so I can work harder to find more money to burn. :).

The current car's state is not much of an eye candy but I got plans fer it. I haven't got the chance to test the engine (haven't done a test drive yet) so I got no clue on that. Exterior is ok, with a minor scratch on the right body (fergiven). The interior is not in my likin because it has front and rear leather seats (black). Ouch. I hate leather seats. And I hate black leather seats. It'll be hot as hell when drivin in a sunny afternoon. The front bumper is dented a bit on the right side, probably a minor accident but as long as the body is ok (no welded parts etc), it's fine with me. Surely there will be a few repairin works to be done. It's a used car anyway.

What phone? Ah, I wanna buy 8910 (titanium). If Syah got the model right, the phone will be mine by the end of this month. Actually I wasn't hopin fer the car and the phone deal was a real quick deal so that's why I gave the phone deal a go. All of a sudden, my friend (from the used-car company) said that he agrees with my term of price (Hurrah!) and the deal is on. Ack.

2 things that will suck my wallet dry. Hopefully, I'll get that favourite phone of mine and fer the first time, I'll have my own car. Now, work harder.....

Gettin to know, greedy & code rewritten.

There's a girl currently who had my mobile number and sms me bout 'gettin to know - let's be friend' stuff. Ack. Not a bad thing but (yeah there's a but) I dunno if I'm that friendly enough (in a sense) to be made a friend (fer female). I don't differentiate between male and female friends and I treat em both the same (even the gua lu slang when talkin but not all of em though.). Better change that. Anyway, let's see how long she can stand bein my friend. *grins*.

I've started bein greedy now. I do many things I didn't (don't have the time to) do now. Fer example, I work in a used-car cum insurance company so now me myself sell car, and I'm gettin active with me bein a Takaful Nasional's agent. Oh, no more pendin fer computer related freelance job (repair etc) and I'll do it after work. I have to. I really want that darn Elantra. Ahah!

p/s: My boss just got that hint today. He said the car is nice and I can buy it. Ah... What does it mean? Don't ask me, I dunno.

The rewritin of my homepage layout and codes is done. Now wishin fer people to come visit. *kitten face*.

*darn. I kept fergettin to change the topic..

Layout cleaup

Phew. I've done cleanin up the layout / html tags of my homepage. Now theorically all browser in earth can access my website. Even lynx, links and any other text-only web browser. Yeah. Support the non browser-specific www!.

My sister is still hackin some program fer her assignment. Even I'm caught with it. Hah. I got meself some compiler and it's fun to hack together. I can learn C++ at the same time. Yeah I don't know C++, yet. Oh. Hackin = hackers? Depends on which 'hacker' are you thinkin. The media's term of 'hacker' or programmer's term of 'hacker'. Both are different. Don't get confused with 'cracker' and 'hacker'.

Someone came to my office this evenin, talkin bout buyin a Kenari which is on sale and he said he's gonna cash out some money fer bookin and never came back. Weird. I even gave him the car keys so he can check the car but he didn't accept it. Extra weird. Peoples nowaday. He just ask, not tryin to steal it or anythin, confirmin fer bookin payment and gone.

Any Browser Campaign

http://www.anybrowser.org/campaign/ is a campaign fer makin websites and homepages accessible by all type of browser. Is your website too dependant of a specific web browser and inaccessible by some or others? Then change! Say NO to browser specific tags/functions/features. I'll update my homepage later after work in support fer this campaign. Take note that "accessibility" and "look nice" is a different thing. Lookin nice while viewed with Mozilla and not so nice on others doesn't make the site browser specific site as long as it's accessible by all type of browser and the main features is functional. More on this later.

Emma on C++

My kid sister is doin some C++ programmin. Wow. It's quite a surprise fer me. She, the one who had never bother anythin related to computer is now doin some programmin (well it's in her study course). Great. And I'm a bit jealous too! :). I wanted to learn C++ fer years and now my kid sister is actually programmin in C++. Ah well, I might as well learn from her. Now I'm tryin to persuade her to dual boot FreeBSD. Hehe. Who knows, she might be a FreeBSD contributor and write some code fer FreeBSD. Not a bad idea huh. My kid sister, hackin FreeBSD. Wow.

*ps: Opps, I posted this on wrong blog-o-mine. Lol.

Layout rewritten.

Phew. My homepage's new layout is complete (fer now) and Mozilla friendly. MSIE and Opera users would probably boo at the new layout but heck, can't help it. It's not me who screw up html implimentation. The full-screen mode now a lot nicer and (I hope) the scroller is no more when viewed in fullscreen. Such a fuss with a small thing huh? Yeah well, I'm still not satisfied yet.

My kid sister will arrive somewhere around 2/3 in the mornin tomorrow. I hope I'm not sleepy because I'm such a sleepiac (sleep maniac). I must be strong. Resist. the. temptation. of. ohhh comfy pillow.. *snore*.

My goatie is short now. Ack. Feels funny. Look funny. err. and nice.

The new layout.. kinda..

Urghh! I can't stand this. Every web browser wants to make their html standard as the standard and guess what? Plain html wont render the same on each different browser. Drats. I gave up. I was tryin to make (at least) Mozilla and IE render my homepage's layout nicely but those 2 are beasts. Ah well, better let the Mozilla as the reference browser and find a solution fer IE. Probably Javascript stuff. I dunno. I've been rewritin the same page fer hours now. Darn.

Shave, or trim the goatie?..

Hmm...

err..

Trim. Definitely. *snip*

Does topic matter?

I did went out today. It's a borin experience. Nothin to do, on strict budget (Hah!) and the jam studio was booked till 10. Urh. I'm currently makin a homepage fer my company. I dunno if this is the right thing to do coz my everyday life might get even busier if my boss find out bout his company's website and likes it. So why the hell did I do it? Dunno. Just testin. The layout is still pretty rough, I have some idea on the would-be layout (which is nice in my head, maybe nicer if done or worst) but I think it'll probably take some time to finish it. Not gonna rush on that coz basically, nobody asked me to do it. Yeah. Sendiri cari pasal. :).

Later.

Opps.. Fergot to put topic here..

No jam today. It's been a looooooooooooooong time since the band's last jam session. Looks like I have to settle with playin more games. Ah, lackin in social life does bore the heck out of me.

Fahmi's Tama Iron Cobra twin pedal will arrive next week. Yeoww!

My kitten died.

My kitten, bebek got hit by a car this same mornin and died. Another of my fav kitten died of unnatural cause. Few month before that, my 3 out of 4 kittens got poisoned to death by an immoral neighbor. What kinda sick person would poison cats or kittens? If you don't like cats, just shoo em away. Surely some say "owner should keep their cats out of trouble" but think bout it damnit! It's CATS! You can't control cats! They're not like dogs which is tend to please their owner in everythin they do. Cats are survivalist and curious, they tend to do things that'll make em survive 1st and explore places / things. Puttin cats in cages is not good too. They need the freedom of movement.

I'm sad right now. Heck who ain't. To watch em grow, givin them cute names, gettin used to see them at home, enjoy seein them when they're in their play mood but you can't see them long enough to really enjoy it all. Sure, new kittens will be born, but every one of them are special in a way. They have their own personality, cuteness, mood and that what makes every one of them special.

Now, there's only 1 kitten left from the same age as bebek. I sure hope he can survive livin around irresponsible human bein which litters throughout this planet earth. I'm gonna miss bebek, and now my room will be the same borin room yet again.

Mozilla vs Opera

I've installed Mozilla Firefox on my laptop and I guess it's the end of service fer my old Opera 7.5. Blogger features are perfectly functional usin Mozilla than Opera so the choice have been made. Now I'm gonna make sure my homepage is compatible with Mozilla coz my reference browser all this long is Opera.

Today is a hot day, literary speakin. I got roasted.. again. *me pour some salt on the left arm and bite..* hmm.. taste quite good.

It's a 50/50 chance that my Japanese friend can come here. She said that she still haven't got any ticket yet and she's still tryin. Hmm. I hope she gets it.

erh.. I'm hungry.

I'm dull when it comes to topic...

Ack. I had a bad dream last night. My goatie got shaved clean in my dream. Yeow! I wonder what it mean.

I'm startin to think that I'm ready fer the commitment of buyin my own car. Hah!. Definitely cheap cars. Like 1985 BMW 320i which is basically cheap (bout below RM13K) and does look good (if the modification is right). My boss used to ask me if I'm interested in buyin my own car a few times before but I think I was not ready fer that yet. Strangely when I'm thinkin of buyin one, he didn't bother askin me bout it.. Sheesh. There's a Hyundai Elantra on sale fer a very special price at my friend's place. She (the car, me too dunno why most things are related to 'she' rather than 'he') is very attractive and have been quite modified by the previous owner. So, is it a go? or a no go? I dunno, I'm still unpredictable.

When I think bout my Japanese friend upcomin visit, I remembered somethin. Ramadhan! Lucky me she wanna come before the fastin month starts. If she visit in the middle of Ramadhan, then I'm sure things are a bit difficult. Fer both of us. *me imagine her sips her soda, walkin on BB Walk and me tries not to look.... *gulp*

My friend is comin fer a visit!

Nothin new today, my sister has repaired her car's front glass so now she can drive again. My kid sister is comin back on next tuesday early in the mornin fer her semester break. Surely I'll be waitin fer her coz I'm fer sure can sleep thinkin bout my kid sister waitin there, at the bus terminal early in the mornin with not so many people around. No way. I'll wait fer her. And you know, maniacs nowadays.

My email-pal from Japan are plannin to have a few days stay here in Malaysia and visit me. Ack. I'm such a lousy tourist guide so I hope her stay won't be a nightmare. She said she wanted to have a taste of durian at my grandpa's farm. I sure hope the durian season there has not yet ended but if it is, there should be nothin wrong with buyin from local fruit store aye? Seriously, I'm quite nervous when I think bout it. I really hope she didn't expect too much on her upcomin trip here because like I've said, I'm a lousy tourist guide. She'll be comin next month. ACK! Not enough time to prepare!!! Aaaaaaaaaaa.......!

I've made another blog on FreeBSD & Me. I dunno if I can keep up with all this homepage editin/updatin, this blog, FreeBSD blog, my band, Enjoyin/learnin FreeBSD, playin Worms 3D (Ahah!), real life, work etc etc which have tolled much of my free time lately. Ah, I guess just go with the flow and do it slow and easy. And logically, nobody asked me to do all this things and I'm the one who made it so... FACE THE CONSEQUENCES!! (thunder strikes... again).

*Put any topic you want*

*sigh*. No jammin today fer me. But lucky me I can keep meself busy with Worms 3D. I've been killin fellow worms-of-war since I woke up. Wow. No social life. Typical enough.

Ngeh. The At The Gates - Slaughter of The Soul CD is gone. I guess my friend sold it already. I won't bother searchin fer it on local music store coz fer sure they don't know bout it and say "Oh, that band. Sorry it's sold out." Yeah, sure. At first I thought I wanna go out mall-walkin searchin fer a good Discman Belt Pack / Waist Pouch which can hold 6 CDs. But heck I was too busy playin Worms 3D I fergot all bout it. Tomorrow I hope.

August is here again. The band has agreed to start practisin our new songs. I hope our demo can be released before the end of this year. Fahmi have 2 songs, Nuar and Bobby both have 1 song each. Me? I'm still out of ideas. Hopefully it's not fer long.

Ah, better resume my Worms 3D mission. Again? Yeah, you know what they say.. "Resistant is futile."

Topic-less

Blasted keyboard. I accidently hit a Win key and my unfinished blog (this one) got refreshed and I have to rethink and rewrite it again (what else is new). Urghhh!

It's still rainin here. Hey is 1 day still equal 24 hours or did they throw out a few hours to make life a bit faster? Life pass us real quick huh? Yeah, real fast. And here comes August. My laptop is ants-free now so I presume it's a glorious victory fer me. Ah, my recently new hobby (readin other people's blog bla bla yada yada etc) just got expired a few days ago. It bores me :).

Oh no. They're doin it again. Please no. No no. NO!! It's my cats. I hate it when they're in their playtime mode. They'll turn my room upside down. Shoo! Aww, my CDs.. Noo... not my magazines.. AHHH!!!!

I'm thinkin of buyin either a Discman pouch which can hold a few CDs or a pretty good bargain CDs of Arch Enemy - Burning Bridges & At The Gates - Slaughter of the Soul. Hmm. This is hard.. But I think I'll go fer pouch. Or CDs. Hmm. Mebbe both?

Do you ever wish to meet someone who you've lost contact with fer a long time, but you know you can't? I do. I'm still hopin to find that person, just across the street, or a in a movin commuter up above me. I even searched the name in google. I should gave up on that a long time ago and move on.

Code Red (ants)

Urgh. My laptop is still infested by tiny red ants. I guess some bug died in here and attracted the tiny ants. Or mebbe some virus died, like Sobig or some other dumb VB/Excel/Word virus and this ants are somethin like uber ants, technologically advanced. Nah. Or izzit because of the Detonation songs I keep playin all the time? 1 thing fer sure, if the ants keep comin, I might have to say bye bye to this laptop fer a long while, or worst ferever!! (thunder strikes)

But wait. Here comes the artilery. I bought meself this, uh, drats it's written in Chinese. Anyway the mamak where I bought it told me that this powder stuph will kill ants. 'mieyiqing' somethin. And it does have an image of ants on the pack. It says that

A pack of powder can be
used to rontroll to 2 colonies.
The term of validity is
three years.

'rontroll'? Hey it's written like that on the package and, ah, it's fergiven. Man, this RM1 pack can wipe out 2 colonies? Whoa, ant-lovers out there, I'm sorry fer the mass murder I'm about to commit. But I promise it'll be a painless and quick death. Huh, wait..

The ants will be infected
and the whole colony will be
destroyed after 2 or 3 days.

The hell.. There goes the 'quick death' part.

A good "haha!"

Bwahahah! Ho boy. Damn. Funny shits. What? Ah, good question folks. I'm readin http://www.metalstorm.ee website when I stumbled into this funny gag:

http://www.metalstorm.ee/fun/view_fun.php?id=21

Enjoy it. Funny shit man (oh said that already). Hey, Black Dahlia Murder has gone into my CD wish list too. Ah, I saw the band listed in mtv.com...

http://www.mtv.com/bands/az/black_dahlia_murder/artist.jhtml..

eeps.. Nothin wrong with Black Dahlia Murder though... Don't tell me mtv has run out of hiphoppers to sell...

Ants

I bought meself a game CD. I got home, slap the Install disc into my laptop's CDROM drive when I notice somethin. There's a few tiny ants comin out of the laptop. DAMN! I'm sure they're tryin to move into a new home which is this laptop. No way. It's pretty dangerous turn the laptop on before I can be sure all the ants are gone, fer good. I don't want my laptop to short circuit (I have experience of an electric stuff trippin the MCB because ants are livin in it.). I guess they started immigratin while I was workin. Still, why the heck they wanna live inside my laptop anyway? Darn vermints. Luckily it's just a few of em, or surely I'll have to get meself busy with disassemblin the laptop and make sure the ants are gone. Some are still inside though, I hope my laptop is safe fer use.

Today I found a very nice red colored Mini Cooper fer sale at my friend's office. Wow. Does remind me of 'Italian Job' and .. ehem.. Charlize Theron. Have you ever seen the movie 'Kids'? If my memories are reliable, you can see Charlize Theron when she was young (she was a kid in fact). Oh yeah, that was the 1st movie when we 1st fell in love... Hah!

Right now I'm searchin fer FreeBSD command fer listin supported ACPI function on this laptop which I found earlier at the office but I kinda fergot the address when I got home. It've been a while since I last updated the [FreeBSD & Me] section on my homepage. Well.. real life thingy..

I'm thinkin bout redesignin my homepage so that it'll be compatible with lynx and Links text-based web browser. Nah, ignore me blabberin..

Detonation has entered the buildin

Haha! Wohoo! My friend just came and bring me the darn Detonation: An Epic Defiance CD!! I think I'll sell those 3 Arch Enemy's CDs to Nuar and buy meself new ones. Ah, Ken Owen (Carcass drummer) is recoverin and probably (and hopefully) Carcass will reunite. Ho boy I hope the rumour is true though coz it's CARCASS DAGNAMMIT!.

Averting the plague
I shall repent injustice
For whom may ever retake my place
I shall be forever.

Prodigies of valor I see
Forever an epic defiance.

With my cassettes dyin/destroyed/lost/eaten by vermints/etc and are no longer bein a reliable source fer head bangin and/or air bassin, so, on to CD collections!!

My current wish list:
CD(s): At The Gates: Slaughter of The Soul, Carcass: Heartwork / Necroticism; Descanting The Insalubrious / Swansong / Wake Up And Smell.., Arch Enemy: Burning Bridges / Wages of Sin / Anthem of Rebellion (gonna miss my ex-CDs.. *sob*), Slayer: South of Heaven / Reign In Blood, Death: The Sound of Perseverance

T-Shirt(s): Carcass, Detonation, Arch Enemy

Etc(s): Maggi Mee, Any other instant noodles

Ahh.. My sister is hoggin the phone line so I'll have to wait fer quite a moment (forever) before I can publish this post. Urghhhhhh............................ I was supposed to publish this about, uh, 1 an hour ago.

Another CD fer my (not much of a) collection..

August is right around the corner and still no words bout my job application. I'm thinkin bout takin a CCNA course, or probably just a 1 subject exam because of financial instability this month (uh, like always). Last I heard the cost fer TCP/IP MCP from Informatic is just RM250 after promotion. Just exam and no course. Yeah very expensive. Dunno bout CCNA though. *Peekin inside the wallet*. Hmm.

Tomorrow I'll have Detonation: An Epic Defiance CD. Yeah! My friend sold it but it's in a great condition. I have the mp3s but havin a hard copy of it does make me feel good inside. Heh. Ah, somethin popped up in my head when I mentioned CD. Nuar still have my all 3 CDs of Arch Enemy; Burning Bridges, Wages of Sin & Anthem of Rebellion. Ahhhh! Luckily I have those in mp3s too but still, I love those CDs. The discman's earphone broke so I bought a new pair. Rarely use it but when I do need it, I don't want it to be broken. My System of a Down: Toxicity is officially lost. I need to buy a CD rack fer my CDs <=- Note: this quote will most probably takes 2 or 3 generations before it'll finally be materialized.

Today was a hot day at work. I'm gettin sun-burn everyday but today I was roasted. I was supposed to go to Kurnia's dinner tonight, but heck, I'm not in the mood fer another broadway dances, borin speeches, 12-course free meal and fellow agents gettin drunk like nobody's business.

Quote of the day is: "Thief 3 does not support play on notebook or laptop.". Drats. 3 cds fer nothin.. Should have bought Worms 3D instead. Hey Doom3 is out!

Miscelaneous rants (lazy to think of any topic)

Monday.. Sweet Monday.. Too bad I can't figure out any song with Monday in it. Typical Monday. The alarm was set to buzz me at 08:00 and I woke up at 09:00. Ah.. Why can't the rain keep on pourin till noon. I had a dream which I can't remember. I dunno what I dreamt about but I do know it's somethin irrelevant. As always. It's probably better that way, so that someday I'll have dejavu bout somethin.

I was thinkin bout somethin which I should've blogged just now. Actually a few hours ago. Hmm.. Ferget it. Still got cramps here. Sheesh. Ah, watched I-Robot and Garfield just now. Cool movies (and... ehem.. J-Love Hewitt). I tried to alter the template of this blog-o-mine but after seein the xml code, I gave up. Enough codin fer me. I have this bad habit of code obsession that will render brain achin fer mercy. What? I dunno xml stuph and I don't wanna know bout it, yet, coz if I do know even a little itsy bitsy info bout it, I'm sure I'll start googlin (again) fer tips, tutorials, howtos, samples et cetera until I got bored (which is fer sure, the easiest mood I'll fall into).

Still no ideas on the new song. My thinkin cap malfunctioned I guess. My other (step) brother took the darn guitar away with him to KL a few days ago so I'd just have to settle with hymmin fer new songs. Nuar didn't reply my sms, I guess he's pretty busy down there at his college. Fahmi = no news, busy with his work / PS2. The last time I saw Bobby was at the badminton hall. Six more days till another Sunday and you know what Sunday means, right?

Out of boredomness

Blasted! I wrote about 2 paragraph of more rants out of today's boredomness and all of a sudden the lines got changed to weird ascii characters. Dagnammit. So now I've to start all over again. Ah. Know wut? I fergot what I wrote earlier. Great. Just great. It's not just that we; the band and I didn't go fer a jam today, and now a simple text editor is tickin me off. Ever heard of "Like a stone - Audioslave"? Sure you have, haven't you? Well, you heard it and I'm the livin topic of the song. I'm sure this is one of the longest Sunday in my life. Surely it's the longest day I'm stayin at home, like a stone (see.. see.. I told you so).

Nobody called. Double drats. Tv's are airin borin shows all day long. Spiders are immigratin to my Ibanez's case. Any hour now, I'm sure I'd still be here though so no worries, the webs will be woven, on my Ibanez's case. I'm on irc, out of any channel.. and bored. It'd be great to know somebody on the net. To argue, rants, talk nonsenses and stuph.

There's must be somebody out there, as bored as me, tryin to resist the suicidal urge to eat nasi paprik ayam to death (what a nice way to die painfully..) fer havin to stay at home, bored as hell because there's nothin to do. I'm still tryin to remember what I wrote just now. Nope. Not even a hint. Ah. I've written fer bout 3 times in this blog today. On the very borin Sunday. That proves how bored I am today. AM!! Not WAS!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!.

Ah, bout that picture I put in. It's was a few month ago. But that's currently the newest image of meself that I have. It was taken at the band's jammin session (so that explains why there's no chicks screamin / tearin my shirt apart). Now, my hair is longer, so is my beard (girls go "ewwww"). Ah well, who cares anyway. I'm thinkin bout puttin the picture of my Ibanez next. Mebbe on my homepage, or here. I dunno.

My lovely kid sister went back to Penang this mornin. Everytime I sent her to the bus, I fear fer her safety, you know, maniacs nowadays are less brainier than.. uhm.. ever. Can't believe she's grown up now. And soon, she'll have her own life. But fer sure, I'll still be her big brother, whether she likes it or not :P. Mebbe I should teach her bout bloggin. Ahh.. good idea.

This program was brought to you by the letter B
and O
and R
and E
and D

At last.. my picture (or a part of it..)

Me with my Ibanez. Yeah you couldn't see my Ibanez. Oh Bobby on the back, doin some nail polishin stuph. Bleh.

Expect this picture to be on my profile. The camera have a lousy shutter so the picture is shaky. I'm not fond of cameras anyway. Later. 

Ah.. Sunday............ *sigh*

Bored to death, but I've just been rejuvenated. And now, bored again. AHHH!!! Where the neraka is everybody?! Hal-looo? It's Sunday dagnammit! Sunday is the day to jam! Well, it should be but anyway, where the hell are you guys huh? Man, this is so so borin. My Ibanez have been standin there, at the corner of this room fer weeks now. Hey I still have a bit of a cramps here. But still, Sunday = jam. Let's jam jam jam jam! Arghhh!! Nuar is attendin a seminar right now at his campus. A SEMINAR! ON SUNDAY! Man. Fahmi and Bobby, obviously like me, are at home and certainly bored to DEATH!.

While I'm waitin fer calls which would change my Sunday life forever, I figure that I should rants bout somethin in here. Everytime I turn my laptop on, there's this exact sequence I'll do after I logged on. First, I'll dial the darn TMNet prepaid (my hands are itchy to start flamin bout Streamyx.. again.. sheesh), then I'll open up opera, then fire up EasyMessage and lastly the Mozilla Thunderbird. I should've put all that in autostart but heck, I like it the current way. Click click this, click click that, the same thing everyday. So, it's a habit. How bout you guys?

Back to the borin Sunday, it 15:03 and still no ring. The tv is showin Hindi fer sure and I can't bear watchin that. I've seen, heard, played all the movies, albums, games I own (plus the goods pendin return *grins*) fer gazillion times so that's officially not helpin, at all. I feel like eatin somethin but there's no food in the fridge. I'm too lazy to walk to the store. I need to do somethin, fast, like... uhm.. jammin. Yeah, jammin. That's the perfect thing to do on Sundays like this. Playin my bass, singin till my throat sore, rantings with the band. Ah, it'll be perfect. Perfect as in Ibanez EDA 4 String (Sorry Ibanez TR Series, it's just a sayin, I'm not comparin you to some other bass) + Kayser Strings + JD Triangle Picks + Cordless Mic + on the stage with 100,000 crowd + in Kyoto + on live broadcast + Arch Enemy as our openin act's band. Yeah, it's a bit too far aye?.

if (Sunday != jammin) { die }
else { die happy }

.. or is it.. my phone broke...

Cramps... drats

Just now, after a few years (the last time was when I was at form 3), I just got back from playin badminton. We; me, Bobby, Sham and Bukat played fer 2 hours and right now, I got cramps on my right hand. Ack, I can't even move the darn mouse properly. Sheesh. Badminton lesson #1: warm up first. Badminton lesson #2: bloggin with a hand cramps will make the mouse on frenzy. If tomorrow AngelClaw are gonna have a jam session, expect me to go wacko with my Ibanez.

Since I tell bout it in FreeBSD Newbie's mailin list, my once-lonely homepage keeps gettin visitor now. Not bad at all. Talkin bout homepage, there's a few section I wanna update right now.

Ah, after shower. Still got the darn cramps though and worsenin. Eh, wait, I smell durian.. Ah, my sister bought durian *evil grin*. So, later alligator.

Sinchan: lalala durian lala, makan durian lalala..

Aye! Are we jammin tomorrow or what?!

Ah, I've been searchin fer people lately. On the net. I just got this new hobby, readin other people's blog/homepage etc. I wish I use streamyx though (Ah.. Not again..). Heck when it comes to net connection I'm always emotional. Hey, I think like I wanna try somethin out. Writin this darn blog usin BM. Ntah boleh ker tak? Ah, nice isn't it. Tadi baru jek.. emm.. (Ah I always have problem of callin myself in BM.. ya know, gua lu slang) me surf 1 site about blogs yang dibuat oleh Malaysian. Banyak seh. I guess bloggin is one of the popular things Malaysian do on the net. Readin other people's blog is fun, but time consumin so I better not make it a habit while I'm still on 56K modem (puke). Interestin enough, kredit TMNet prepaid nih tak abis laie dari 1st time register. Peh, lama gila. Still, I stand on my previous flame(s) to them :P. Nasty aye?.

Most of the blogs out there which I've read contains somethin practically similar. Aha, akademi fantasia. So, to attract more visitor to my freakin blog, from now on, I'll blog about akademi fantasia. Boleh caya ker? Nah, no way. I don't watch the darn show and I don't give a rat ass bout it (all a.f fans booing). What am I doin readin other people's blog? Well, I was tryin to catch some interestin net-chick but ended up readin their blog instead. Well, not all the chick's blog though. I even read many guy's blog which is ok too. It's too many of em bloggin and most of em didn't put informative description like "I'm an interestin net-chick single lookin fer a guy and I have a blog too" so while I was takin a peek to find some chick I ended up readin blogs instead. Darn. But interestin enough to waste more of my net bandwidth.

I've been browsin through a few match-makin site fer a few days and it's fun too. Ah, now on the match-makin thingy instead aye? Well heck. But because I have to register first before I get all the chick's email I gave up. Drats. Hey, what happened to the "BM" stuph? Ack. Neraka. Lupa jek manjang. Skang dah lebih sebulan tak jammin dah nih. Bosan gila dah. Fahmi, Nuar & Bobby senyap jek. Includin myself to be honest hehe. My head keeps playin Silverwing and everytime I'm lookin at my Ibanez, she screams "Turn me on! Lift me up! Hold my neck and finger me!!". Kinky huh? I wish I have more hobbies like clubbin, mall-"lepak"in chick flirtin et cetera et cetera coz I'm bored as neraka rite now. Neraka bosan ke?. Anyway, I can't seem to get any idea fer the band's new song. Neraka tul. Last nite I dreamt bout a song which rocks like gila tapi bila bangun jek teros lupa. Bowl (mangkuk.. nice translation aye?) betul la. Dah berapa kali dapat song parts yang best tapi lepas pegang gitar kapok jek tros lemah. Distortion takde seh, camno? "Jeng jeng jeng" macam lagu band2 regular kesayangan tabloid Malaysia jek. I really hope I'll be playin gigs soon. Real soon. Tak sabar nih. Manjang jammin lagu cover jek, bosan gak. Are there any gothic chicks waitin fer bands like us performin live? Huh? Gothic chicks are cool ya know. Detonation's An Epic Defiance is my winamp's current playlist now. \m/.

After bein spammed by countless numbers of icq spammer, I was icqed by a real human today. Lawak gak la kan, lama gila tak icq ngan orang, manjang kene spam ngan url website pr0n jek. So, kesian gak la kat orang tu, dilayan macam spammer fer the 1st few lines. This is why spammin, be it irc, icq, email, sms is totally a retard's work. It have made the communication medium full of crap. Hey, puttin "alsemo" in Google's search box puts me on the few top list. Hah. Now to test out how many page hit I get if I blog bout akademi fantasia..

Motherly love

My sister got herself a new mother. She's Allahyarham Kassim's wife. 2nd wife to be exact. My sister just knew that the women has no child and now she's livin alone at the house which she bought. She is very nice to my sister, because she knew some of our family members on my mother's half and she knew that this tragedy is destined to be. I feel quite ok now, to hear that. She even asked my sister and my nieces to come fer a sleepover at her house!

Sometime, bad things that happens is just a reason fer a good things to come. I think it's good, fer both of them, my sister and the women. Because both of them can take care of each other. Like I've told you before, my sister too lost her husband in a car accident. My sister is happy, in a way, that she received such an acceptance from a lady who've lost her husband from somebody related to my sister. I'm happy fer my sister too, because since my mother died (I miss you very much mom.. Al-Fatihah..), it've always been the three of us to take care of ourselves. It's just like, we haven't got enough of motherly love and I know my sister needs it. And somehow, in return, she can take care of the lady from now on.

The tragedy still haunts me somehow. The smells of blood, the look of the old man. I feels like I'm guilty, because I can't make it to the hospital in time. I should've drove faster. My eyes still iches, I'm havin a headache and I feel like I've caught a cold. In time like this, the feelin of bein lost and neglected is strong in me. I wish my mom was here because I miss her very much. I wish I can reach Intan and have her comfortin me. It feels like I'm left alone with all the people around me. Fer Muslims out there, I want to ask a favor, to give Al-Fatihah to Allahyarham Kassim, who died on 21st July in a tragic car accident; to my beloved mother, Zulifah Bt. Hj Idris who died peacefully on 28th January 2003; and to all of the people who we know and love, who have left us. Love those who loves you.

His name was Kassim

I just came back from work today, although fer only bout 1/2 an hour. I'm in no mood to work. The old man was around his 70's, his name's Kassim. I just got his name this evenin. He died in the General Hospital this mornin. Both my brother and my sister will go on trial this september. I went to the old man's house before I went to work and I feel guilty. I just can't think straight right now. Fer now, mebbe I'll not update this site fer some time until I feels like it. My eyes still stings coz I guess the shattered glass got into my eyes.

Caught in an accident..

How are you guys? I'm a bit mixed up right now. Shocked, confused and I'm feelin low. Why? Because my brother accidently hit someone with my sister's car. I was in my room, as usual, doin things with my laptop when all of the sudden, my niece came and tell me that my brother hit someone. I was speechless and my mind keep tellin me "let this be a dumb joke". But unfortunately, it's fer real. My sister was histerical, the car was gone, there was blood stains on the road. A women nearby told me that an old man came out from nowhere, runnin to cross the road when my sister's car came and accidently hit him.

Why is it have to be today? Why is it have to be this way? I was hopin that my brother is on his way to the hospital then because from my view of the scene, with shattered glass and bloods on the road, the old man must be in a serious condition. A while later, there was the car, infront of me. My brother speaks, with a slow yet tremblin voice, that the old man is on the back seat. "My God!, I thought you've already went to the hospital."

Tryin not to waste anymore time. I quickly take the wheel and drove. I could hear my brother weeps. I felt sorry fer the old man, and him. Accident can occur no matter how well prepared you are. The front window is shattered and cold wind blew right through it. "Why didn't you take him to the hospital?" I asked my brother. He said he don't know what to do. I was left speechless again. He is not to blame. He panicked. So I drove, thinkin of where's the nearest place to get a medical help fer the old man. There's a 24hour clinic nearby, so I guess that's the place where I should go to.

I was wrong, it's not just that the doctor came out like he's takin a walk in a park but when he came to the car, he briefly said "Sorry, you must take him to the hospital". "Can't you do somethin?" I asked. "No, take him to the hospital". "Can you call the ambulans?". I asked, impatiently. "Ambulans will take longer to come here. It's better..". Thinkin that it's useless to talk with the life of this old man is in danger, I ignored the doctor and took the drivin seat again. I can see the old man, gaspin fer air. And I got scared. I don't want him to die there, in the car.

I arrived at the General Hospital a few minutes after that and I parked the car in the emergency zone. Medics came and lift the man to a stretcher, and they hurried to the emergency room. I told my brother to call my father to come and bring my ID because I didn't even bring my wallet. The policeman there took our statement, and asked us to go to the Police HeadQuarters to make a report. I'll be goin, with both my brother and sister, to the HQ later after this. I still don't know who's the old man and he got no ID with him. I hope he'll be fine and I'm truly sorry fer what that had happen.

Sometime we can't be certain of how much more time we'll have in life. No matter how well prepared we are, how much precautions we took, if by God's will our life is destined to end that day, on that time, there's nothin we can do. I'm not tellin stories here, so don't think that I'm doin literature just now. I won't sleep tonight because I can't. I just hope that the old man survive.

True to the passion

It's 23:41 and it's rainin like cats and dogs. It's pretty much a rainy season this past few weeks. Everytime Ramadhan is around the corner, rain will pour almost everyday a few month before the fastin month. And fer sure, Ramadhan will be yet again, a test fer all muslim. I've been skippin work a few days in this month because of rain. In fact I started my work after the Friday prayer yesterday coz I'm havin a bad headache. I was soaked the day before and I was granted that headache. Luckily I didn't catch any cold or fer sure it'll be a few days off.

Another job applied, thus requirin another wait and hope. Sigh. I do hope I'll get a new job. After more than a year workin this job I have, I really think that it's enough. Workin a job I have no interest in fer a period this long is almost unbelievable to me. Oh, one of my friend was voted by his department to resign from his current job. Voted? Come on. I feel sorry fer him. Sometime life is really cruel to us huh. Everyday it's work fer money -> get paid -> waste money -> work some more to get more money to waste. I guess I'm included too. But I have passion fer jobs that I'm interested in. That's a bit different. Uhm, I guess the correct way to put it is I have passion fer things I'm
interested in. And if those things changed to job, it'll be better. Fer now, I'm not bothered to put a price on pc troubleshootin I've done fer my neighbour, friends etc coz I just like doin it. The passion fer it. Heck if they offered somethin in return I'll surely accept but that's not mandatory.

Maybe because I'm not workin fer it. I'm just helpin. Things might get different if I was workin in a computer company and I'm paid to do it. But I'm sure the passion is still there. Some of my friends strayed from things they love to do because of money. Some even erased those things they have passion fer completely. Did I say it's bad? No. I guess they made the right choice. But the right choice fer them doesn't mean it's right fer anyone else. Includin me. In a sense, I've strayed from what I'm fond of too, if we're talkin about workin on the things. But I'm still true to those things, though it's not my job. Ah, it feels like sentimental things yet again. I guess it is.

Another day goes by

Today is Sunday, just like other ordinary Sundays. I just came back from KL this evenin and I tried somethin different fer a change. I figure that it've been a long time since I last went fer mall-walkin (walkin around shoppin malls, like window shoppin but no specific interest in goods, just lookin at people.) so with my backpack and The Police: Greatest Hits CD in my discman, I went mall-walkin. Ah, it feels a bit ackward, as I'm no more a young teenage to go mall-walkin. And beside, wanderin with no purpose doesn't interest me anymore, or maybe just fer today.

It's funny to have a purpose fer mall-walkin because I guess the point of mall-walkin is just to waste some time. Well, I guess I'm easily lost nowadays. There's always a strong purpose fer me to actually go out. Be it fer a jam session or buyin CDs or game hatever, I always have a purpose. So mall-walkin fer me, like I've said, is an ackward thing to do nowadays. I had a dilemma before that, as I've just arrived from KL, to make a choice whether to go home straight away or do somethin else. So that's why the mall-walkin idea came through. Oh, another thing, goin out on a tight budget is not that fun either. Heh.

Previously before that, I was at my pal's house stayin fer a night somewhere around Pandan Indah. Shah, my friend from my hometown's house. His sister said somethin bout a job openin in her office so I sent my resume by hand to her brother, Shah. If all goes well, this month will be my last month workin my current job. It've been too long already and I missed workin the job I prefer and good at. Actually I'm tired workin my current job. I did some simple experiment last week, countin the meter of my bike and on that day, I rode fer about more or less 30km around Seremban. Wow. And that was a non-busy day. Sheesh. Not to mention facin wreckless drivers on the street. Last Thursday was a moody day fer me and I middle-fingered 2, or maybe more car drivers on separated occasions. Fer car drivers out there, drive carefully and just be considerate about other road users. Almost all bikers who were cought in road accidents end in death. If you're thinkin bout the small bunch of illegal bike racers, stop, that's just a small portion of the bikers who are dead in road accidents. And don't you think about "they deserved it".

Most men in Malaysia died because of heart related problems. In fact it's at the top spot fer the common cause of death here. It's somewhat botherin to know that fact. I'm a bit worried bout my heart. I get this heart-ache, not a biggy but still it bothers me. Some time it hurts a bit. I guess I'm smokin too much tobacco. Drats. Quittin is hard. I don't wanna be among the people who died in heart related problem's statistic.

It've been a while since I last update any part of my web related contents be it website or else. I'm stuck with Medieval: Total War. ;o).