My grandmother is in hospital & packin my bags.

I just came back from hospital. Went to visit my grandmother (my father's side) who had a breathin difficulties. She is 84 years old. When I saw here just now, she's ok and she talks to me and my cousins. Because of there's only a few of male grandchildrens she ever had, I'm sort of special to her. She even remembers my last ex-gf (she thinks I'm still havin a relationship with her, I don't want to tell her bout the breakup) and she'll be in the hospital fer a couple more days. I hope everythin will be ok. To tell you the truth, I'm in a state of division right now. To go to Singapore or not. But I have to go. Like I've said, I hope everythin will be fine.

I'm packin my bag right after this blog. So, no more bloggin until this Sunday. Fahmi will come to my house at 8:00 o'lock next mornin and our ticket is fer 10:30's bus trip. I wish I won't accidently left anythin important behind tho. eg: like my bass guitar (LoL). Got no more to say fer now. So, you guys will read bout me later this Sunday. Wish us a safe journey and good luck on our trip/show. Later!

Upcomin Singapore's trip and gigs.

No luck bout the "1 month balance in passport" thingy. I HAVE to renew my damn passport. So I did. I went to the Immigration Office today and that's the last time I cought a glimpse of my 300 bucks. Drats. Anyway I can pickup my new passport tomorrow. You should see my recent photo fer my new passport. Such a long hair (haha!).

Me and my band also bought our bus ticket fer this Friday's trip. It'll probably cost more than RM40 (my friend Faiz, who's the cameraman/manager fer the band used his money upfront.) and what else is new? This will probably be the fastest way to get broke. It's even harder to think that Singapore have 2 times higher currency value than ours. Instant noodle will be my daily diet over there fer sure. Now you know the hardship we; musician have to face just fer the sake of enjoyin ourselves. It's even harder when you're playin that sort of music that was never meant to be radio-friendly. Plus chicks don't dig it. Ah well, I'll be enjoyin meself fer sure. Somehow I hope we will get paid fer performin at this gigs. Not hopin to get rich tho, just enough to cover our bus tickets and food is AOK. No high hopes here.

I was thinkin bout gettin a simple "inai" tattoo fer my left arm but because time is runnin out, I guess I can just ferget bout it. I will be leavin on Friday mornin, probably at 10 in the mornin or somethin. Didn't remember the exact time our bus will be leavin fer Johore Bahru. So I'm officially out of the net until this Sunday. Do wish us a safe journey guys.

I heard that Fleur Du Mal (whatever the band's name is) will be playin at the gigs too so this *will* be interestin. I don't know what other bands in this upcomin gigs. But from bits of info, this gigs is a fully Metal scene gigs. Not a "rojak" (mixed genre) gigs like our last performance. Not that "rojak" gigs is bad but the reception is better in a fully Metal gigs. I'm secretly hopin that my band will perform at the peak time, when the crowd is packed and energies can be felt everywhere. Somethin like in the middle of the gigs. Performin too soon and many crowd will missed the performance (comin a bit late to the gigs) and performin too late will be quite borin because the crowd is gettin tired, neck achin etc etc (Hey headbangin is tirin you know!). Anyway we will record our whole show so expect me to seed the video(s) a few days/weeks after the gigs. Woohoo!

Speakin bout video, Fahmi's camcorder is currently broke. Sheesh. But lucky him he managed to borrow another camcorder from a friend. Eh, did I tell you bout Fractured - Inside The Bodybag's unofficial video clip edited by Udin? Whoa he's freakin genius! I saw the clip 2 days ago and he got serious talent fer video editin. I won't seed the clip tho because:

a) The sound was taken from our demo album, which the songs was not performed by me. (History reloaded: I joined Fractured *after* they made their demo album).
b) There's some 18sx/sg scenes in it. Not a hardcore pr0n stuff excuse me but some shots taken from "Cannibal Ferox/Holocaust" (rated B) movie (I guess).

Anyway we will be makin an official video clips soon. It's in our schedule and I bet with the talent he got, Udin will make an awesome video out of it. Brace yourself fer that specific news. Later!.

Earthquake, memorisin lyrics.

Another 8.7 rector scale earthquake hit Indonesia as told in Yahoo!. Just 0.3 scale less than what triggered the worst tsunami, this recent earthquake is "one of the eight biggest in the world since 1900" leavin 1,000 or probably more, dead instantly. The shock can be sense here too in Malaysia as told my my friend in Putrajaya and my kid sister in Penang. This worries me. Hopefully no more tsunami are comin because we're livin in a tiny country. It's a troublesome feelin, to be livin in a place where is was safe from tornado, earthquake, volcano and other natural disaster before; and now slowly the world are changin to the worst. God knows what's best.

Today is a bit of a busy day fer me. I replied 1 email, replied 3 messages, wrote this blog, sendin mp3s and I'm currently memorisin the lyrics of all the songs Fractured will perform this 2nd April at Singapore. I feel like I'm takin a school exam with this kind of things. Haha. Sheesh, I fergot The Haunted's lyrics. Damn.

I still haven't renewed my passport yet. Haha. Yeah I know you all are bored with this particular issue. But wait!. My officemate told me that I have to at least have a month worth of balance in my passport to get into Singapore. So all hope is not lost. I *may* have the chance to save my preeeecciioousss (Gollum's style) RM300. Anyway, I will be goin to Immigration Office tomorrow and the truth will prevail. I hope the news I heard is true because it IS a waste of money to renew the darn passport when I have a few month's worth of balance in it.

I better start readin the lyrics again. Later.

Countdown to Singapore.

Me and Fractured went fer a jam session last night and my vocal cord can stand the torture fer just 40 mins. I guess my throat is not 100% ready yet. Man this worries me. We got less than a week before the Singapore gigs and I hope my throat will be 100% healthy before that. I think I have to stop drinkin ice thingy and go fer "air suam" (plain water) instead. Heck I want this 1st gigs outside Malaysia to be as perfect as it can. Last night will probably be our last jam session in preparation fer Singapore's gigs and I'm pretty sure we're totally ready to kick some arse.

I still haven't renewed my passport yet. Yeah bad bad me. But I'm waitin fer my paycheck to clear and it'll take bout 2 or 3 days. I will have the opportunity to renew my passport probably on 30th. Whoa. We'll be buyin our bus ticket on 31st and the trip will be on the next day. Time fly fast (I fergot how many time I wrote that..). Really fast. I was mumblin bout the gigs a few weeks ago and now it's just a few days until the real experience. Damn. I'm scared thinkin bout the reception there. Heck, just go with it and have fun. That's what matter the most.

I guess now is the right time to advertise my band's trip to Singapore's gigs everywhere my web presence can be noticed. Hehe. Self-boastin is my game :). Later.

Rainin != football match

Like a bad recurrin dream, a twisted deja vu; it's rainin here. Yeow. But I'm not changin to my football shorts this time around. No sirree. The cool feelin of the rainin atmosphere, plus the warm cozy feelin of my room is tellin me to ferget the darn football match today. Nuar is comin back today and we'll probably hang out fer some Neskepe or somethin. Or I can just join Bobby and Alon coz they've been seducin me to follow them fer a Port Dickson fishin trip. Or a much better plan, I can just lie down on my comforter and see if I'll get any good dream today. Later.

Another football match this evenin.

So I missed last week's football match. So what?! So they won. Big time. But because I was NOT there. *cough*. Anyway we got another football match today. I dunno what team we're up against but the only thing that matter is the weather. I hope it doesn't rain because last week, I'm the only player who didn't came. It seems that other places didn't rain. Probably I was voodoo-ed because my absence is crutial to make them win that match. Oh no I'm not drunk. I'm just preparin fer this evenin's match. Mentally :D. Later.

Fallin in love.. and just fallin

I always look at her when I'm there. Fer such a figure like that, who ain't anyway? Many are lookin too. Men and women alike. Can't blame em though, she's attractive. Very attractive. Sometime I wonder what if, if I had her. Sheesh it's unimaginable. Just thinkin bout possibilities scares me. She might be someone else's special thing. Yeah there are others like her but when I got my eyes fixed on her, and only her, then it's a different thing. It's insane, to be fallin in love and knowin that you just can have her. Just thinkin bout who'll finally get her is breakin me. But I can't hope forever, can I? And she won't wait forever, will she? As I walk outside the buildin where she's at, I saw her again. Still beautiful as always. Damn hot. And I saw someone is approachin her. I can't bear this any longer. The torment, the hopelessness. And at that specific moment, I said to meself:

"Someday that Ibanez EDA WILL be mine....". Later

And it finally rains, kids nowadays & passport..

After a quite lengthy dry weeks, it rains just now. Aahhh. What a relief. The smell of wet grass. The sound of frogs. The shiverin cool temperature. It've been foggy this past few days and I heard rumors that there have been a few major forest fires around. Hopefully the rain will have a regular visit because everybody here needs it.

My big sis went to the police station just now and made a report about bullies. Not just any bully case, this involves primary school kids. A few of this kids have been threatenin my nephew fer quite some time. They even get as far as badmouthin my big sis. They were tryin to throw stones at my big sis's car and that pushed her limit. So she went to make a police report. I wonder how did their parents raise them. Still in primary school and they've showed their bad potential. Now what am I to do here? Don't get me wrong, I AM angry. I'm just keepin it cool because they're kids. Hey I can go slap those kids to my heart content but in the end, I'll get labeled as "Child Abuser" and that is not a good image. Now what would YOU do? Oh no I'm not gonna sit still now that the kids have gone way past my patient's limit. If it's really out of control, his parents will get it from me.

Kids nowadays. Did you see the news a few days ago? The case when a boy ran amok and starts shootin at some school. He killed a few (even had a shootin spree around his neighborhood beforehand) and injured others. And the news before that bout a kid, a really young kid who shot his lil brother out of an arguement. He, as told by the news; took a gun from underneath his mom's pillow and shot his lil bro. Can't remember whether the poor boy is still alive or not. Now tell me this is not insane. Can't you see what lots of TV and accessibility of guns are takin our kids (ehem I'm still not married yet, nor I have my own children but heck who cares.) to? What are the role of parents nowadays? Help me here somebody. I really don't get this.

Take the case of my big sis fer an example. The bully's parents have this extra faith that their boy is an angel. Now this brat is smart. He's an angel, but only when he's with his parents. Out of the house, now that's a different story altogether. I'm not sayin that we can't trust our childrens (ehem like I have any..), but do take any friendly reports from your community more seriously. Don't just shut your ears when someone report that your kid has been doin some bad things. Ignorant is not a bliss. Will we wait fer another bloodshed before we can see that what we've done is wrong?. As we're told in Islam, it goes somethin like: "kids are like a pure white piece of cloth, it is we (the parents) who will color it".

Angah have a passport now. Drats. Now me and Udin are the only 2 person who haven't make/renew our passport. Don't blame me my budget are in a chaos state right now. I'll probably renew my darn passport next Monday, if I can convince my boss to sign the paycheck earlier than usual. Here I am countin days to bring some pride fer my country on Singapore's gigs and I have to pay money to get my passport renewed?! Come on! RM300?!! Ohhh mannnn. I have a few months left in my old passport so can't you just cut RM150 from the total? Sheesh.

XP tweaks @ TweakHound

TweakHound is a place fer we who *ehem*, use Windows XP. This site have many tweak be it fer XP security or performance. Cool stuff. Ever wonder if you can safely turn off *that* service? Now you can learn just that and much more. Recommended readin fer XP users. You won't regret it. Later.

Techno 'Rock-A-Fire' lyric.

This will be my 1st attempt on bloggin lyrics. And fer this special occasion, I'll choose a simple techno song "Rock-a-fire" which you can guess the earth-shatterin bass will sound like. Here goes:

Main Verse:
Rock-A-Fire!

* Repeat 7669382679 times or till the song ends. Whichever comes 1st.

Later.

Long and hot day

Ever wish the day could be longer and the fun never ends? Well you wish has come true. But. Yeah there's a but. It'll be a long hot day. Article written in Utusan Malaysia Online - Dalam Negeri (note that this is written in Bahasa Malaysia) tell just the same thing. Startin tomorrow, 21st March 2005; the sun will stay with us longer than 12 hours. Probably 14 hours. Now that's a long day. Not to mention that the sun will be right above us contributin to a hotter climate. This phenomenan will continue fer a few days. Visit here fer information of this so called equinox.

If the forecast is true, then we're talkin bout 40Celcius here man. Wow. It's time fer us to buy sunblock. I dunno how it'll be but I'm pretty sure it's way hot. Even this few weeks is a physical torture. Dry season, lack of rains. Lyin on the beach will be a bad idea. Unless cancer ain't your concern. I can imagine meself can barely keepin my eyes open ridin my bike. I don't quite like sunlight. Yeah it's a vampire thingy. No I won't get burn out tho. I'm a daywalker. Heh I'm startin to write nonsense here. Hey do you know that it's written in the newspaper (Malaysian) that our current hot weather is makin people moody? Bad mood. Yeah well it's true. You can ask Ferrari fans everywhere (ouch.. :P). Oh yeah blame it on the weather. Ok ok it's a bad joke. Sheesh chill out. Seriously, keep lotsa drinkin water handy fer this few days. Urrhh just thinkin bout this equinox make me thirsty. Ah well luckily our workin hour don't get extended. Later.

F1 fever again. Go Sauber-Petronas (Sorry Ferrari fans..)

It's F1 fever again! If you're an F1 fan, go visit http://www.malaysiangp.com.my fer it is a local-based website on everythin bout man and wheels. Cool site as currently I can see the F1 countdown timer showin me there'll be 2 hours and 45mins left until F1 starts. Way cool. The site also have information bout Moto GP, Japan GT, Merdeka Endurance and many more which is great. It also have information on how to get to Sepang F1 Circuit, info on Malaysia, races merchandise and lots more. The site is geared towards Sepang F1 Circuit and its activities.

Speakin bout F1, I wonder how it'll go with the dry season here in Malaysia. Hot fer sure. Very hot. I guess we'll have many dramatic moments in the race today. Be it mechanical failures, engine failures etc. No I'm not bein sarcastic. It's just that it's very hot here. Well this will be a new challenge to the drivers. Can't let em win easy aye?

I'm waitin fer the next.. ehem.. Japan GT. Dunno if they air it on TV though. Till then. Tanosimimasyo!!

Fractured music video!

I got the Fractured last week's jam session video in my hard disk. There's about 5 songs in it. A moment ago, I've just finished doin some minor editin on the video and I've made a clip for Fractured Once Stabbed. So now I have my own music video. Amateur music video that is.

I was about to upload it to i-bands.net but because this vidz is a jam session's vidz which as you can imagine, the sound is not that good, I made the decision to not upload it. But fear not! I've made the clip available in eXeem so if you have eXeem, you can leech the vid Fractured_-_Once_Stabbed.wmv after 6:00PM Peninsular Malaysian time. Dunno how long I'll be seedin it tho so if you're interested in seein my band's jam session vidz, go ahead and leech it.

info: eXeem is based on torrent which is another p2p protocol fer sharin files over the net. p2p is Point To Point which eliminate the need fer special hostin/server to serve the files meanin that your pc is one of the server servin the files. Get eXeem which I'm currently usin. It's great fer a program still in beta. Here's the link:

http://www.exeem.com

If you have it and want to get my jam session vidz, search fer:

Fractured Once Stabbed

or click on this link below

Fractured_-_Once_Stabbed.wmv

or copy paste this in eXeem

exeem://46/d42ebe0ace1c066202a6ceed6236d8afc5e5bb92/Fractured_-_Once_Stabbed.wmv

You might find it. I might even personally send it to you usin YM! or any other method if you are a chick and single. Hah! Later.

It rains... :/

I was just about to leave my house fer the football match when all of a sudden, it rains. It's still rainin outside. I have a feelin that if this rain doesn't stop before 5:00PM, the match will be postponed till next week or another week. Yeow. There's still a few more minutes left. I hope the rain will stop. The cloud is gettin darker now. Sheesh. I'm still wearin my football shorts. Just in case.

I have a feelin that we will win today. Big time. Hmm.

Another football match

Ole ole! I got another football match today at 5:00PM. We, Bumiputra Commerce Finance - Seremban Branch FC will be playin against Jabatan Pendidikan (Seremban). I'll go as defend again because my calves is kinda cramped right now from my previous workout. No more smokin when stretchin/warmin up now. Expect world class football extravagant this evenin as we try not to get beat up too much. I hope no one's wearin no 9 because that's my fav number.

Karl here, bringin you live sport actions, right in my blog. And that's a score! Later.

2nd week of workout & message to the bozo.

This is my 2nd week of workout. I've been reschedulin my workout.. err.. schedule and now I'm currently workin out just twice per week. I read that rest are also important fer muscle to grow so that made me change my schedule. Speakin bout workin out, my schedule was supposedly on Monday and Tuesday. But because of some unavoidable circumstances, I went to the gym last Tuesday, yesterday and later today. What? You said 2 times per week? Yes 2 times per week. Yesterday doesn't count because I didn't do any workout yesterday.

Somethin bout yesterday. Me and 2 of my gym buddy went there around 8 somethin. Yeah it's a bit late but one of my buddy got a problem with his car causin the delay. So we were there, and there were many people in it. You see, I got no problem socialisin. But there's a group bout 4 people, a regular. They're probably a few month senior than me. One of the guy, which got a few kilos more than me seems to have this attitude of a typical asshole. I didn't notice that, my buddy did. When we came in, this asshole will eye me and starts mumblin with his group. With a few laughter. Like I've said, I didn't notice anythin because I typically just mind my own dawgdamn business in there. See, when my buddy told me bout it afterward (we didn't do any workout because the place is quite packed, there are a few more people in it which me and my buddies know.) that started to piss me off. Why? Because my body type never bother anyone. So why can't people just respect others? I can take that kind of insult from real bodybuilder with bulky muscles. Yeah sure. But heck fer a "senior" with a few month of workout, they're practically losers. One of the bodybuilder which me and my buddy know, named Dino; used to be a skinny dude a few years back. And now he's like an idol to the beginner (except me because too muscular ain't my cup of tea). There's also Art, who's skinnier than me a year and a half ago. Now they don't simply judge people. But this group of bozos with kindergarden mentality just don't get it. Don't get me wrong. I'm not the only person pissed of with this bozo group. Even most of the guys in there did. But because of bein professional, all of em just take it easy.

Now what will I do? Take steroid so I can lift 200kg like mad? Nah. I'll just continue with my regular workout and as let the bozos be. I'm whinin here because it's my damn blog. Yeah I'm still pissed off but it's not fatal to any. If I can just focus on the workout and ferget bout the loonies, I'll probably beat em real good and if that time comes, I'm pretty sure they'll start to realise that they were supposed to work their body muscles, not just their foul mouth.

Metalterus.com.my, job hunt (again?) & Ibanez EDA

Fer you metalheads. You can read many metal infos about local and oversea metal scene at http://www.metalterus.com.my. The site is geared towards BM readers so keep your English - Bahasa Malaysia dictionary handy. I heard a news that the Singapore gigs we (Fractured) will be playin will be posted there on the site. The flyers has been printed but I didn't receive my copy yet so talk is talk fer now. The gigs info is still a secret even to meself and I'm kinda doubt the news I heard. Damnit. I need some sorta proof so it's easier fer me to tell/brag/bullshit about it to my friends. Sheesh. Yeah bein pissed-off is my 2nd name.

I'll probably go fer a job interview in KL tomorrow with my buddy. Don't tell my boss because I didn't. Anyway it may be another failed plannin unworthy of rementionin so no high hopes fer that.

I dreamt I was playin is a gigs with an Ibanez EDA bass. Tell ya the truth, it was wayyyyyyyyy sweet. So, I'll marry those who give that dream bass-o-mine fer my b-day. No doubt. Yep. Uh-huh. Yessirree. Hah!. Later.

The light of smoke... *cough*..

Quit smokin? Fer a while? Yeah right *puffin Marlboro Light*. Yeah ok I'm a bit inconsistent. It's funny because whether it's full flavour, menthol or light; it'll contain the same tar and nicotine amount. Ah well, at least the 'Light' can ease up the sore on my throat. Yeah sure. *cough cough*. It's better. Not the cough. It's the feelin. Hah!

Late jam & sore throat..

I opened this Blogger Editor at 10:00AM or so, and actually writin somethin (this blog) at about 6:00PM. Hah! What happened? I fell asleep. Me and Fractured had a jam session last night which started at 2:00AM. Imagine that. Plus all the teh tarik session after that, which a simple math can assume that I got back home really late. This guys have the habit of bookin the darn studio at the last hour, so that's why we always got late night jam session. Drats. It's very tirin.

Speakin of late night jammin last night, I nearly lost my voice. The cold left me leavin an itch on my throat. And coughin is makin it worst. This is bad. With the Singapore gigs is comin in a few weeks, I don't want anythin bad happen to my throat and/or voice. 1st time performin outside Malaysia and already losin my voice? Now that sucks. I'm now quittin smokin until my throat is healthy again. Sheesh just writin bout quittin smoke is hard enough. Later.

Lyrics.

FYI, I've just finished writin the 3rd lyric fer Fractured and there's still 1 song left to write the lyric fer. Now 'Once Stabbed' has lyrics. I was pretty lazy and brain dead so that explain why my lyrics writin skill is nothin to be proud of. I was unmotivated too so that adds up. But because we're most probably be playin in Singapore so I have to hurry up with the lyrics and memorise it. Still on anti-war stuff tho because I have more ideas on that issue.

Fer me, 'Once Stabbed' is the hardest Fractured song to perform. One of the reason is that I haven't memorise my own lyrics yet. Haha. Seriously, that song is pretty fast and the vocal is pretty much fast too. Because I'm the bassist AND vocal, I'm pretty much have to focus on both while performin that song. It's easier to jam with just singin nonsense (just like before I wrote the lyrics) and it's much much harder when I have to exactly speak (or rather.. ehem.. shout) the correct words. Plus the bass follows the guitars. Still, this is my fav song.

Now to write the last lyrics. Now where's my thinkin cap? Later.

Cold and shampoo.

Today is one of those days when the body didn't function at the optimum performance. I got a cold and it's quite a story how I got it. Tersedak == choke? I dunno. Then the back of the nose starts to feel sick. And soon the body starts to give up. Well I need a rest anyway.

I've been usin this "Hair Fall Control" shampoo fer nearly 2 weeks now (2 times per week). I always uses Rejoice "Dandruff Control" shampoo and I'm still a happy user. But because I haven't restock my fav shampoo yet, I was left with the only option of usin my sister's shampoo. I'll spare the product name. What's my verdict? When it says "Hairfall Control" it really is. And I guess the shampoo ain't happy with my long hair. I better get meself the trusty Rejoice again or else there'll be no hair to shampoo. Later.